mi corazon.
I talked to Josh yesterday and we had one of the sweetest/saddest conversations yet. I think that as we near seeing each other again, we're so overwhelmed with emotions and we are missing each other a lot more.
He told me that he's been thinking about me and what I'm going through and how he hates having put me in this position. And I hate when he says this because I don't want him to feel resentful of having married me and made my life "miserable." I told him that never once did I think to myself that I don't want to marry him because of what I will eventually have to go through, that is the farthest thing from my mind. I love him and I knew there was a possibility of this happening, but that didn't stop me or even cross my mind, all that I care about is that I love him, and I would do anything for him. Besides I told him that regardless of who we were to be with, we would still have to struggle somehow, and hopefully this is the most difficult thing that we are going to have to go through. He said that if for some reason we were to ever split up, he doesn't think he would ever get married again, because he would never be able to find someone as supportive and loving as me, and who would endure as much as I have and fight for our relationship as I do.
He apologized for things that he's done in the past and acknowledged that he hasn't always been the best husband, but that he truly loves me and values me and would do anything for me. The beginning of our marriage was definitely a rollercoaster, and I'm kind of grateful for this in a way, because I feel it has helped us reevaluate ourselves and our relationship and really appreciate each other more, and especially for him its helped him realize how much I really do care and love him, something that he never really grasped until now. And of course this only helps us strengthen our love, respect, and trust for each other, unlike others who would probably weaken through this and give up. I cannot stress enough how much I love him and how truly lucky I am to be with him. He has turned out to be the ideal person for me. Especially speaking to friends about their past/current relationships I see just how fortunate I am to be with a person like him. He has always supported me in my dreams, he never once told me not to go to San Francisco, he even moved over there for me so I can continue my education. He has truly done so much for me, and I appreciate it because I know not everyone is lucky enough to have someone like that.
I have to contact the consulate in Juarez directly in the hopes of them reviewing his denial. This time I'm going to write them a letter and also include letters from two of his bosses/company owners to persuade them of his need not just by me, but others. His bosses did tell him a long time ago that they would be willing to do whatever they could to help him out, because he is one of their best workers. Not to mention that he is also one of the youngest, yet he was one of the most skilled and knowledgeable so they had him in charge of million dollar projects,. He was even the boss of men who are way older than him and have been plumbing longer than him. They would even fight for him, because they both wanted him to work for them. So hopefully we can get through and have them reduce his time, or at least hope that he won't have to face any more time after this waiting period is over. i plan on bugging the shit out of them until they hear my cries.
He told me that he's been thinking about me and what I'm going through and how he hates having put me in this position. And I hate when he says this because I don't want him to feel resentful of having married me and made my life "miserable." I told him that never once did I think to myself that I don't want to marry him because of what I will eventually have to go through, that is the farthest thing from my mind. I love him and I knew there was a possibility of this happening, but that didn't stop me or even cross my mind, all that I care about is that I love him, and I would do anything for him. Besides I told him that regardless of who we were to be with, we would still have to struggle somehow, and hopefully this is the most difficult thing that we are going to have to go through. He said that if for some reason we were to ever split up, he doesn't think he would ever get married again, because he would never be able to find someone as supportive and loving as me, and who would endure as much as I have and fight for our relationship as I do.
He apologized for things that he's done in the past and acknowledged that he hasn't always been the best husband, but that he truly loves me and values me and would do anything for me. The beginning of our marriage was definitely a rollercoaster, and I'm kind of grateful for this in a way, because I feel it has helped us reevaluate ourselves and our relationship and really appreciate each other more, and especially for him its helped him realize how much I really do care and love him, something that he never really grasped until now. And of course this only helps us strengthen our love, respect, and trust for each other, unlike others who would probably weaken through this and give up. I cannot stress enough how much I love him and how truly lucky I am to be with him. He has turned out to be the ideal person for me. Especially speaking to friends about their past/current relationships I see just how fortunate I am to be with a person like him. He has always supported me in my dreams, he never once told me not to go to San Francisco, he even moved over there for me so I can continue my education. He has truly done so much for me, and I appreciate it because I know not everyone is lucky enough to have someone like that.
I have to contact the consulate in Juarez directly in the hopes of them reviewing his denial. This time I'm going to write them a letter and also include letters from two of his bosses/company owners to persuade them of his need not just by me, but others. His bosses did tell him a long time ago that they would be willing to do whatever they could to help him out, because he is one of their best workers. Not to mention that he is also one of the youngest, yet he was one of the most skilled and knowledgeable so they had him in charge of million dollar projects,. He was even the boss of men who are way older than him and have been plumbing longer than him. They would even fight for him, because they both wanted him to work for them. So hopefully we can get through and have them reduce his time, or at least hope that he won't have to face any more time after this waiting period is over. i plan on bugging the shit out of them until they hear my cries.