ocean deep
Sadly you never gave me, too many chances to show you how much I care. I should've seen it coming. I should've read the signs. Anyway, I guess it's over.
Can't believe that I'm the fool again. I thought this love would never end. How was I to know? You never told me. Can't believe that I'm the fool again. And I who thought you were my friend, how was I to know? You never told me.
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Nothing is going the way it should. I hastily subdue these feelings of impatience. All the anxiety and nervousness is sending my heart into disorder just as a boy hugging his knees in the midst of it all. Shivering and in tears, I repress all my regret. I cried all night, but now it seems dawn is breaking...
I surrendered myself to a dismal emptiness in the most critical of times. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't quite reach. Aiming for the shore, I had to swim for my life. Withstanding the current, I can't even raise my voice. It could have been the end right there.
If I could get just one more chance, I'll keep it all locked away in my heart.
I don't think that love can save everything, but there was something about your smile that somehow healed my heart, and in your eyes I found the strength to stand up again. That was before.
The flow of the river is intense today and I am now letting go of your hands. Even though right now I may try to turn back and I keep on being stubborn about it, though I know it's monotonous, I'll start walking again, this time even farther.