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fuchsiascreams January 26 2013, 14:27:54 UTC
BEFORE READING MY POST, PLEASE NOTE THESE TRIGGER WARNINGS:
•Emotional, physical, and psychological abuse
•Mentions of self-harm and suicide
•Mentions of drug abuse

ABOUT ME:
NAME/NICKNAME: Holly
AGE & LOCATION: 23/Canada
GENDER IDENTITY & PREFERRED PRONOUNS: Female/female pronouns.
OCCUPATION/STUDYING:

MORE ABOUT ME:
DESCRIBE MYSELF IN FIVE WORDS: Honest/blunt, sensitive, ambitious, curious, creative. And awkward.
HOBBIES & PASTTIMES: Reading, writing, painting, listening to music, studying/learning, playing games, animals. Just.. animals.
FIVE FAVOURITE BOOKS: "White Oleander" by Janet Fitch; "Watership Down" by Richard Adams; "The Neverending Story" by Michael Ende; "The Last Unicorn" by Peter S. Beagle; "The Hobbit" by J. R. R. Tolkien; and "Memoirs of a Geisha" by Richard Golden.
FIVE FAVOURITE MOVIES: Only five! Ugh. I don't think I can only pick five. I have at least five favorite movies JUST from Disney. I guess, uh.. The Tenth Kingdom, The Last Unicorn, Sin City, Vanity Fair, uh.. no, there's just no way I can only pick five. Sorry.
FIVE FAVOURITE TV SHOWS: So many. ;~; Family Guy, The Good Wife, Criminal Minds, and anything on National Geographic (i.e. "Monsters Inside of Me", "Mystery Diagnosis", and various animal/nature/science programs like "How The Universe Works").
FIVE FAVOURITE MUSICIANS/BANDS: Alice in Chains, Pantera, Emilie Autumn, Avenged Sevenfold, Cradle of Filth, Pantera

THINKING ABOUT GOOD THINGS:
THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MYSELF: Uhm.. I like that I love learning, I guess.. uh.. I don't know. I guess that's it. Everything else I can think of is also a negative thing.
THREE THINGS MY FRIENDS WOULD SAY ABOUT ME: That I love animals, that I'm not very open, and probably that I'm smart.
THREE THINGS I'M GOOD AT: Remembering things, drawing, and uh.. I dunno, reading, I guess.
THREE THINGS I'M GRATEFUL FOR: My boyfriend, my dad, and my pets.
THREE THINGS THAT I'M PASSIONATE ABOUT: Animal rights, microbiology, and mental illness awareness.
THREE GOOD THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO ME THIS WEEK: I don't know. Every week is the same.

THE DIFFICULT STUFF (TRIGGER WARNINGS AHEAD):
MY MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES IN A NUTSHELL: GAD (generalized anxiety disorder), major depression, and issues with self-mutilation. I doubt that I have PTSD, but I do experience both flashbacks and intrusive thoughts. I am also currently on disability and sometimes I think that my diagnosis of GAD and major depression is wrong, because while I don't experience mania or hypomania, I do get mixed episodes, and I don't know what that means.
I'M A SURVIVOR OF: Emotional/psychological abuse, physical abuse, parental neglect.
MY TRIGGERS SO THAT YOU'RE AWARE OF THEM (OPTIONAL): My triggers are only in real life. The only thing online that has ever triggered me were self-mutilation pictures, and some online bullying scenarios (but I hope that wouldn't happen if you added me).
MEDICATIONS THAT I AM ON (OPTIONAL): Zoloft and Depakote
OTHER HEALTH ISSUES (OPTIONAL): Misophonia (but I'm pretty sure this is related to my GAD), eczema (haven't had an outbreak in at least five years, though) and migraines (every single day. I see a neurologist once a year, but I guess they don't think it's that serious, because they won't treat me). Nothing that extreme.
OTHER THINGS THAT YOU SHOULD KNOW (PLEASE NOTE NECESSARY TRIGGER WARNINGS IF APPLICABLE): Nothing that I want to get into.

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fuchsiascreams January 26 2013, 14:28:23 UTC

EASIER STUFF:
HOW I RUN MY JOURNAL: I used to post in it a lot (I have almost 1,000 posts since I made it a couple of years ago), but after my best friend committed suicide in March of 2012, I basically stopped updating my journal. I'm trying, though.
FRIENDING POLICIES: I'll friend anyone as long as they friend me first - but only if their journal isn't in a foreign language. Made the mistake of doing that once, and now I log on and have 20+ spam messages in my inbox every day.
THINGS I WILL NOT TOLERATE ON MY JOURNAL: Bullying, harassment, any type of -ism directed towards me or anyone on my journal (transphobia, homophobia, sexism, racism, ableism, etc.) and spam. If you're only going to add me to tell me to shut my whore mouth because of that one time that I didn't know what a trigger warning was two years ago, please remove yourself from my journal.
ANYTHING ELSE: I occasionally talk about my rats (and post pictures of them), my boyfriend, and my drug abuse on my journal. Don't add me if you don't feel comfortable with that.

POST SOMETHING THAT MADE YOU SMILE TODAY: One of my pet rats is sleeping in the chandelier right now.

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fuchsiascreams January 26 2013, 14:29:05 UTC
Wow, I did that whole thing wrong. y u so bad at computers, Holly?

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subtleglitch February 13 2013, 02:24:22 UTC
ohi. i wouldn't mind getting to know you. i would also like to note that i understand how it feels to lose the drive to write when someone close to you commits suicide. i've had it happen on multiple occasions. so yeah, if you want someone to talk to, i'll be around. <3

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