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gatesofsteel January 27 2013, 17:20:03 UTC
THE DIFFICULT STUFF (TRIGGER WARNINGS AHEAD):
MY MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES IN A NUTSHELL: major depression/bipolar. I was diagnosed with major depression when I was 20, though I'd had it for years, then re-diagnosed seven years ago as having bipolar. I don't have much mania, though.
I'M A SURVIVOR OF: parents, friends, and doctors who told me I was fat when I was 5'7" and weighed 160 lbs. Pul-eeze. being teased since 4th grade for having big boobs. Like, 36E when I was 160 lbs in junior high school.
MY TRIGGERS SO THAT YOU'RE AWARE OF THEM (OPTIONAL): this is really weird, I know, but… details of abuse to animals. hypocritically, I'm not a vegetarian.
MEDICATIONS THAT I AM ON (OPTIONAL): for bipolar: Lexapro 20mg, Depakote 500mg, Vitamin D 5000 iu; for arthritis pain: Celebrex 200mg/day, Elavil 10mg/day, Soma 350 mg 2-4x/day, Norco 10/325mg 4-5x/day. Xanax and alcohol occasionally; working (and it is WORK, let me tell you!) on getting a medical marijuana card for pain.
OTHER HEALTH ISSUES (OPTIONAL): severe arthritis in hips, knees, back, neck, and now creeping into my hands. I currently weigh about 260 lbs and need to get down to about 225 so I can get the worse hip replaced. I'm an advocate for fat acceptance though, and for being healthy, including having good health esteem, and not waiting to get skinny for life to start. I wasted decades doing that, even though my blood pressure, blood sugar, and cholesterol are all more healthy than average.
OTHER THINGS THAT YOU SHOULD KNOW (PLEASE NOTE NECESSARY TRIGGER WARNINGS IF APPLICABLE): Nothing else I can think of at the moment.

EASIER STUFF:
HOW I RUN MY JOURNAL: (for instance: filters, how often you post, how often you comment, things that you talk about on your journal, etc) Right now, it's unlocked except for some terribly embarrassing fanfic, and some not at all embarrassing "normal" short stories. I don't use my journal much but I would like to, but I don't get out of the house much thanks to depression and physical pain, and I know I need to socialize.
FRIENDING POLICIES: I don't really have any
THINGS I WILL NOT TOLERATE ON MY JOURNAL: mentions of animal abuse, including what a hypocrite I am for still eating meat; bigotry, including bigotry towards white heterosexual men. I don't have a very high tolerance for PC speak.
ANYTHING ELSE: I've been married for 20+ years to a fantastic white heterosexual male who is a pre-published screenwriter. He keeps us all in cat food and people food (we have five cats, one from a shelter and four we found at various times as very young, sick kittens in our yard, who we then nursed back to health and got too attached to to adopt out) as a philosophy and religious studies professor.

POST SOMETHING THAT MADE YOU SMILE TODAY:
Watching my cats play with each other, and cuddling with them in bed and when they jump up on my desk.

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atoms_vibrating January 28 2013, 04:29:58 UTC
details of abuse to animals
Oh my gosh, yes. I have panic attacks when subjected to images or descriptions of animals being tortured or otherwise. I'm not sure why I find so confronting (other than the fact that animal abuse is terrible); but whatever it is, it triggers something deep inside me that upsets me on levels I can't express.

I'm an advocate for fat acceptance though, and for being healthy, including having good health esteem, and not waiting to get skinny for life to start.
AMEN, SISTAH.

Friends? My thread is at the top if you wish to read mine. :-)

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gatesofsteel January 28 2013, 12:28:47 UTC
I once walked out on a job, on the spot, because a coworker repeated a really horrible animal abuse story in my presence not ten minutes after she'd told me and I'd asked her to PLEASE not talk about things like that in my presence. That was the next to last job I worked, no doubt leaving like that added to the evidence for my not being able to work.

Oops, I meant "having good self esteem" but yeah, you get the idea.

Friended. I read your thread before commenting originally, because I wanted to see whose journal and world I was commenting to :)

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zhelana January 28 2013, 18:56:50 UTC
Enders Game is one of my favorites, too. Did you know they're coming out with a movie for this this year? Seriously, they've been promising me this since high school. I remember talking to a friend about it then! I'm so excited!

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gatesofsteel January 28 2013, 22:00:10 UTC
Ooo, I did not know that! I'm not sure if I'd have the guts to go so see, so afraid they'd ruin the books for me, you know? I love Ender's Shadow, too, but strangely enough it took me a few tries and several years to really get into Speaker for the Dead and then Xenocide, but I really loved them when I finally did read them. His novel Lovelock really fascinated me, too. Time for that one again, I think.

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zhelana January 29 2013, 02:35:01 UTC
You know I had a lot of trouble getting into Speaker for the Dead and Xenocide, too. But, I really like the whole Shadow series. I haven't read anything else by him - perhaps I should. But yeah I'm afraid they're going to ruin it - they are making Ender 15 in the movie, basically because there aren't enough talented 6 year old actors...

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gatesofsteel January 28 2013, 21:58:14 UTC
Absolutely! I've added you.

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