always too bright
it's always too bright when you travel in a tunnel for too long and come out the other side quickly.
my emotions are too bright now.
i have come back from Carolina vs KC in Carolina.
i walked with friends through an "Art Space" where artists had their studios set up and open.
i saw the finest Roller Derby game to finish out my derby year.
i walked around Carrboro, NC with a local girl who was dressed as a super hero/ derby girl and saw how friendly a small town could be.
i rode in a car with someone whom i had little interaction with and have come to enjoy his company now as if we were long lost friends.
i drank beer and ate fast food.
i drank vodka and ate vegetarian barbque.
i danced with a girl and i kissed a girl.
i announced the finest roller derby game of the season from the sidelines with a beer in my hand.
i saw old friends who welcomed me with open arms.
i shopped at a flea market that had a Zelda sword and shield that were REAL.
i smoked some killer organically grow weed.
i decided that when i have children, i want them to grow up in NC or some place that magical.
i showered in a girl's shower, which i had not done in a while. it is only the most wonderful thing for a big smelly guy to be in this fruit, purfumy place. it's quite peaceful.
and finally i made up my mind.
just because i am going to make lots of money at my new job, it doesn't make it bad.
just because SHE doesn't think i am worth keeping close to her, doesn't mean that i am not worth keeping close. just because it was easier for her to walk away than me, doesn't mean i am flawed or weak. i cannot waste my time and energy on a lost cause any longer. not when i can be happy.
i am making up my mind to grow up, get serious and... damn it... just BE.
I learned alot from Holly, the happiest person on earth. i learned just how simple the word and the concept of happy really and honestly is.
my emotions are too bright now.
i have come back from Carolina vs KC in Carolina.
i walked with friends through an "Art Space" where artists had their studios set up and open.
i saw the finest Roller Derby game to finish out my derby year.
i walked around Carrboro, NC with a local girl who was dressed as a super hero/ derby girl and saw how friendly a small town could be.
i rode in a car with someone whom i had little interaction with and have come to enjoy his company now as if we were long lost friends.
i drank beer and ate fast food.
i drank vodka and ate vegetarian barbque.
i danced with a girl and i kissed a girl.
i announced the finest roller derby game of the season from the sidelines with a beer in my hand.
i saw old friends who welcomed me with open arms.
i shopped at a flea market that had a Zelda sword and shield that were REAL.
i smoked some killer organically grow weed.
i decided that when i have children, i want them to grow up in NC or some place that magical.
i showered in a girl's shower, which i had not done in a while. it is only the most wonderful thing for a big smelly guy to be in this fruit, purfumy place. it's quite peaceful.
and finally i made up my mind.
just because i am going to make lots of money at my new job, it doesn't make it bad.
just because SHE doesn't think i am worth keeping close to her, doesn't mean that i am not worth keeping close. just because it was easier for her to walk away than me, doesn't mean i am flawed or weak. i cannot waste my time and energy on a lost cause any longer. not when i can be happy.
i am making up my mind to grow up, get serious and... damn it... just BE.
I learned alot from Holly, the happiest person on earth. i learned just how simple the word and the concept of happy really and honestly is.