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Right now I want to die. If it didn't hurt to cut myself or to anything deadly to myself, I would do it. I give up. I'm going to fail out of college. I'm ruining my own fucking relationship. I suck at work. I just don't care anymore. I'm blaming Jordan when he hasn't done anything wrong. I want to punch my computer. I can't type my fucking paper. I have a gigantic zit on my face. I feel and look fat. My life just needs to end RIGHT NOW. There's seriously nothing for me to look forward to. All I do is sit in my room when I'm not working, oh but wait I'm never HOME. I'm either working or at school. I don't have time for myself. I'm selfish. I'm worthless.