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I'm seriously depressed. I can't stop thinking about how much I shouldn't have existed in the first place. Everything would be better for everybody. I AM SUCH A FUCK UP
I fuck up a lot. Maybe I'm retarded. Probably. I'm probably just really fucking stupid. Why else would I be so bad at everything?
There's nothing about me that isn't stupid. When I walk down the street people probably think, "He looks like he's got some severe mental handicap." I know that's what I think when I look in the mirror.
I feel like I'm not supposed to have emotions, probably because I'm stupid and believe stupid people experience less of the world we live in. Hence the stupidity. I wish I didn't feel anything anymore.
I owe so much to many people. I'M A PIECE OF SHIT. HI. They should cut off my fingers; the only things keeping me slightly sane. Cut them all off my hands and glue them on theirs. They'd probably be more useful on them.
I want a group of people to beat the shit out of me with baseball bats. I would be ok with that.
It's the lack of any retaliation for everything I have and haven't done, will and won't do, can and can't do that FUCKING DRIVES ME NUTS. ANYONE WILL ALWAYS BE BETTER THAN ME AT ANYTHING. FUCK
I fuck up a lot. Maybe I'm retarded. Probably. I'm probably just really fucking stupid. Why else would I be so bad at everything?
There's nothing about me that isn't stupid. When I walk down the street people probably think, "He looks like he's got some severe mental handicap." I know that's what I think when I look in the mirror.
I feel like I'm not supposed to have emotions, probably because I'm stupid and believe stupid people experience less of the world we live in. Hence the stupidity. I wish I didn't feel anything anymore.
I owe so much to many people. I'M A PIECE OF SHIT. HI. They should cut off my fingers; the only things keeping me slightly sane. Cut them all off my hands and glue them on theirs. They'd probably be more useful on them.
I want a group of people to beat the shit out of me with baseball bats. I would be ok with that.
It's the lack of any retaliation for everything I have and haven't done, will and won't do, can and can't do that FUCKING DRIVES ME NUTS. ANYONE WILL ALWAYS BE BETTER THAN ME AT ANYTHING. FUCK