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A certain song always reminds me of Jaci, and that reminds me of San Luis Obispo, or at least one side of my perception of SLO. I guess what I mean is that some of my friends are walking reminders of what I could have been. I have increasingly perceived my life as a series of crossroads that have led to my current situation, and I'm never sure if I've chosen the correct paths, because they certainly haven't been the intended paths. Connor 6 years ago, 3 years ago, and even 1 year ago would probably be pretty disappointed with me in several ways. I'm definitely not living up to some expectations. But in the past several weeks I've begun to feel strangely OK with everything. I think it's come from un-intentionally leaving a lot of things behind me. Quitting college sports, dropping out of my major, and distancing myself from a girlfriend back home have left me feeling more satisfied than I have in awhile. The beauty of running on the bluffs, and the simple joy of learning something new, and the excitement of meeting a new girl are all fresh in my mind. I'm starting to realize how much I've drawn up artificial boundaries for myself, for my own world.
Right now, I should just be going for it.
Right now, I should just be going for it.