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well alot of drama in my life as of late...
sara comes and goes, tearing up the road of my life in her path...
she needs time to figure things out, ive accepted the fact that
its not gonna happen... and she needs to figure out things before
fucking up her life, on short term decisions.
i met a girl named mary, ... oh mary, adorable girl
with only flaws that you could think were cute, in a weird way
spent the last 2 weeks with her straght.... i fell for her, i think
she was falling for me, she knew a guy, i was cautious at the
beginnings because of him, and i knew he would like her, and
that me coming into her life might push his move, well he asked
her out tonight, so we'll see if mary can keep me in her life,
i would like it, but i dont know... if i was just something
to use, to make him jealous, while she thinks i was only rebounding
off of sara to her. which is fucked up, because now i dont
want to date around... i dont know what to do, i suppose the
mature thing to do would be get shitfaced sat at brents party
and fuck some girl i'll never talk to again in the corner, and
then mention it to mary so she see's im not obsessing over her
when we hangout on mon... that wont happen, i'll sit alone,
drinking alone, wishing i wasnt drinking, and i wasnt alone.
one time i filled up the bathtub, and drank till i passed out.
unfortuantly i got cold and made it ot my bed before passing out.
why do even nice girls break me.
mary wants a friend can i be that friend.
does she really want a friend, or for me to fade away
it all hurts right now, i couldnt even cry till after she left
how much of a fucking loser am i....
esp for makign this post on lj, just in case she happens to read it someday.
i'll end this with a quote
"im a loser baby, so why dont you kill me"
sara comes and goes, tearing up the road of my life in her path...
she needs time to figure things out, ive accepted the fact that
its not gonna happen... and she needs to figure out things before
fucking up her life, on short term decisions.
i met a girl named mary, ... oh mary, adorable girl
with only flaws that you could think were cute, in a weird way
spent the last 2 weeks with her straght.... i fell for her, i think
she was falling for me, she knew a guy, i was cautious at the
beginnings because of him, and i knew he would like her, and
that me coming into her life might push his move, well he asked
her out tonight, so we'll see if mary can keep me in her life,
i would like it, but i dont know... if i was just something
to use, to make him jealous, while she thinks i was only rebounding
off of sara to her. which is fucked up, because now i dont
want to date around... i dont know what to do, i suppose the
mature thing to do would be get shitfaced sat at brents party
and fuck some girl i'll never talk to again in the corner, and
then mention it to mary so she see's im not obsessing over her
when we hangout on mon... that wont happen, i'll sit alone,
drinking alone, wishing i wasnt drinking, and i wasnt alone.
one time i filled up the bathtub, and drank till i passed out.
unfortuantly i got cold and made it ot my bed before passing out.
why do even nice girls break me.
mary wants a friend can i be that friend.
does she really want a friend, or for me to fade away
it all hurts right now, i couldnt even cry till after she left
how much of a fucking loser am i....
esp for makign this post on lj, just in case she happens to read it someday.
i'll end this with a quote
"im a loser baby, so why dont you kill me"