(no subject)
So tim pretty much hates me. he thinks I'm some horrible alcoholic who's only concern is partying... ha even though I haven't even been recently drunk. I was that time I went home to visit my sister on the 22nd and I had some margaritas at the mexican restraunt. ugh.
he said that the only way we could get back together is if I "prove myself" to a lot of people. Meaning he's talked a lot of shit about me and now people dont like me. actually he says they "don't respect me" anymore.. Tim doesn't even know me at all I guess.
I just dont get how he can get away saying most of the things he does to me now. things like "no offense leah but i need a girl with a little more class". well you know what I'm sorry that I'm not everything he wanted me to be but I tried. He just couldn't handle being far apart from each other this summer I guess.
And now he's telling me all these things that he's been "thinking for a while" well if he waits until we're broken up to tell me about them then how is that fair? he should have told me while we were going out so that things could have been fixed. I really think the whole time we were going out he didnt want to be with me but he just wanted someone to give him some sense of security. I keep hearing things about him from when we were going out and I actually feel pretty used. I didn't think that tim was the type of boy that was capable of doing anything shady, espescially if it involved me. he thinks that he's this perfect person that doesnt hurt people ever he only gets hurt. well if he would actually take a look at how he treats me now then maybe he'd realize he's not that person at all. he's mean and heartless. i dont know how this happened to him or where it came from but i really wish he'd cut it out and go back to being the old tim. hfduignnudifgfuigbdfuckit.
I miss that boy.