Step out on faith....

[atlgurl6584]

Step out on faith. Step out on faith. Step out on faith. That's the same thing that's been in my head since a conversation between Twanda and myself occured. I'm doing things right now that are getting me towards the goal that I made for myself, but I just feel like one thing is hindering me. Something is hindering me from obtaining my complete happiness. Something that I can see, but just don't know what to do about it. Tonight was thus far the worst day I've ever had at Target. I don't get paid enough to deal with such bullshit. I don't care if it's out of their hands, and you have to run a store with three people, and I'm handling one side of the store by myself. I just can't. I'm sick of it. I was on the verge of tears at least three times tonight, and I swore to myself that I wouldn't let Target get to me. It's beginning to take away pieces of my happiness, and when that happens, something has got to give. Although Twanda doesn't like to think that she gives great advice, she is good for encouragement. She helped me see that this is temporary. I have to keep saying...it's only temporary. Everyday, my conversations with God get longer and longer. I feel like I just keep asking for more and more, but in the end I'm only asking to find the true happiness that I know is within me. There are aspects of my life that are great, like my relationship with my family, my friends, and of course my Brian, but this one aspect of life...my work life...isn't at all what I have expected it to be. It's gonns get better. It has to get better. It will get better.

Step out on faith....step out on faith...step out on faith...

On a happier note, Brian and I are celebrating our second Valentine's together...even if we won't get to see each other until Saturday....lol.

See I'm still happy....in some ways more than others....