Excitment... confusing... I don't know
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...
I just had my English exam.
It went really well. I didn't even study, and I found the questions pretty easy, but I am sure now that I said that, I am going to like fail or something fucked up like that. Hahaha. The essay question was much better than the standard English 12 topic like "friends are good" kind of shit. The topic was that PG is getting $1 million allotment to put into some kind of city project, and there are many groups who want it, like arts, sports, dwontown project people, and the youth-at-risk program. And I have to argue one of them. Anyways, I argured the youth-at-risk one because there are a lot of youth troubles in PG lately and if you had better support for them, the community woud get overall better for longer and it would be easier to develop arts and stuff blah blah blah blah. Anyways, that's irrelevant... standard random essay tat just tests your grammar and flow and style blah blah.
Anyways, afterwards, I get my Gaia Hypothesis essay back.
YAY OMFG@!@!@@ I got an A+!!!!!!!!!!!! I put a lot into it emotionally, so to get a sweet grade is very validatig. I mean it is just a first year english course, but I really respect the prof and I think he gave me the grade because he genuinely thought it was good. Anyways, I am really excited and happy and it gives me some of that self esteem back that I lost this semester. Also my prof was telling me how I should take more english classes, specifically ones taught by Kevin Hutchings (coincidentally the same prof I had a nice long chat with a week ago) because he has similar style/critisism style/likes to me etc. which is really sweet. He even suggested that expository writing class I was really thinking about. He thinks I would do well, which is reassuring. My fragile ego needs reassurance from amarty pantses.
ANYWAYS... YAY AN A+!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!1!!!!!@###! my hopes=realized.
But now that lurking confusion comes back to me again. But I have decided to try and go for a Minor in the General Arts. Which would satisfy my desire for Arts courses and giv me something tangible in return. So that's exciting, and it's easy, not that many courses. I would be mainly interested in taking pols, phil, anth, and english. This way I can do them all.
And then I get stuck between what I feel I want and what I *know* I want. I *know* I want to be an ecologist, but I feel I want to be an essayist. Yet, there is little reason I can't be? I suppose I will find out sooner or later what I really want to devote my career to. I suppose I can write essays and the like and publish essays as a "hobby", but I can't be a hobbyist ecologist... hmmm....
Oh well. I will figure it out, I just have to finish these stupid first year courses and I will get a taste of real science. Not this like crazy bull shit. I wonder how things will turn out...?
I just had my English exam.
It went really well. I didn't even study, and I found the questions pretty easy, but I am sure now that I said that, I am going to like fail or something fucked up like that. Hahaha. The essay question was much better than the standard English 12 topic like "friends are good" kind of shit. The topic was that PG is getting $1 million allotment to put into some kind of city project, and there are many groups who want it, like arts, sports, dwontown project people, and the youth-at-risk program. And I have to argue one of them. Anyways, I argured the youth-at-risk one because there are a lot of youth troubles in PG lately and if you had better support for them, the community woud get overall better for longer and it would be easier to develop arts and stuff blah blah blah blah. Anyways, that's irrelevant... standard random essay tat just tests your grammar and flow and style blah blah.
Anyways, afterwards, I get my Gaia Hypothesis essay back.
YAY OMFG@!@!@@ I got an A+!!!!!!!!!!!! I put a lot into it emotionally, so to get a sweet grade is very validatig. I mean it is just a first year english course, but I really respect the prof and I think he gave me the grade because he genuinely thought it was good. Anyways, I am really excited and happy and it gives me some of that self esteem back that I lost this semester. Also my prof was telling me how I should take more english classes, specifically ones taught by Kevin Hutchings (coincidentally the same prof I had a nice long chat with a week ago) because he has similar style/critisism style/likes to me etc. which is really sweet. He even suggested that expository writing class I was really thinking about. He thinks I would do well, which is reassuring. My fragile ego needs reassurance from amarty pantses.
ANYWAYS... YAY AN A+!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!1!!!!!@###! my hopes=realized.
But now that lurking confusion comes back to me again. But I have decided to try and go for a Minor in the General Arts. Which would satisfy my desire for Arts courses and giv me something tangible in return. So that's exciting, and it's easy, not that many courses. I would be mainly interested in taking pols, phil, anth, and english. This way I can do them all.
And then I get stuck between what I feel I want and what I *know* I want. I *know* I want to be an ecologist, but I feel I want to be an essayist. Yet, there is little reason I can't be? I suppose I will find out sooner or later what I really want to devote my career to. I suppose I can write essays and the like and publish essays as a "hobby", but I can't be a hobbyist ecologist... hmmm....
Oh well. I will figure it out, I just have to finish these stupid first year courses and I will get a taste of real science. Not this like crazy bull shit. I wonder how things will turn out...?