The Cherry Blossom That Never Bloomed - Chapter 2 [Byou's POV]
Title: The Cherry Blossom That Never Bloomed
Chapter: 2/?
Author: atmosphere_zero and misfitmisfit
Genre: Angst, Comedy, Drama, Humor, Romance, Yaoi, AU
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Strong Language, Men kissing
Band(s): Born, D=OUT, exist+trace, Screw, Vivid
Pairing(s)/Character(s): KoukixByou, JinxTomo, RenoxMiko, and more to come!
Disclaimer: I am in no way affiliated with the bands, people, artists, and musicians mentioned in the story. The story is a work of pure fiction and is in no way meant to represent or reflect the real bands, people, artists, and musicians mentioned in any way. Any similarities are pure coincidences. I do not make anything off of the story as this is simply meant for pure entertainment. No harm or disrespect in any way is intended.
Summary: Had that one flower bloomed, things might have taken a different turn.
Comments: This story is a little different from the ones I have been writing. It's from two different perspectives. One from Byou's and the other from Kouki's. Please read both to understand the whole story, ^_^. Wouldn't want anyone missing out on any of the gripping scenes. More at the bottom. Enjoy! :)
Chapters
Chapter 1: Byou/Kouki
Chapter 2: Byou/Kouki
Chapter 3: Byou/Kouki
I rolled around in bed hearing the clinging and clanking in the far distant. Before I knew it, I smelled the distinct aroma of food. I peeled open my eyes and discovered Kouki was already out of bed. I turned over staring at the empty space. Would Kouki, one day, leave me if I revealed my true self? Perhaps. It was what always happened to me…
I slipped out of bed and got dressed. Today was Monday, the beginning of the workweek. Kouki tried his best to cheer me up after the art gallery fiasco yesterday. I couldn’t help, but laugh at Kouki’s silliness. Being with him, I felt my world light up a little bit more. Though, he said those three words when I pretended to fall asleep. I didn’t have the nerve to respond back to him. But I should have, shouldn’t I? After all, we shared the same feelings for each other…
I headed out into the kitchen and found Kouki ready to leave for work.
“Morning, Byou! How are you feeling?” Kouki excitedly greeted as he rushed over to hug me.
Kouki leaned in and brushed his nose against my neck. His breath whipped against my bare skin.
“Fine.” I groggily answered rubbing my eyes.
“Can I kiss you?” Kouki cutely asked me as he lightly traced my lips.
Normally, I would have shoved Kouki away, but I was too tired to care. I was more preoccupied thinking about the… dream? No. I would call it the nightmare about that last day…
“Don’t you have to go to work soon?” I evaded his question.
Kouki took the initiative to kiss me in order to wake me up. My eyes slightly widened. H-how could he do that?
“Are you awake now?”
I immediately looked away when Kouki released my lips. I was greatly embarrassed by what he did.
“Awwww, you look so cute.” Kouki kissed the tip of my nose.
“Aren’t you going to be late if you don’t go now?” I avoided his statement.
He always pulled this kind of tactic on me. I didn’t mind, but sometimes I wished he would ask me beforehand.
Kouki peered at his wrist. “Oh fineee, I’ll go now. Oh, before I forget, I did make your smoothie this morning. I hope you like it.”
Kouki gave me another quick kiss before releasing his grip from me. He raced out of the door as I heard him get in his car and drive away. I sat down on the chair as I rubbed my eyes.
“Byou-sama, would you like some coffee and eggs?” a maid approached me.
“Yes.” I automatically answered as she disappeared.
I peered at the smoothie sitting on the table. I hesitated to reach for it. I remembered Kouki concocting all sorts of interesting flavors until this berry flavor. Although I did like this flavor, thinking about it made me depressed. I only liked it because it was my first one and the first time someone cared about me…
I peered over at the sofa as I stroked my chin. Fuck, where were Rui’s drawings?
XOXOXOXO
After breakfast, my chauffer brought me to work as I sat in the limousine mainly lost in my thoughts. Throughout the car ride, I studied the ring sitting on my index finger. How long ago was this given to me? I reached up for the necklace hidden within my dress shirt. It was all in the past. A past that would never return.
The limousine stopped as my chauffer rushed out to open the car door for me. I stepped out and noticed the huge building in front of me.
I slightly nodded at my chauffer and headed inside. When I arrived to the meeting room, I found Rui laying his head on his arms snoozing while Manabu was rapidly clicking away on his cellphone. But I saw no Jin. Where was he?
Manabu looked up nodding his head acknowledging my presence. I tiptoed over and flicked Rui’s face to wake him up.
“Ahhh! I’m awake! I’m awake!” Rui’s eyes bugged out from being frightened.
Manabu stifled a laugh as he slipped his cellphone into his pocket.
“Uh… hi, Byou.” Rui chuckled, wiping the drool off the corner of his mouth.
“Where’s Jin?” I promptly asked.
“Oh, he’s-” Manabu was about to answer until someone interrupted him.
“Are we late?!” I heard a familiar, unwanted voice. I didn’t react to it, though.
“Ahhh! Goddammit! Sorry, I’m late!” Jin rushed inside looking like a frenzied mess.
From the corner of my eye, I spotted Tomo’s head poking inside. Even though I saw him, I didn’t turn my head around to greet him. I couldn’t greet my worse enemy.
“I’ll see you later then, Jin-chan.” Tomo lowly whispered as I heard him blow a kiss to Jin.
“Ahhh, stop being embarrassing. I’ll see you later, too, Tomo.” Jin responded back in a cutesy manner.
My family and Tomo’s family were of the same status and therefore we knew each other pretty well. But ever since that time… we never communicated the same way.
I heard Tomo’s footsteps fade away into the background. I slightly turned around seeing Jin take a seat next to Rui.
“Aww, you two are so cute together.” Rui giddily exclaimed. “Ahhh, I wish I could find someone like that.”
“I’m sure you will! It just takes some time.” Jin cheered him on.
“Oh, yeah. I did! It’s me and my cat, Maru-san.” Rui played on Jin’s words.
Before Jin could respond, Manabu steered the conversation towards the drawings, “So what’s the final verdict?”
All weekend I had been pondering, but I couldn’t agree and I certainly didn’t have a better idea. Dammit. Our deadline was coming up in a few weeks. If we didn’t have something to present to the bigger potatoes, we might all be out of a job.
“Ah! It displeases you? No worries. I had some inspiration to draw more over the weekend.” Rui pulled out his art pad from his bag.
“Whoa, that’s one huge drawing pad! It’s bigger than me!” Jin admired the size of it.
“Everything is bigger than you.” Manabu poked fun at Jin.
“Hey! Just because I’m small doesn’t mean anything!” Jin stuck his tongue out.
“Hey, hey… My drawings?” Rui piped into the conversation.
“Yes, the drawings?” I said to let him know that he still had my attention.
While Rui happily presented the drawings, I couldn’t help but let my thoughts wander to Jin. I found my view shifting towards Jin. I had known Jin for quite sometime. We worked together for several years and knew each other to the point that we hung out several times outside of work.
I focused my attention back on Rui’s drawings. There were numerous drawings lying all over the big glass table. Manabu picked one up and stared at it. He pointed his finger to the particular drawing he was holding. “We’ve done a ring similar to this one. We can’t use it again.”
“Ooooh, I like this.” Jin picked up another one.
I remembered, at one point in time, I had carried some transient feelings for the shortie. But I grudgingly accepted the fact that I lost my chance when he got together with Tomo. Come to think of it, I met Kouki through Jin. If it weren’t for Jin, Kouki would have never been in my life all together.
“What do you think, Byou?” Rui turned his attention to me.
“Hmm…” I gazed at the papers.
There was no doubt in my mind. Rui’s drawings were superior, excellent, and ingenious. I knew it or else I would have never hired him. But… why was I not pleased seeing any of this? I felt something was missing in the overall picture.
“Speaking of which, the production of ‘Starlet Heart’ is almost done. It’s ready to be presented tomorrow.” Manabu quickly added into the conversation.
“Of course. I would like to see it.” I nodded as I rested my head on my hand.
“Ooooh, it’s that pretty necklace, isn’t it?” Jin reminded himself of the product.
“It’s more than a pretty necklace. It’s a spectacular, stunning necklace.” Manabu found the need to correct Jin’s words.
“Fine. Fine. Fine.” Jin didn’t bother to argue with Manabu.
When I started to work at my parents’ jewelry company, I was required to build a team to help me design and create jewelry of a new line under my own name. After interviewing numerous people, I ended up choosing Jin, Manabu, and Rui. Rui was the genius who could see beyond and knew what I wanted especially when I had some idea no one else could understand. Manabu was in charge of the actual creation and production of the jewelry. His family was known for being one of the best artisans, and it showed right away when he presented me with some of his ‘amateur’ works. He was definitely talented. Jin was in charge of advertisements and coming up with unique slogans or names for the product. Even though he liked to slack off, he always got the job done and knew how to do it so well that the big bosses were impressed with his words every time.
We were given numerous projects at any given moment and had deadlines to meet. I didn’t mind the pace since this was what I loved doing. But lately I had been having brain freezes. No new brilliant idea was coming to my mind. What was the trouble with me as of late?
“Hey, Byou, what do you think of this pendant that Rui drew?” Jin broke my reverie.
“Huh?” I looked up and saw Rui’s drawing.
The drawing of the pendant certainly caught my eye.
“Why don’t you put some color to it?” I suggested. For some reason, I had really liked this one.
“Sure!” Rui gladly agreed.
Jin’s cellphone rang and interrupted the conversation. “Ahhh, dammit. It’s the advertisement director. Excuse me.”
Our day was mostly like this. We spent time in the office and if need be we would have to go to different places to meet up with people or finish up the job.
“How’s your relationship with Kouki-san?” Rui politely asked as he took out some of his coloring utensils.
“Fine.” I answered as I headed to my own desk.
Even though we had only been together for a year, I knew things were going well… for now. My thoughts traveled to the mischievous, comical Kouki. Our first few dates were horrible simply because I didn’t like him at all. At first, I didn’t know why I was spending time with him. But one day, Kouki brought me on a picnic to a park where there were cherry blossoms. It was in the spring and the cherry blossoms were in their blooming season.
I distinctly remembered how Kouki pointed out a cherry blossom that had not yet bloomed unlike the rest of the beautiful petals.
“What a sad cherry blossom.” I sourly commented.
“Nah, I think it’s beautiful. It still has time to choose what to look like. I bet it will be the greatest one of all.” Kouki admiringly commented.
When I arrived home I noticed that the time was five o’clock. I asked the butler whether Kouki was home yet, but he answered that Kouki was out. Odd. Kouki was usually home early. I wondered where he was. Did he get caught up at work? No. Kouki would have called me if he did. What might have happened to him?
I decided to take a shower while I thought about the pendant. No, no. It didn’t fit. Something surely wasn’t right with it. But what could it have been? Dammit.
As I got out of the shower, I wondered where Kouki could be. He usually wasn’t this late.
I decided to work in the living room as I waited for Kouki. Occasionally, I looked up at the time. I scratched my head worried. It was getting unusually late for Kouki. If he was ever late, he would give me a call, but he didn’t. And well, I… I…
Suddenly, I heard some car’s tires screech and pull up into the driveway. Was it Kouki? I anxiously sat there pretending I didn’t hear a sound. I heard the car turn off, but no one was coming to the door.
After a few minutes passed, I heard the door slam open as I heard a thump and Kouki’s voice. Secretly, I was glad that he was finally home. I tried not to look like I was anticipating Kouki’s arrival until I heard stomping noises and saw Kouki racing towards me like a madman.
He lost his footing on the new carpet and slid right underneath my feet. I incredulously stared him. I didn’t understand why he had to pull off such a crazy stunt. He was always so melodramatic when things were out of the blue.
“Uh, hi, Byou.” Kouki waved his hand as he looked up.
He appeared quite ridiculous in that state. I almost couldn’t help from laughing, but I restrained myself. I had to wear that serious demeanor face. I couldn’t let Kouki know…
Kouki struggled to pull himself up onto the couch. I wasn’t sure why it took him so much effort. Wasn’t he the basketball coach?
“Where were you?” the question came right out of my mouth. It was the question I had been dying to ask him. In fact, I was a little worried.
Could it be that Kouki was hanging out with someone else? If so, who could it be? He seemed to be a bit distraught when he was dashing towards me. Did something unexpected happen?
“Ummm, I was… with an old friend… it was very out of the blue. Super unplanned. I swear! I didn’t do anything!!” Kouki explained all it in one breath.
I couldn’t understand why Kouki was hyperventilating. Though, I was more worried about what he meant. Old friend of his?
I pretended not to understand what he meant. I didn’t want to jump to conclusions. “What?”
Kouki took my hand without warning and explained himself a bit clearer. “I’m really sorry I was late. I was catching up on old times with my old friend. He talked on forever, and I kept staring at my watch. I didn’t want to be rude and tell him that I needed to go. You know me… I’m not strong enough to say no to people. Anyway, I haven’t eaten anything. Have you?”
I stayed quiet pondering on Kouki’s words. Was he really speaking the truth? How could I know for sure? Kouki wasn’t one to lie about matters. I knew that for a fact. But then why did I feel as if… there was something beneath his words? I attempted to push the thought towards the back of my mind, but the feeling of not knowing… still floated around in my heart.
“I was waiting for you.” I simply responded.
Kouki continued to hold onto my hand in a daze. Was he still thinking about his old friend?
“Still thinking about something?” I suspiciously asked as I took my hand away from his.
This old friend couldn’t be that important… could it?
“What? No, no! Let me make something really quick!” Kouki fretted as though worried.
He dashed into the kitchen without a second thought. As I sat there, I heard the clinging and clanking of pots coming from inside the kitchen. Kouki’s story was still replaying in my mind. Old friend. Meeting.
I stared back at the draft of pendant that was pointed out today at work. What could be missing? Why did I feel like I was always missing something? Perhaps when Rui colored in the final draft, I would be satisfied.
“AHHH!” Kouki’s voice echoed from the kitchen.
I immediately put everything down and hastily headed over there finding Kouki running his finger through cold water. I noticed that he had bulging red eyes and a continuous runny nose. What on earth was he doing in here?
“Kouki? Are you alright?”
Kouki splashed the faucet water all over his face and raced away to grab a towel to dry his face.
“It’s not ready yet, but I’ll call you when it’s done.” Kouki came back smiling as he squinted his eyes as small as possible.
I wasn’t sure why Kouki was acting so strange. I could only stare at him in such a crazy mess. The awkward tension between us that moment… I didn’t like it.
“So how was your work day?” I changed the topic.
Kouki paused thinking for a moment before answering. It seemed he forgot what he did today. Suddenly, Kouki reached for his pocket as if remembering something. He handed me a small card. I hesitantly took it from him.
“I got this from my new boss today. Isn’t it cool?”
When my eyes shifted towards the card, I stared at it stunned. My heart started to race. My mind was swirling in endless thoughts. This card… No, it couldn’t be. I… I…
“Well, it might look silly, but he said a good friend of his from a long time ago helped make it for him. I think that gives the card more sentimental value, don’t you think?” Kouki explained the business card as he laughed.
Although, he was speaking, I wasn’t listening to a single word coming out of his mouth. My eyes were glued onto this business card. No. It couldn’t be. I remember… I remember I made this as a huge joke… for Kazuki. No… Kazuki? Back in the day, Kazuki proclaimed that one day he would become the boss of a famous sports company since Kazuki was into sports and originally played tennis. At the same time, I knew he liked watching this anime so I decided to poke fun at him and created it for him. It was my first drawing creation ever.
“Stand back a little, Byou. You might get burnt!” Kouki hastily stood in front of me to protect me from the sizzling oil.
I hardly realized what he was doing. My mind was too engrossed at the sight of the card.
I never would have thought Kazuki kept it. Unless it was a fluke and this person was actually someone else… It had to be. He would never come back. He didn’t like me… That was why he left me in the first place. But this card… Why was none of this making sense to me?
“Byou, I think it’s-” Kouki was about to say more.
I interrupted him without even realizing he had even spoken. “What is your boss’ name? What does he look like?”
I had to confirm through Kouki’s words. Because if what I knew became true… No… It had to be a coincidence. Yet I…
“Umm, his name is Kazuki-san. I distinctively remember his red-auburn colored hair, his dazzling smile, and that interesting piercing on his lower lip. It sounds weird when I say this, but he was quite handsome. Ah!! But I don’t have any interest in him like that. I still love you the most!” Kouki was splitting up the food onto separate plates.
I mainly ignored the words coming out of Kouki’s mouth. Kazuki? Kazuki? Kazuki… I hadn’t thought of that name in so long. I hadn’t seen his face in so long. Kouki’s description still matched the way he looked so many years ago. Could it just be a sick coincidence? It had to be. God couldn’t be that cruel…
“How about you? How was work today?” Kouki suddenly hugged me.
An unexpected warm feeling came over me. Damn. What was I thinking?
“Fine. But my team is still creating some more sketches to discuss about this Friday.” I flatly told him.
I figured Kouki wasn’t interested in hearing what I had to say so I never elaborated. Besides, Kouki was more into sports.
“Oh crap!” Kouki finally released his warm hug and raced up the stairs.
I gazed at the business card with the small Gundam model. I wondered if I would bump into him. No, no. Impossible. He probably wasn’t even looking for me anymore. He was probably here to start a new life. I placed the business card in my pocket without even thinking. I hoped I… I… wouldn’t have to see him again.
Kouki came back with some flimsy paper in his hand. “Here. This is for you.”
“What is this?” I intriguingly examined the ticket.
“Do you think you can make it?” Kouki inquired with anxiety in his voice.
“University basketball championship game on Friday.” I read out the title of the ticket and the day. I shifted my eyes upward towards Kouki.
I hated how sometimes he gave me such little notice. “You know, you should give me a week advance notice.”
“But… but…” Kouki tried come up with some excuse, but was coming out with none.
I saw his face turn into a melancholy expression. Was he thinking of something else? Was he thinking of his… old friend? His old friend… My thoughts shifted towards the business card I put in my pocket. I touched it with one hand, but I didn’t dare take it out. I touched the business card with the tips of my fingers. I couldn’t believe it… I recognized my drawing… That was my drawing from college.
“Let’s eat!” Kouki broke my thoughts and brought the plates to the dinning table.
While we were eating, I rid my thoughts about the business card. I was with Kouki right now. What did the past matter?
When I took a bite into the pasta toss, I smiled inwardly about it. I couldn’t explain it very well, but Kouki’s food always had this certain special touch and taste that no one else could replicate. It always made me feel warmer on the inside. Even when I was stressed or troubled, it made my worries fade away.
Eating with Kouki, I temporarily forgot about that business card… and that name… Kazuki.
Friday rolled around quicker than I expected. While we had made some progress during the week with the new design, I was still dissatisfied even after Rui colored in the drawing. What was missing? Perhaps I needed to get away from work.
I informed Rui, Manabu, and Jin that I was taking the day off and to continue the work without me. Jin ended up whining about how Tomo couldn’t take him to awesome dates such as a basketball game. Manabu told Jin to stop daydreaming about Tomo and to get to work while Rui wished he could one day take Maru-san to the ocean to play. Honestly, I didn’t know how I got along with all of them in the first place. I hoped they would be all right without me.
When I arrived to the basketball court, I noticed millions of college students already in the arena. For some reason, I was reminded of the days I was in school. We would go to games like this and cheer on for our school team… We used to do such childish, fun activities, but those days were long gone.
Luckily, I was able to trade my ticket with some random college student. I disliked sitting with the people I dealt with on a daily basis. If I was going to enjoy a game like this, then I wanted to get away from the real world. I hated dealing with the real world.
As the game started, I tried my best to make sense of the players’ moves and what the referee was spewing out of his mouth. I didn’t have too much knowledge about the game, but I had been learning little by little ever since Kouki came along. Before he came along, I thought every sport except tennis was boring and made no sense. Thanks to Kouki, I became more aware of what the world outside had to offer.
“Yay! Score!” one of the students behind me hollered.
Hmm, I think the maroon colored team was Kouki’s team. They were moving faster than my eyes could keep up with. How did Kouki keep up with the game? I saw-
Unexpectedly, someone’s hand touched mine on the armrest. I immediately jerked away and glanced over.
“I’m sorry.” I apologized out of instinct.
“Oh! No worries.” a familiar voice nonchalantly accepted my apology.
My eyes widened when I recognized the handsome man sitting next to me. It couldn’t be! The only thing I could utter was, “You…”
“Do you like the game, By-chan?”
It was… what? No, it couldn’t be… Kouki’s boss… What? I… Was I hallucinating?
“Kazuki?” I spoke his name without comprehending the reality of the situation.
“Yep, that’s me! At least that’s what it was when I last checked.” Kazuki answered in his chipper tone.
“What are you doing here?” I softly asked. Was this retribution?
“What do you mean? I’m here because you’re here.” Kazuki gleefully said without answering my real question.
“No, no. You left…” I paused unable to form any coherent words. “You… left me.”
“I know I did.” Kazuki’s bubbly voice became a serious one. “And I’m sorry. I never meant to leave you.”
My heart was pounding hard as my mind raced uncontrollably. I… I… No. This couldn’t be for real. Kazuki couldn’t have truly returned.
Kazuki leaned in and kissed my forehead as the crowd’s roar shook the entire stadium. I assumed someone scored a point.
“Excuse me.” I pulled my hand away and quickly darted out of there.
I rushed outside of the arena and into the bathroom. I splashed my face with cold water trying to cool myself down. My face was immensely burning up like fire. What the hell happened back there? Kazuki? Kissing my forehead? The scene playing in my mind was like old times…
“By-chan, why are you in the bathroom? If you urgently needed to use the potty, then you could have said so.” Kazuki magically appeared right behind me.
I was startled and lightly gasped.
Kazuki chuckled, “No need to be scared. It’s just little, annoying Kazuki.”
“Kazuki, I thought you left. How come you’re back?” was the only question I could inquire without losing my sanity.
This was too much for my head to handle. The timing of Kazuki’s arrival couldn’t be any worse.
“I did, but now I’m back for you, By-chan.” Kazuki took a step closer towards me.
Kazuki suddenly wrapped his arms around me and pulled my body against his. The smell of that sweet, alluring cologne… It really was him. He was real. “I’ve missed you, By-chan. I promise I won’t ever leave you alone again.”
Huh? What was he saying? I couldn’t grasp Kazuki’s words. He acted as if he never disliked me once. But… wasn’t that the reason he left?
“I thought you left me because you didn’t like me.” I bluntly expressed my thoughts. It was odd. I could freely convey what I wanted in front of Kazuki. I had no fear of being embarrassed by what came out of my mouth.
Kazuki stayed silent as I felt his grip tighten. I didn’t mind his touch. In fact, I had missed it as well. My heart fluttered, but at the same time my mind was in a state of panic. Kazuki returned to my life… but…
“No, By-chan. I love you too much. I love everything about you. There isn’t anything that I don’t love about you.” Kazuki looked at me with those handsome eyes.
His words made no sense to me. If that was the case, then why did he leave?
“Then, why...?” I found myself not finishing my question.
“Byou, I love you.” Kazuki whispered into my ear as he licked it.
I was slightly startled. I forgot how Kazuki could be so seductive. Kazuki held the tip of my chin deeply staring into my eyes. When I studied Kazuki’s attractive face, I immediately saw those enticing, dark chocolate brown eyes glowing under the fluorescent light. I thought I would have seen that carefree, exuberant stance, but for some reason only a cold, sorrowful chill prickled my spine.
“By-chan, you have no idea how much I have missed you…” Kazuki used his other hand letting his fingers trace my face. Eventually, his index finger rested on my lips as he continued his sentence, “And that nostalgic kiss of yours.”
Kazuki took away his index finger and placed his hand on my waist. I softly gasped, “Kazuki-”
“Relax, By-chan. It’s just the two of us.” Kazuki whispered.
Kazuki leaned in closer as he closed his eyes and stole a kiss from my lips. I tried to part away, but Kazuki deepened the kiss and wouldn’t let me go as he pulled me in closer. Eventually, I found myself giving in as his tongue slipped in between my lips.
The memories of us being together flooded my mind. We shared those painful, but intimate and meaningful moments that no one would ever understand. Yes, I remember why I had loved him so much… No, this was why I still loved him…
Kazuki didn’t release his lips from mine until what seemed like a long time. Kazuki heavily breathed as I heard myself trying to catch my breath. Kazuki’s breath tickled the nape of my neck.
“Did you like it, By-chan?” Kazuki cutely asked.
“I…”
I couldn’t say no because I did like it. But it would be wrong of me to say yes. I… I was already with someone else…
Before I could respond, Kazuki took this chance and lightly kissed me as if not wanting to let this moment go… and neither did I. When I found myself returning his kiss, Kazuki deepened it. The sudden force took me by surprise. I had nearly forgotten how seductive of a kisser Kazuki was.
All of a sudden, my phone started to loudly ring and vibrate in my pocket. I abruptly parted my lips away from Kazuki who was heavily breathing. I reached down searching for it in my pocket.
“Who’s calling you?” Kazuki asked as he caressed behind my ears and down my neck. He leaned in and kissed my cheek. “You don’t have to answer it, do you?”
“Stop it.” I muttered under my breath.
Kazuki cocked his head as he licked my neck. A tingling sensation coursed through my body. Kazuki’s hand slid down my back… Bah! What the hell was I doing? I quickly pinched Kazuki’s cheek to get him off.
“Owie!” Kazuki playfully frowned rubbing his cheek. “But By-chan…”
“Shut up.” I ordered as I pressed the talk button. “Hello?”
“Byou? Where are you?” I heard Kouki’s voice over the phone.
I heard the noises and roars of other people’s voices in the background. It was obnoxious and deathly. The game was over?
“I’m…” I looked up at Kazuki momentarily before answering. “I’m in the bathroom.”
I saw a mischievous, charismatic smile creep up on Kazuki’s face.
“Oh, are you alright?” Kouki inquired with a fearful tone.
I didn’t know why he sounded scared. Maybe he was worried I was sick… or something. “I’m fine.”
“Okay, well, I’ll meet up with you outside. It’s a little crazy in here.” Kouki raised his voice a little as it was drowned by the discordant noises. “Okay?!”
“Yeah. I’ll meet you outside.” I answered as I hung up.
There was an awkward moment of silence before Kazuki kissed my lips again and caressed my face. “Who was that?”
“I have to go.” I answered as I pulled away to avoid his question.
“Awww, don’t want to tell me?” Kazuki poked my cheek.
I sighed and responded without thinking, “It was Kouki.”
I remember how in the past Kazuki would pester me if I didn’t respond to him with a straightforward answer.
“Oh, Kouki-san. Are you guys dating?” Kazuki innocently popped the question.
“We…” I stopped myself when I realized what I was going to say. “Anyway, I have to go.”
Kazuki tightened his grip around my waist and ended up embracing me in his arms. I hesitated whether I should do the same. I reminisced the times when we would have moments like these and I wouldn’t mind standing here for hours… especially on those days when I felt I couldn’t trust the world, but him.
“Did you ever change my name on your phone?” Kazuki asked me as he gently stroked my hair.
I couldn’t help, but smile when I heard that question. I gave him a ridiculous nickname since he was a big otaku. I lowly chuckled, “Gundam K.”
“You still kept that?” Kazuki turned his face towards me.
“Why not?” I rhetorically posed the question.
“I’m not a Gundam, you know.” Kazuki humorously pouted.
Ever since I met Kazuki, I discovered that he was a fanatic of Gundams and anime, in general. He collected posters and action figures for it like a kid. To poke fun at him, I labeled his caller ID as Gundam K and eventually later made that ridiculous business card. Eventually, it grew as symbol of our relationship and became something that was only understood between the two of us.
Before I added any more to the conversation, Kazuki released his arms and smiled at me.
No. His warm arms disappeared from my grasp. I didn’t want him to go. I didn’t want that special warmth to vanish. “I’ll call you later, By-chan. You didn’t change your number, right?”
My eyes stayed fixated on his charming face. I knew there was a reason why I had loved him so deeply. It was as if he read my mind. He seemed to know everything to make me feel better and comfort me at my most crucial moments. He was the only one who truly understood the real me.
Before I could utter a goodbye, I heard Kazuki’s footsteps head towards the door and fade away out into the chaotic world. I stood there for a moment unable to believe what had just happened. I hastily rushed out of the bathroom slamming the door open. I stopped as I immediately came out of the bathroom. I expected to see him there, but I only saw the crowds of students flowing out of the arena and into the parking lot. I stood there breathless.
No. I had lost him again. I had lost him again… How would I ever see him once more? I had so many questions running through my mind. Why did he come back? Why did he leave me in the first place? No. It was all too quick… and too soon. Too soon.
I touched my lips and licked it. His lips were sweet even if I had a hard time resisting them. No. I… I had to see him again. But how would I do that?
“Kazuki…” I lowly muttered to myself.
I rubbed one of my arms. Kazuki. How I longed to hold his hand again… If only I could have stayed in that moment forever…
“Our school is awesome!” one of the students screamed from the top of their lungs.
My attention snapped back to reality. No. I had to convince myself… It was just a transient feeling that could never truly return. I sighed as I remembered Kouki. He was waiting for me outside, wasn’t he?
As I treaded over there, my mind was preoccupied with Kazuki. Could it have been the work of God? Did this all happen by coincidence or by fate? I didn’t know. But one way or another, my questions would not rest. I had to see him again in person…
When I reached the outside of the locker rooms, I found Kouki standing there fretting over something. Hopefully, he didn’t wait too long outside.
“You weren’t waiting long, were you?” I casually approached Kouki.
“Uh… me? No, no, I just got here.” Kouki shook his head.
I figured that Kouki was speaking the truth so I didn’t bother questioning any further. “Let’s go home.”
I was tired and exhausted form today’s events. I really wanted to rest and meditate on today’s events.
When we arrived home, Kouki kept on pestering me with a ton of useless questions.
“Did you like the game?”
I headed into the kitchen to drink a glass of water, but Kouki stood inches away from me constantly poking my shoulder.
“Did you enjoy the view?”
I went into the living room hoping he would quit, but he followed right behind me.
“Did you see the champion score?”
I entered our room and placed my phone out on the night table. Kouki continuously followed me around. As I walked inside the bathroom I heard Kouki’s footsteps about to come inside with me.
I stopped at the doorway and looked at him. “I’m going to take a shower.”
“Oh. Hehe. Go ahead.” Kouki took a few steps back. “Um… I’ll be waiting for you.”
I shut the door without responding. I knew if it was Kazuki, he might have jumped into the shower with me. I shook my head. Damn…
As I washed myself up, I kept wondering if Kazuki was going to call me as he said he would. Would he keep his promise?
When I came out, I noticed that Kouki had fallen into a deep sleep. He was heavily breathing as I watched his chest rise and fall. I was about to wake him up until I heard his phone vibrate on the table. Curiously, I peeked over and noticed an unfamiliar name on the screen.
“Kazami?” I mouthed to myself.
I let the phone continue to vibrate and shake the table. Who the heck was this… Kazami? Was it that old friend Kouki spoke of? Did it mean that… they were keeping in contact? I stood there motionless letting the name sink into my mind. Kazami. What was Kouki’s relationship with Kazami? More importantly, why didn’t Kouki tell me that Kazami and him were contacting each other?
His phone stopped vibrating as the screen turned dark. I didn’t know if I should wake Kouki up and interrogate him about the call. Probably not. Besides, I, myself, wasn’t in the mood to get into a heated discussion with Kouki.
I lightly poked Kouki’s shoulder as Kouki jumped up into the air and hopped off of the bed. “What? What? Crap! I fell asleep on the bed?? Damn it… I stink-fied the bed…”
I incredulously stared at Kouki. I figured he must have been very tired from tonight’s game. Normally, he wouldn’t have been conked out this badly.
“I’m going to take a quick shower. I’ll be right back!” Kouki dashed into the shower and closed the door behind him.
I sat on the bed wondering about Kouki’s mysterious caller. Kazami. If Kazami was just an old friend, why didn’t Kouki bother to inform me about it? He had nothing to hide, did he?
Before I could ponder more about the matter, I heard my phone ring with that victory game tone I hadn’t heard in a while. I reached over for it as I noticed the caller was labeled ‘Gundam K’. I smirked to myself. It was Kazuki.
“Hello?” I responded.
I couldn’t believe he called back… as he promised. Could it be that he was for real?
“Hello, By-chan! Did you get home safely?” Kazuki’s cheery voice inquired.
“Yeah, no thanks to you.” I answered in an accusatory tone.
“Heeeey. It’s not my fault. You said you had to leave with Kouki-san.” Kazuki defended himself. “How are you feeling?”
“Fine.” I answered hoping to brush the question off.
“Really? You don’t sound fine.” Kazuki read through my lie.
I shifted my eyes to the floor. No one had ever pressed me about my true emotions. Kouki certainly never did and neither did my parents. “What do you want?”
“What…? By-chan is not going to tell me what’s wrong?” Kazuki started to fake the sniffles. “But… But…”
I sighed as I rolled my eyes. How did he always manage to guilt trip me? “I am just… tired from everything that has happened.”
“Ooooh. Me too! Sort of. Actually, I think I’m too excited to sleep, hehe.” Kazuki giggled.
I felt myself smiling and failed at my attempt to suppress my laughter. “Why did you call?
“Oh! Well, I was thinking… Maybe we could eat breakfast together tomorrow? Like old times!” Kazuki suggested.
I was about to consent, but held myself back. No, I couldn’t. That would be too suspicious. Kouki always got up early in the morning to make breakfast for me. Not to mention Kouki always liked to leave home later than he said he would. I couldn’t…
“By-chan?” Kazuki called out my name.
“I suppose.” I agreed without knowing what I was getting myself into.
Shit. Did I just agree to go with Kazuki?
“Yay! By-chan is going to eat with meee!” Kazuki sang over the phone.
I flushed from his embarrassing words. “Stop it. You sound like a kid.”
“Lighten up, By-chan. It’s no good to be so tense. It’s bad for your health.” Kazuki advised me. “Speaking of which, are you eating healthy?”
“Yes, mother.” I jokingly said.
Before I met Kazuki, I had adopted all sorts of terrible eating habits to get my parents to pay attention to me. I never ate any of the nutritious seafood, vegetables, and red meat that were necessary for my diet. I pigged out all day. Honestly, I never passed any physical examination classes. It wasn’t until Kazuki showed up in my life that I started to choose what was right for my health.
“Well, I have to make sure that nothing bad happens to you. I wouldn’t want you getting sick, By-chan.” Kazuki genuinely said.
His soothing voice sounded close to my ear yet so far away… unable for me to grasp with my bare hands. I wished he were sitting right here next to me.
“I’ll see you tomorrow then, By-chan. Goodniiiight.” Kazuki faked a kiss over the phone.
“Goodnight.”
With my last word, Kazuki hung up and the line went dead. I continued to hold the phone up to my ear. I foolishly held onto that naïve hope he would call back and I would be ready to pick up at a moment’s notice. I slowly placed the phone on the night table as I lied down in bed.
I covered the blanket over myself and closed my eyes. I better fall asleep. I would have Kouki questioning me even further if I was still awake. To be honest, I didn’t remember if Kouki ever came out of the shower or not. I must have fallen asleep. Though, that night, I dreamt about the last date Kazuki and I had before he mysteriously left without a note… leaving me with that silver locket.
A/N's
Yay, another chapter out! I was so excited for this story that I had to work on it. Doesn't mean I've forgotten about the other ones, ^_^;;;
The next chapter is in the middle of being written. So please stay tuned for it!
Comments and constructive criticisms are greatly appreciated! <3
Chapter: 2/?
Author: atmosphere_zero and misfitmisfit
Genre: Angst, Comedy, Drama, Humor, Romance, Yaoi, AU
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Strong Language, Men kissing
Band(s): Born, D=OUT, exist+trace, Screw, Vivid
Pairing(s)/Character(s): KoukixByou, JinxTomo, RenoxMiko, and more to come!
Disclaimer: I am in no way affiliated with the bands, people, artists, and musicians mentioned in the story. The story is a work of pure fiction and is in no way meant to represent or reflect the real bands, people, artists, and musicians mentioned in any way. Any similarities are pure coincidences. I do not make anything off of the story as this is simply meant for pure entertainment. No harm or disrespect in any way is intended.
Summary: Had that one flower bloomed, things might have taken a different turn.
Comments: This story is a little different from the ones I have been writing. It's from two different perspectives. One from Byou's and the other from Kouki's. Please read both to understand the whole story, ^_^. Wouldn't want anyone missing out on any of the gripping scenes. More at the bottom. Enjoy! :)
Chapters
Chapter 1: Byou/Kouki
Chapter 2: Byou/Kouki
Chapter 3: Byou/Kouki
I rolled around in bed hearing the clinging and clanking in the far distant. Before I knew it, I smelled the distinct aroma of food. I peeled open my eyes and discovered Kouki was already out of bed. I turned over staring at the empty space. Would Kouki, one day, leave me if I revealed my true self? Perhaps. It was what always happened to me…
I slipped out of bed and got dressed. Today was Monday, the beginning of the workweek. Kouki tried his best to cheer me up after the art gallery fiasco yesterday. I couldn’t help, but laugh at Kouki’s silliness. Being with him, I felt my world light up a little bit more. Though, he said those three words when I pretended to fall asleep. I didn’t have the nerve to respond back to him. But I should have, shouldn’t I? After all, we shared the same feelings for each other…
I headed out into the kitchen and found Kouki ready to leave for work.
“Morning, Byou! How are you feeling?” Kouki excitedly greeted as he rushed over to hug me.
Kouki leaned in and brushed his nose against my neck. His breath whipped against my bare skin.
“Fine.” I groggily answered rubbing my eyes.
“Can I kiss you?” Kouki cutely asked me as he lightly traced my lips.
Normally, I would have shoved Kouki away, but I was too tired to care. I was more preoccupied thinking about the… dream? No. I would call it the nightmare about that last day…
“Don’t you have to go to work soon?” I evaded his question.
Kouki took the initiative to kiss me in order to wake me up. My eyes slightly widened. H-how could he do that?
“Are you awake now?”
I immediately looked away when Kouki released my lips. I was greatly embarrassed by what he did.
“Awwww, you look so cute.” Kouki kissed the tip of my nose.
“Aren’t you going to be late if you don’t go now?” I avoided his statement.
He always pulled this kind of tactic on me. I didn’t mind, but sometimes I wished he would ask me beforehand.
Kouki peered at his wrist. “Oh fineee, I’ll go now. Oh, before I forget, I did make your smoothie this morning. I hope you like it.”
Kouki gave me another quick kiss before releasing his grip from me. He raced out of the door as I heard him get in his car and drive away. I sat down on the chair as I rubbed my eyes.
“Byou-sama, would you like some coffee and eggs?” a maid approached me.
“Yes.” I automatically answered as she disappeared.
I peered at the smoothie sitting on the table. I hesitated to reach for it. I remembered Kouki concocting all sorts of interesting flavors until this berry flavor. Although I did like this flavor, thinking about it made me depressed. I only liked it because it was my first one and the first time someone cared about me…
I peered over at the sofa as I stroked my chin. Fuck, where were Rui’s drawings?
XOXOXOXO
After breakfast, my chauffer brought me to work as I sat in the limousine mainly lost in my thoughts. Throughout the car ride, I studied the ring sitting on my index finger. How long ago was this given to me? I reached up for the necklace hidden within my dress shirt. It was all in the past. A past that would never return.
The limousine stopped as my chauffer rushed out to open the car door for me. I stepped out and noticed the huge building in front of me.
I slightly nodded at my chauffer and headed inside. When I arrived to the meeting room, I found Rui laying his head on his arms snoozing while Manabu was rapidly clicking away on his cellphone. But I saw no Jin. Where was he?
Manabu looked up nodding his head acknowledging my presence. I tiptoed over and flicked Rui’s face to wake him up.
“Ahhh! I’m awake! I’m awake!” Rui’s eyes bugged out from being frightened.
Manabu stifled a laugh as he slipped his cellphone into his pocket.
“Uh… hi, Byou.” Rui chuckled, wiping the drool off the corner of his mouth.
“Where’s Jin?” I promptly asked.
“Oh, he’s-” Manabu was about to answer until someone interrupted him.
“Are we late?!” I heard a familiar, unwanted voice. I didn’t react to it, though.
“Ahhh! Goddammit! Sorry, I’m late!” Jin rushed inside looking like a frenzied mess.
From the corner of my eye, I spotted Tomo’s head poking inside. Even though I saw him, I didn’t turn my head around to greet him. I couldn’t greet my worse enemy.
“I’ll see you later then, Jin-chan.” Tomo lowly whispered as I heard him blow a kiss to Jin.
“Ahhh, stop being embarrassing. I’ll see you later, too, Tomo.” Jin responded back in a cutesy manner.
My family and Tomo’s family were of the same status and therefore we knew each other pretty well. But ever since that time… we never communicated the same way.
I heard Tomo’s footsteps fade away into the background. I slightly turned around seeing Jin take a seat next to Rui.
“Aww, you two are so cute together.” Rui giddily exclaimed. “Ahhh, I wish I could find someone like that.”
“I’m sure you will! It just takes some time.” Jin cheered him on.
“Oh, yeah. I did! It’s me and my cat, Maru-san.” Rui played on Jin’s words.
Before Jin could respond, Manabu steered the conversation towards the drawings, “So what’s the final verdict?”
All weekend I had been pondering, but I couldn’t agree and I certainly didn’t have a better idea. Dammit. Our deadline was coming up in a few weeks. If we didn’t have something to present to the bigger potatoes, we might all be out of a job.
“Ah! It displeases you? No worries. I had some inspiration to draw more over the weekend.” Rui pulled out his art pad from his bag.
“Whoa, that’s one huge drawing pad! It’s bigger than me!” Jin admired the size of it.
“Everything is bigger than you.” Manabu poked fun at Jin.
“Hey! Just because I’m small doesn’t mean anything!” Jin stuck his tongue out.
“Hey, hey… My drawings?” Rui piped into the conversation.
“Yes, the drawings?” I said to let him know that he still had my attention.
While Rui happily presented the drawings, I couldn’t help but let my thoughts wander to Jin. I found my view shifting towards Jin. I had known Jin for quite sometime. We worked together for several years and knew each other to the point that we hung out several times outside of work.
I focused my attention back on Rui’s drawings. There were numerous drawings lying all over the big glass table. Manabu picked one up and stared at it. He pointed his finger to the particular drawing he was holding. “We’ve done a ring similar to this one. We can’t use it again.”
“Ooooh, I like this.” Jin picked up another one.
I remembered, at one point in time, I had carried some transient feelings for the shortie. But I grudgingly accepted the fact that I lost my chance when he got together with Tomo. Come to think of it, I met Kouki through Jin. If it weren’t for Jin, Kouki would have never been in my life all together.
“What do you think, Byou?” Rui turned his attention to me.
“Hmm…” I gazed at the papers.
There was no doubt in my mind. Rui’s drawings were superior, excellent, and ingenious. I knew it or else I would have never hired him. But… why was I not pleased seeing any of this? I felt something was missing in the overall picture.
“Speaking of which, the production of ‘Starlet Heart’ is almost done. It’s ready to be presented tomorrow.” Manabu quickly added into the conversation.
“Of course. I would like to see it.” I nodded as I rested my head on my hand.
“Ooooh, it’s that pretty necklace, isn’t it?” Jin reminded himself of the product.
“It’s more than a pretty necklace. It’s a spectacular, stunning necklace.” Manabu found the need to correct Jin’s words.
“Fine. Fine. Fine.” Jin didn’t bother to argue with Manabu.
When I started to work at my parents’ jewelry company, I was required to build a team to help me design and create jewelry of a new line under my own name. After interviewing numerous people, I ended up choosing Jin, Manabu, and Rui. Rui was the genius who could see beyond and knew what I wanted especially when I had some idea no one else could understand. Manabu was in charge of the actual creation and production of the jewelry. His family was known for being one of the best artisans, and it showed right away when he presented me with some of his ‘amateur’ works. He was definitely talented. Jin was in charge of advertisements and coming up with unique slogans or names for the product. Even though he liked to slack off, he always got the job done and knew how to do it so well that the big bosses were impressed with his words every time.
We were given numerous projects at any given moment and had deadlines to meet. I didn’t mind the pace since this was what I loved doing. But lately I had been having brain freezes. No new brilliant idea was coming to my mind. What was the trouble with me as of late?
“Hey, Byou, what do you think of this pendant that Rui drew?” Jin broke my reverie.
“Huh?” I looked up and saw Rui’s drawing.
The drawing of the pendant certainly caught my eye.
“Why don’t you put some color to it?” I suggested. For some reason, I had really liked this one.
“Sure!” Rui gladly agreed.
Jin’s cellphone rang and interrupted the conversation. “Ahhh, dammit. It’s the advertisement director. Excuse me.”
Our day was mostly like this. We spent time in the office and if need be we would have to go to different places to meet up with people or finish up the job.
“How’s your relationship with Kouki-san?” Rui politely asked as he took out some of his coloring utensils.
“Fine.” I answered as I headed to my own desk.
Even though we had only been together for a year, I knew things were going well… for now. My thoughts traveled to the mischievous, comical Kouki. Our first few dates were horrible simply because I didn’t like him at all. At first, I didn’t know why I was spending time with him. But one day, Kouki brought me on a picnic to a park where there were cherry blossoms. It was in the spring and the cherry blossoms were in their blooming season.
I distinctly remembered how Kouki pointed out a cherry blossom that had not yet bloomed unlike the rest of the beautiful petals.
“What a sad cherry blossom.” I sourly commented.
“Nah, I think it’s beautiful. It still has time to choose what to look like. I bet it will be the greatest one of all.” Kouki admiringly commented.
When I arrived home I noticed that the time was five o’clock. I asked the butler whether Kouki was home yet, but he answered that Kouki was out. Odd. Kouki was usually home early. I wondered where he was. Did he get caught up at work? No. Kouki would have called me if he did. What might have happened to him?
I decided to take a shower while I thought about the pendant. No, no. It didn’t fit. Something surely wasn’t right with it. But what could it have been? Dammit.
As I got out of the shower, I wondered where Kouki could be. He usually wasn’t this late.
I decided to work in the living room as I waited for Kouki. Occasionally, I looked up at the time. I scratched my head worried. It was getting unusually late for Kouki. If he was ever late, he would give me a call, but he didn’t. And well, I… I…
Suddenly, I heard some car’s tires screech and pull up into the driveway. Was it Kouki? I anxiously sat there pretending I didn’t hear a sound. I heard the car turn off, but no one was coming to the door.
After a few minutes passed, I heard the door slam open as I heard a thump and Kouki’s voice. Secretly, I was glad that he was finally home. I tried not to look like I was anticipating Kouki’s arrival until I heard stomping noises and saw Kouki racing towards me like a madman.
He lost his footing on the new carpet and slid right underneath my feet. I incredulously stared him. I didn’t understand why he had to pull off such a crazy stunt. He was always so melodramatic when things were out of the blue.
“Uh, hi, Byou.” Kouki waved his hand as he looked up.
He appeared quite ridiculous in that state. I almost couldn’t help from laughing, but I restrained myself. I had to wear that serious demeanor face. I couldn’t let Kouki know…
Kouki struggled to pull himself up onto the couch. I wasn’t sure why it took him so much effort. Wasn’t he the basketball coach?
“Where were you?” the question came right out of my mouth. It was the question I had been dying to ask him. In fact, I was a little worried.
Could it be that Kouki was hanging out with someone else? If so, who could it be? He seemed to be a bit distraught when he was dashing towards me. Did something unexpected happen?
“Ummm, I was… with an old friend… it was very out of the blue. Super unplanned. I swear! I didn’t do anything!!” Kouki explained all it in one breath.
I couldn’t understand why Kouki was hyperventilating. Though, I was more worried about what he meant. Old friend of his?
I pretended not to understand what he meant. I didn’t want to jump to conclusions. “What?”
Kouki took my hand without warning and explained himself a bit clearer. “I’m really sorry I was late. I was catching up on old times with my old friend. He talked on forever, and I kept staring at my watch. I didn’t want to be rude and tell him that I needed to go. You know me… I’m not strong enough to say no to people. Anyway, I haven’t eaten anything. Have you?”
I stayed quiet pondering on Kouki’s words. Was he really speaking the truth? How could I know for sure? Kouki wasn’t one to lie about matters. I knew that for a fact. But then why did I feel as if… there was something beneath his words? I attempted to push the thought towards the back of my mind, but the feeling of not knowing… still floated around in my heart.
“I was waiting for you.” I simply responded.
Kouki continued to hold onto my hand in a daze. Was he still thinking about his old friend?
“Still thinking about something?” I suspiciously asked as I took my hand away from his.
This old friend couldn’t be that important… could it?
“What? No, no! Let me make something really quick!” Kouki fretted as though worried.
He dashed into the kitchen without a second thought. As I sat there, I heard the clinging and clanking of pots coming from inside the kitchen. Kouki’s story was still replaying in my mind. Old friend. Meeting.
I stared back at the draft of pendant that was pointed out today at work. What could be missing? Why did I feel like I was always missing something? Perhaps when Rui colored in the final draft, I would be satisfied.
“AHHH!” Kouki’s voice echoed from the kitchen.
I immediately put everything down and hastily headed over there finding Kouki running his finger through cold water. I noticed that he had bulging red eyes and a continuous runny nose. What on earth was he doing in here?
“Kouki? Are you alright?”
Kouki splashed the faucet water all over his face and raced away to grab a towel to dry his face.
“It’s not ready yet, but I’ll call you when it’s done.” Kouki came back smiling as he squinted his eyes as small as possible.
I wasn’t sure why Kouki was acting so strange. I could only stare at him in such a crazy mess. The awkward tension between us that moment… I didn’t like it.
“So how was your work day?” I changed the topic.
Kouki paused thinking for a moment before answering. It seemed he forgot what he did today. Suddenly, Kouki reached for his pocket as if remembering something. He handed me a small card. I hesitantly took it from him.
“I got this from my new boss today. Isn’t it cool?”
When my eyes shifted towards the card, I stared at it stunned. My heart started to race. My mind was swirling in endless thoughts. This card… No, it couldn’t be. I… I…
“Well, it might look silly, but he said a good friend of his from a long time ago helped make it for him. I think that gives the card more sentimental value, don’t you think?” Kouki explained the business card as he laughed.
Although, he was speaking, I wasn’t listening to a single word coming out of his mouth. My eyes were glued onto this business card. No. It couldn’t be. I remember… I remember I made this as a huge joke… for Kazuki. No… Kazuki? Back in the day, Kazuki proclaimed that one day he would become the boss of a famous sports company since Kazuki was into sports and originally played tennis. At the same time, I knew he liked watching this anime so I decided to poke fun at him and created it for him. It was my first drawing creation ever.
“Stand back a little, Byou. You might get burnt!” Kouki hastily stood in front of me to protect me from the sizzling oil.
I hardly realized what he was doing. My mind was too engrossed at the sight of the card.
I never would have thought Kazuki kept it. Unless it was a fluke and this person was actually someone else… It had to be. He would never come back. He didn’t like me… That was why he left me in the first place. But this card… Why was none of this making sense to me?
“Byou, I think it’s-” Kouki was about to say more.
I interrupted him without even realizing he had even spoken. “What is your boss’ name? What does he look like?”
I had to confirm through Kouki’s words. Because if what I knew became true… No… It had to be a coincidence. Yet I…
“Umm, his name is Kazuki-san. I distinctively remember his red-auburn colored hair, his dazzling smile, and that interesting piercing on his lower lip. It sounds weird when I say this, but he was quite handsome. Ah!! But I don’t have any interest in him like that. I still love you the most!” Kouki was splitting up the food onto separate plates.
I mainly ignored the words coming out of Kouki’s mouth. Kazuki? Kazuki? Kazuki… I hadn’t thought of that name in so long. I hadn’t seen his face in so long. Kouki’s description still matched the way he looked so many years ago. Could it just be a sick coincidence? It had to be. God couldn’t be that cruel…
“How about you? How was work today?” Kouki suddenly hugged me.
An unexpected warm feeling came over me. Damn. What was I thinking?
“Fine. But my team is still creating some more sketches to discuss about this Friday.” I flatly told him.
I figured Kouki wasn’t interested in hearing what I had to say so I never elaborated. Besides, Kouki was more into sports.
“Oh crap!” Kouki finally released his warm hug and raced up the stairs.
I gazed at the business card with the small Gundam model. I wondered if I would bump into him. No, no. Impossible. He probably wasn’t even looking for me anymore. He was probably here to start a new life. I placed the business card in my pocket without even thinking. I hoped I… I… wouldn’t have to see him again.
Kouki came back with some flimsy paper in his hand. “Here. This is for you.”
“What is this?” I intriguingly examined the ticket.
“Do you think you can make it?” Kouki inquired with anxiety in his voice.
“University basketball championship game on Friday.” I read out the title of the ticket and the day. I shifted my eyes upward towards Kouki.
I hated how sometimes he gave me such little notice. “You know, you should give me a week advance notice.”
“But… but…” Kouki tried come up with some excuse, but was coming out with none.
I saw his face turn into a melancholy expression. Was he thinking of something else? Was he thinking of his… old friend? His old friend… My thoughts shifted towards the business card I put in my pocket. I touched it with one hand, but I didn’t dare take it out. I touched the business card with the tips of my fingers. I couldn’t believe it… I recognized my drawing… That was my drawing from college.
“Let’s eat!” Kouki broke my thoughts and brought the plates to the dinning table.
While we were eating, I rid my thoughts about the business card. I was with Kouki right now. What did the past matter?
When I took a bite into the pasta toss, I smiled inwardly about it. I couldn’t explain it very well, but Kouki’s food always had this certain special touch and taste that no one else could replicate. It always made me feel warmer on the inside. Even when I was stressed or troubled, it made my worries fade away.
Eating with Kouki, I temporarily forgot about that business card… and that name… Kazuki.
Friday rolled around quicker than I expected. While we had made some progress during the week with the new design, I was still dissatisfied even after Rui colored in the drawing. What was missing? Perhaps I needed to get away from work.
I informed Rui, Manabu, and Jin that I was taking the day off and to continue the work without me. Jin ended up whining about how Tomo couldn’t take him to awesome dates such as a basketball game. Manabu told Jin to stop daydreaming about Tomo and to get to work while Rui wished he could one day take Maru-san to the ocean to play. Honestly, I didn’t know how I got along with all of them in the first place. I hoped they would be all right without me.
When I arrived to the basketball court, I noticed millions of college students already in the arena. For some reason, I was reminded of the days I was in school. We would go to games like this and cheer on for our school team… We used to do such childish, fun activities, but those days were long gone.
Luckily, I was able to trade my ticket with some random college student. I disliked sitting with the people I dealt with on a daily basis. If I was going to enjoy a game like this, then I wanted to get away from the real world. I hated dealing with the real world.
As the game started, I tried my best to make sense of the players’ moves and what the referee was spewing out of his mouth. I didn’t have too much knowledge about the game, but I had been learning little by little ever since Kouki came along. Before he came along, I thought every sport except tennis was boring and made no sense. Thanks to Kouki, I became more aware of what the world outside had to offer.
“Yay! Score!” one of the students behind me hollered.
Hmm, I think the maroon colored team was Kouki’s team. They were moving faster than my eyes could keep up with. How did Kouki keep up with the game? I saw-
Unexpectedly, someone’s hand touched mine on the armrest. I immediately jerked away and glanced over.
“I’m sorry.” I apologized out of instinct.
“Oh! No worries.” a familiar voice nonchalantly accepted my apology.
My eyes widened when I recognized the handsome man sitting next to me. It couldn’t be! The only thing I could utter was, “You…”
“Do you like the game, By-chan?”
It was… what? No, it couldn’t be… Kouki’s boss… What? I… Was I hallucinating?
“Kazuki?” I spoke his name without comprehending the reality of the situation.
“Yep, that’s me! At least that’s what it was when I last checked.” Kazuki answered in his chipper tone.
“What are you doing here?” I softly asked. Was this retribution?
“What do you mean? I’m here because you’re here.” Kazuki gleefully said without answering my real question.
“No, no. You left…” I paused unable to form any coherent words. “You… left me.”
“I know I did.” Kazuki’s bubbly voice became a serious one. “And I’m sorry. I never meant to leave you.”
My heart was pounding hard as my mind raced uncontrollably. I… I… No. This couldn’t be for real. Kazuki couldn’t have truly returned.
Kazuki leaned in and kissed my forehead as the crowd’s roar shook the entire stadium. I assumed someone scored a point.
“Excuse me.” I pulled my hand away and quickly darted out of there.
I rushed outside of the arena and into the bathroom. I splashed my face with cold water trying to cool myself down. My face was immensely burning up like fire. What the hell happened back there? Kazuki? Kissing my forehead? The scene playing in my mind was like old times…
“By-chan, why are you in the bathroom? If you urgently needed to use the potty, then you could have said so.” Kazuki magically appeared right behind me.
I was startled and lightly gasped.
Kazuki chuckled, “No need to be scared. It’s just little, annoying Kazuki.”
“Kazuki, I thought you left. How come you’re back?” was the only question I could inquire without losing my sanity.
This was too much for my head to handle. The timing of Kazuki’s arrival couldn’t be any worse.
“I did, but now I’m back for you, By-chan.” Kazuki took a step closer towards me.
Kazuki suddenly wrapped his arms around me and pulled my body against his. The smell of that sweet, alluring cologne… It really was him. He was real. “I’ve missed you, By-chan. I promise I won’t ever leave you alone again.”
Huh? What was he saying? I couldn’t grasp Kazuki’s words. He acted as if he never disliked me once. But… wasn’t that the reason he left?
“I thought you left me because you didn’t like me.” I bluntly expressed my thoughts. It was odd. I could freely convey what I wanted in front of Kazuki. I had no fear of being embarrassed by what came out of my mouth.
Kazuki stayed silent as I felt his grip tighten. I didn’t mind his touch. In fact, I had missed it as well. My heart fluttered, but at the same time my mind was in a state of panic. Kazuki returned to my life… but…
“No, By-chan. I love you too much. I love everything about you. There isn’t anything that I don’t love about you.” Kazuki looked at me with those handsome eyes.
His words made no sense to me. If that was the case, then why did he leave?
“Then, why...?” I found myself not finishing my question.
“Byou, I love you.” Kazuki whispered into my ear as he licked it.
I was slightly startled. I forgot how Kazuki could be so seductive. Kazuki held the tip of my chin deeply staring into my eyes. When I studied Kazuki’s attractive face, I immediately saw those enticing, dark chocolate brown eyes glowing under the fluorescent light. I thought I would have seen that carefree, exuberant stance, but for some reason only a cold, sorrowful chill prickled my spine.
“By-chan, you have no idea how much I have missed you…” Kazuki used his other hand letting his fingers trace my face. Eventually, his index finger rested on my lips as he continued his sentence, “And that nostalgic kiss of yours.”
Kazuki took away his index finger and placed his hand on my waist. I softly gasped, “Kazuki-”
“Relax, By-chan. It’s just the two of us.” Kazuki whispered.
Kazuki leaned in closer as he closed his eyes and stole a kiss from my lips. I tried to part away, but Kazuki deepened the kiss and wouldn’t let me go as he pulled me in closer. Eventually, I found myself giving in as his tongue slipped in between my lips.
The memories of us being together flooded my mind. We shared those painful, but intimate and meaningful moments that no one would ever understand. Yes, I remember why I had loved him so much… No, this was why I still loved him…
Kazuki didn’t release his lips from mine until what seemed like a long time. Kazuki heavily breathed as I heard myself trying to catch my breath. Kazuki’s breath tickled the nape of my neck.
“Did you like it, By-chan?” Kazuki cutely asked.
“I…”
I couldn’t say no because I did like it. But it would be wrong of me to say yes. I… I was already with someone else…
Before I could respond, Kazuki took this chance and lightly kissed me as if not wanting to let this moment go… and neither did I. When I found myself returning his kiss, Kazuki deepened it. The sudden force took me by surprise. I had nearly forgotten how seductive of a kisser Kazuki was.
All of a sudden, my phone started to loudly ring and vibrate in my pocket. I abruptly parted my lips away from Kazuki who was heavily breathing. I reached down searching for it in my pocket.
“Who’s calling you?” Kazuki asked as he caressed behind my ears and down my neck. He leaned in and kissed my cheek. “You don’t have to answer it, do you?”
“Stop it.” I muttered under my breath.
Kazuki cocked his head as he licked my neck. A tingling sensation coursed through my body. Kazuki’s hand slid down my back… Bah! What the hell was I doing? I quickly pinched Kazuki’s cheek to get him off.
“Owie!” Kazuki playfully frowned rubbing his cheek. “But By-chan…”
“Shut up.” I ordered as I pressed the talk button. “Hello?”
“Byou? Where are you?” I heard Kouki’s voice over the phone.
I heard the noises and roars of other people’s voices in the background. It was obnoxious and deathly. The game was over?
“I’m…” I looked up at Kazuki momentarily before answering. “I’m in the bathroom.”
I saw a mischievous, charismatic smile creep up on Kazuki’s face.
“Oh, are you alright?” Kouki inquired with a fearful tone.
I didn’t know why he sounded scared. Maybe he was worried I was sick… or something. “I’m fine.”
“Okay, well, I’ll meet up with you outside. It’s a little crazy in here.” Kouki raised his voice a little as it was drowned by the discordant noises. “Okay?!”
“Yeah. I’ll meet you outside.” I answered as I hung up.
There was an awkward moment of silence before Kazuki kissed my lips again and caressed my face. “Who was that?”
“I have to go.” I answered as I pulled away to avoid his question.
“Awww, don’t want to tell me?” Kazuki poked my cheek.
I sighed and responded without thinking, “It was Kouki.”
I remember how in the past Kazuki would pester me if I didn’t respond to him with a straightforward answer.
“Oh, Kouki-san. Are you guys dating?” Kazuki innocently popped the question.
“We…” I stopped myself when I realized what I was going to say. “Anyway, I have to go.”
Kazuki tightened his grip around my waist and ended up embracing me in his arms. I hesitated whether I should do the same. I reminisced the times when we would have moments like these and I wouldn’t mind standing here for hours… especially on those days when I felt I couldn’t trust the world, but him.
“Did you ever change my name on your phone?” Kazuki asked me as he gently stroked my hair.
I couldn’t help, but smile when I heard that question. I gave him a ridiculous nickname since he was a big otaku. I lowly chuckled, “Gundam K.”
“You still kept that?” Kazuki turned his face towards me.
“Why not?” I rhetorically posed the question.
“I’m not a Gundam, you know.” Kazuki humorously pouted.
Ever since I met Kazuki, I discovered that he was a fanatic of Gundams and anime, in general. He collected posters and action figures for it like a kid. To poke fun at him, I labeled his caller ID as Gundam K and eventually later made that ridiculous business card. Eventually, it grew as symbol of our relationship and became something that was only understood between the two of us.
Before I added any more to the conversation, Kazuki released his arms and smiled at me.
No. His warm arms disappeared from my grasp. I didn’t want him to go. I didn’t want that special warmth to vanish. “I’ll call you later, By-chan. You didn’t change your number, right?”
My eyes stayed fixated on his charming face. I knew there was a reason why I had loved him so deeply. It was as if he read my mind. He seemed to know everything to make me feel better and comfort me at my most crucial moments. He was the only one who truly understood the real me.
Before I could utter a goodbye, I heard Kazuki’s footsteps head towards the door and fade away out into the chaotic world. I stood there for a moment unable to believe what had just happened. I hastily rushed out of the bathroom slamming the door open. I stopped as I immediately came out of the bathroom. I expected to see him there, but I only saw the crowds of students flowing out of the arena and into the parking lot. I stood there breathless.
No. I had lost him again. I had lost him again… How would I ever see him once more? I had so many questions running through my mind. Why did he come back? Why did he leave me in the first place? No. It was all too quick… and too soon. Too soon.
I touched my lips and licked it. His lips were sweet even if I had a hard time resisting them. No. I… I had to see him again. But how would I do that?
“Kazuki…” I lowly muttered to myself.
I rubbed one of my arms. Kazuki. How I longed to hold his hand again… If only I could have stayed in that moment forever…
“Our school is awesome!” one of the students screamed from the top of their lungs.
My attention snapped back to reality. No. I had to convince myself… It was just a transient feeling that could never truly return. I sighed as I remembered Kouki. He was waiting for me outside, wasn’t he?
As I treaded over there, my mind was preoccupied with Kazuki. Could it have been the work of God? Did this all happen by coincidence or by fate? I didn’t know. But one way or another, my questions would not rest. I had to see him again in person…
When I reached the outside of the locker rooms, I found Kouki standing there fretting over something. Hopefully, he didn’t wait too long outside.
“You weren’t waiting long, were you?” I casually approached Kouki.
“Uh… me? No, no, I just got here.” Kouki shook his head.
I figured that Kouki was speaking the truth so I didn’t bother questioning any further. “Let’s go home.”
I was tired and exhausted form today’s events. I really wanted to rest and meditate on today’s events.
When we arrived home, Kouki kept on pestering me with a ton of useless questions.
“Did you like the game?”
I headed into the kitchen to drink a glass of water, but Kouki stood inches away from me constantly poking my shoulder.
“Did you enjoy the view?”
I went into the living room hoping he would quit, but he followed right behind me.
“Did you see the champion score?”
I entered our room and placed my phone out on the night table. Kouki continuously followed me around. As I walked inside the bathroom I heard Kouki’s footsteps about to come inside with me.
I stopped at the doorway and looked at him. “I’m going to take a shower.”
“Oh. Hehe. Go ahead.” Kouki took a few steps back. “Um… I’ll be waiting for you.”
I shut the door without responding. I knew if it was Kazuki, he might have jumped into the shower with me. I shook my head. Damn…
As I washed myself up, I kept wondering if Kazuki was going to call me as he said he would. Would he keep his promise?
When I came out, I noticed that Kouki had fallen into a deep sleep. He was heavily breathing as I watched his chest rise and fall. I was about to wake him up until I heard his phone vibrate on the table. Curiously, I peeked over and noticed an unfamiliar name on the screen.
“Kazami?” I mouthed to myself.
I let the phone continue to vibrate and shake the table. Who the heck was this… Kazami? Was it that old friend Kouki spoke of? Did it mean that… they were keeping in contact? I stood there motionless letting the name sink into my mind. Kazami. What was Kouki’s relationship with Kazami? More importantly, why didn’t Kouki tell me that Kazami and him were contacting each other?
His phone stopped vibrating as the screen turned dark. I didn’t know if I should wake Kouki up and interrogate him about the call. Probably not. Besides, I, myself, wasn’t in the mood to get into a heated discussion with Kouki.
I lightly poked Kouki’s shoulder as Kouki jumped up into the air and hopped off of the bed. “What? What? Crap! I fell asleep on the bed?? Damn it… I stink-fied the bed…”
I incredulously stared at Kouki. I figured he must have been very tired from tonight’s game. Normally, he wouldn’t have been conked out this badly.
“I’m going to take a quick shower. I’ll be right back!” Kouki dashed into the shower and closed the door behind him.
I sat on the bed wondering about Kouki’s mysterious caller. Kazami. If Kazami was just an old friend, why didn’t Kouki bother to inform me about it? He had nothing to hide, did he?
Before I could ponder more about the matter, I heard my phone ring with that victory game tone I hadn’t heard in a while. I reached over for it as I noticed the caller was labeled ‘Gundam K’. I smirked to myself. It was Kazuki.
“Hello?” I responded.
I couldn’t believe he called back… as he promised. Could it be that he was for real?
“Hello, By-chan! Did you get home safely?” Kazuki’s cheery voice inquired.
“Yeah, no thanks to you.” I answered in an accusatory tone.
“Heeeey. It’s not my fault. You said you had to leave with Kouki-san.” Kazuki defended himself. “How are you feeling?”
“Fine.” I answered hoping to brush the question off.
“Really? You don’t sound fine.” Kazuki read through my lie.
I shifted my eyes to the floor. No one had ever pressed me about my true emotions. Kouki certainly never did and neither did my parents. “What do you want?”
“What…? By-chan is not going to tell me what’s wrong?” Kazuki started to fake the sniffles. “But… But…”
I sighed as I rolled my eyes. How did he always manage to guilt trip me? “I am just… tired from everything that has happened.”
“Ooooh. Me too! Sort of. Actually, I think I’m too excited to sleep, hehe.” Kazuki giggled.
I felt myself smiling and failed at my attempt to suppress my laughter. “Why did you call?
“Oh! Well, I was thinking… Maybe we could eat breakfast together tomorrow? Like old times!” Kazuki suggested.
I was about to consent, but held myself back. No, I couldn’t. That would be too suspicious. Kouki always got up early in the morning to make breakfast for me. Not to mention Kouki always liked to leave home later than he said he would. I couldn’t…
“By-chan?” Kazuki called out my name.
“I suppose.” I agreed without knowing what I was getting myself into.
Shit. Did I just agree to go with Kazuki?
“Yay! By-chan is going to eat with meee!” Kazuki sang over the phone.
I flushed from his embarrassing words. “Stop it. You sound like a kid.”
“Lighten up, By-chan. It’s no good to be so tense. It’s bad for your health.” Kazuki advised me. “Speaking of which, are you eating healthy?”
“Yes, mother.” I jokingly said.
Before I met Kazuki, I had adopted all sorts of terrible eating habits to get my parents to pay attention to me. I never ate any of the nutritious seafood, vegetables, and red meat that were necessary for my diet. I pigged out all day. Honestly, I never passed any physical examination classes. It wasn’t until Kazuki showed up in my life that I started to choose what was right for my health.
“Well, I have to make sure that nothing bad happens to you. I wouldn’t want you getting sick, By-chan.” Kazuki genuinely said.
His soothing voice sounded close to my ear yet so far away… unable for me to grasp with my bare hands. I wished he were sitting right here next to me.
“I’ll see you tomorrow then, By-chan. Goodniiiight.” Kazuki faked a kiss over the phone.
“Goodnight.”
With my last word, Kazuki hung up and the line went dead. I continued to hold the phone up to my ear. I foolishly held onto that naïve hope he would call back and I would be ready to pick up at a moment’s notice. I slowly placed the phone on the night table as I lied down in bed.
I covered the blanket over myself and closed my eyes. I better fall asleep. I would have Kouki questioning me even further if I was still awake. To be honest, I didn’t remember if Kouki ever came out of the shower or not. I must have fallen asleep. Though, that night, I dreamt about the last date Kazuki and I had before he mysteriously left without a note… leaving me with that silver locket.
A/N's
Yay, another chapter out! I was so excited for this story that I had to work on it. Doesn't mean I've forgotten about the other ones, ^_^;;;
The next chapter is in the middle of being written. So please stay tuned for it!
Comments and constructive criticisms are greatly appreciated! <3