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I seriously almost lost it today. I won't go into detail but a bunch of annoying shit just sucker-punched me at once. I was really going insane. Im tired of my hedonistic friends, my burden of a job and my shitty school. The only thing I can do is take this New Year and turn water into wine for myself. I really need a change.
On a similar note, this has got to be one of the longest years for me, ever. Like, I think of things that happened in the summer or spring and they just seem like years ago, ancient history etched into stone architecture and cave paintings, like I have to look up the events of the past summer in some ancient tome the size of a door. I don't even know how I feel about the past.
I am really tired of "parties." Parties are meant to be a once in awhile thing, thats what makes them special, you can enjoy them because they don't happen often. Parties arent where you go over to your friends apartment every weekend and high school kids are playing shitty drinking games in the living room next to the hookah and everyone else is doing lines of coke in the bathroom. Those arent fun, theyre depressing when you really get down to it. Done with that.
I hope things change soon.
On a similar note, this has got to be one of the longest years for me, ever. Like, I think of things that happened in the summer or spring and they just seem like years ago, ancient history etched into stone architecture and cave paintings, like I have to look up the events of the past summer in some ancient tome the size of a door. I don't even know how I feel about the past.
I am really tired of "parties." Parties are meant to be a once in awhile thing, thats what makes them special, you can enjoy them because they don't happen often. Parties arent where you go over to your friends apartment every weekend and high school kids are playing shitty drinking games in the living room next to the hookah and everyone else is doing lines of coke in the bathroom. Those arent fun, theyre depressing when you really get down to it. Done with that.
I hope things change soon.