Defeat
So this is how it ends. Amber is on a date and its all day! On top of that they might be going dancing tonight!! You know what that means, they are going to make out for sure. So he gets to kiss her before I do....FUCKK!!! Nothing ever goes my way. I have the worse luck with women. I might as well give up because it pretty much impossible to find any women in SC. I need to move out this god forsaken place. at the very least get my own place. I don't get...she could have at least gone out with a guy with more going for him like a Network admin, computer specialist, scientist, doctor, lawyer, stock broker...not a UPS driver! Theres no ambitions no future in that! Whatever, I can only be her friend. I don't have time for this shit.