morning blues
i woke up with a heavy heart. emotionally, i'm not feeling good. honestly, i hate my mind. it kills me everyday. it's always a battle to control it. feels like it has a life of it's own and it's really a difficult struggle to overcome it. today, it overpowered me.
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as i was driving to work, flashes of what-may-happen in the near future thoughts came to mind(and im talking NEAR future here), and i quickly gave in to the feelings of depression, anxiety, fear, worry, and everything that comes with it. i was hyperventilating and this condition has happened to me thrice already.
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what happened in the past is happening again but now in a faster manner.
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i'm scared of losing someone...again.