May 13, 2006 17:06
I want this feeling to go away...I keep thinking about Juicy and I cannot believe that she won't be in her stall, banging at it to get attention. It just doesn't seem real that she's gone. I had to get some more stuff today for showing this summer and I could barely stand to be in the store. I hate this. It will never go back to normal, I know that much.
I miss sitting outside 609 and playing frisbee. I miss boys being the only complicated thing to deal with.
We went out for dinner last night and it was mostly my dad still trying to convince me I want to be a lawyer. It makes me so frustrated knowing that he doesn't even listen when I tell him things I do like.