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YAY!!! I 'm starting to come back ; the bacground thougths..
The sense of direction..
The longing to create superficial structures in the air, and scope and mold, and plaguerise.
The many connections, are intertwining; and spinning around. And I don't just feel "able",
but I feel really good...
The sense that I can just drift into any direction I like; that there's nothing solid; and
that everything just runs together..
Drifting, dreaming, through fresh water..
My sleeping is kind of mental. And my concentration, and focus is still held back a bit.
But I'm assuming with states such as these, once I start getting more used to them, I'm going
to get a real buzz. And my head will open right up. And everything will just fall into place.
There's no sense of anything being necssary. Of passing time. There's all the time in the world,
and there's all the ways to fill them .. Within my bounds of direction.
... Everything .. is ... coming .. togther ...
And now, I have to make something of it.
The sense of direction..
The longing to create superficial structures in the air, and scope and mold, and plaguerise.
The many connections, are intertwining; and spinning around. And I don't just feel "able",
but I feel really good...
The sense that I can just drift into any direction I like; that there's nothing solid; and
that everything just runs together..
Drifting, dreaming, through fresh water..
My sleeping is kind of mental. And my concentration, and focus is still held back a bit.
But I'm assuming with states such as these, once I start getting more used to them, I'm going
to get a real buzz. And my head will open right up. And everything will just fall into place.
There's no sense of anything being necssary. Of passing time. There's all the time in the world,
and there's all the ways to fill them .. Within my bounds of direction.
... Everything .. is ... coming .. togther ...
And now, I have to make something of it.