troubles
Well as usual me and mom started fighting and I ran away from my problems like i always do. I moved out early and im in NC again...its good to be back. haha its so nice to have a mother with such high expectations of you. She informed me that she dosnt approve of the decisions ive been making latley. she thinks im going to be a failure if i live in NC and that i wont pursue my hobbies and dreams. She is also convinced that a teens hormones are completely unbeatable and that when they kick in me and jason are going to have sex im going to get knocked up and my life will be over...what a sad story. Too bad im not following her predictions of my life huh? For your information mom im the kind of person that when i want something ill find a way to get it. Im going to follow my dreams wherever I live and as for jason and the raging hormones...dont worry he dumped me already. Why, BECAUSE I WOULDNT HAVE SEX WITH HIM!!! HA so uh yeah that blows the i wont be able to say no shit your giving me right out of the water. trust me hormones were fully kicked in but i said no. Even though i informed him i wouldnt sleep with him when we started going out and he said he didnt care sex wasnt everything and i was worth the wait, he dumped me. It hurts I have only been dumped once ive always done the breaking up...it really sucks. but im not sad because if hes that shallow than hes not worth my time anyway. I think what hurts the most is that he just broke up with me today and hes already mooved on tonight he left with my friend heather and went to a party to spend the evening. For someone that supposedly cared about me he sure did bounce out of this one quick. that hurts. im going to bouce out of this too and move on...and you no what mom i am going to continue proving you wrong simply because i like the satifaction of rubbing it in your face. if i didnt have friends and family like shannon id probly feel pretty bad about myself but thankfully i do have them to tell me how good of a kid i am...unlike you who just reciently called me a manipulative little bitch..nice mom, real nice.
well kids the moral of this story is: dont date 19 year old boys that have already had sex because they dont think with their heads they think with there penis. but even still i dont regret a second we spent togather hes a fun guy and the best kisser ive ever met by FAR!
im seriously considering not going up there for BBF. I really need something consistant right now and im finally getting settled im happy here im loving life and if i go up there im gonne get all emotional and relize that i miss yall plus I want to keep hanging out with these people and getting plugged in here so im ready for school next year. Not to mention i feel alot of judgement from some people up there like yall think im ruining my life or something...Im not, i promise. anyway im stressed and i friggin OD" on adoral so im wide awake. I took one when he broke up with me just so i would be all sad...it worked! lol. anyway tomorrow im going to a truck show with keri and then were going to the lake for a few days where i will make my decision to come back or not. i really just dont feel like making the trip right now.
well kids the moral of this story is: dont date 19 year old boys that have already had sex because they dont think with their heads they think with there penis. but even still i dont regret a second we spent togather hes a fun guy and the best kisser ive ever met by FAR!
im seriously considering not going up there for BBF. I really need something consistant right now and im finally getting settled im happy here im loving life and if i go up there im gonne get all emotional and relize that i miss yall plus I want to keep hanging out with these people and getting plugged in here so im ready for school next year. Not to mention i feel alot of judgement from some people up there like yall think im ruining my life or something...Im not, i promise. anyway im stressed and i friggin OD" on adoral so im wide awake. I took one when he broke up with me just so i would be all sad...it worked! lol. anyway tomorrow im going to a truck show with keri and then were going to the lake for a few days where i will make my decision to come back or not. i really just dont feel like making the trip right now.