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i finally realized it.
after a while of being horridly sad over something so stupid.
i have everything in the world.
i could be living in new orleans right now.
i could be living in a third world country starving.
i could be homeless and alone.
i could have a terminal illness.
those would be reasons to be sad.
but i don't have to go through any of that. i should feel lucky. i should feel like the luckiest girl in the whole world. i have great friends and a wonderful family. i may not live in the nicest house or have a lot of money or wear the best clothes. but i have people around me that care for me and for a while i have been too blind to see that. now it's all clear to me, and i can't understand why i've been so sad. i've always told myself he didn't matter AT ALL. but he does and i guess i care a lot about him. but if liking this person is going to affect the person all my friends like me for, do i really want to continue? it's hard to choose but i can't just let go of my feelings.
all i know, is that i'm going to try not to let it affect me. it's not a big deal, and besides, there are other fish in the sea. i just want to be happy for people. i want to act like i used to and not have to pretend to be happy. and if it weren't for all my friends, i wouldn't even have a reason to be happy. i'm not happy for myself. i want to show people that there is good in their life. i want to show them that even when things get bad, there's always something to look forward to the next day. and that to the world, you may just be one person, but to one person you ARE the world. someone out there loves you and cares for you. and it might be who you least expect. hell, you might not even know their name.
but you have to appreciate them and be thankful, or you just might end up alone.
after a while of being horridly sad over something so stupid.
i have everything in the world.
i could be living in new orleans right now.
i could be living in a third world country starving.
i could be homeless and alone.
i could have a terminal illness.
those would be reasons to be sad.
but i don't have to go through any of that. i should feel lucky. i should feel like the luckiest girl in the whole world. i have great friends and a wonderful family. i may not live in the nicest house or have a lot of money or wear the best clothes. but i have people around me that care for me and for a while i have been too blind to see that. now it's all clear to me, and i can't understand why i've been so sad. i've always told myself he didn't matter AT ALL. but he does and i guess i care a lot about him. but if liking this person is going to affect the person all my friends like me for, do i really want to continue? it's hard to choose but i can't just let go of my feelings.
all i know, is that i'm going to try not to let it affect me. it's not a big deal, and besides, there are other fish in the sea. i just want to be happy for people. i want to act like i used to and not have to pretend to be happy. and if it weren't for all my friends, i wouldn't even have a reason to be happy. i'm not happy for myself. i want to show people that there is good in their life. i want to show them that even when things get bad, there's always something to look forward to the next day. and that to the world, you may just be one person, but to one person you ARE the world. someone out there loves you and cares for you. and it might be who you least expect. hell, you might not even know their name.
but you have to appreciate them and be thankful, or you just might end up alone.