conan o'brien
conan's late night show has been a staple of my entertainment diet for as long as the show has been on. now it's gone and i'm still not sure how to feel about it. it has played a roll in forming my relationships as well as my tastes. true it was just a tv show, one that belongs to an archaic form even. true he has a new show airing soon, but it seems like it will be difficult to adhere to the aesthetics and sensabilities that made me such a fan of "late night."
it seems like this is part of my personal history dissipating into a void, or morphing into something i am uncomfortable with. maybe this is just growing old. maybe i wouldn't feel so bad about it if i wasn't such a failure of a person myself (which is also part of my personal history being proven to be folly and meaningless). i resist nihilism as much as i can, but these kinds of things make it difficult.
it seems like this is part of my personal history dissipating into a void, or morphing into something i am uncomfortable with. maybe this is just growing old. maybe i wouldn't feel so bad about it if i wasn't such a failure of a person myself (which is also part of my personal history being proven to be folly and meaningless). i resist nihilism as much as i can, but these kinds of things make it difficult.