i've come a long way, baby
i haven't written in this thing in easily 2 years. i just went back and re-read my old entries....man, i was pathetic. i don't doubt that i was really going through some shit when i wrote on here, but compared to my life now, everything seems so insignificant.
i was diagnosed with leukemia in january of this year. it's now june, so i've been undergoing chemotherapy for almost 6 months now. things are going well, but there's still the question of whether or not i should undergo a bone marrow transplant as the final factor in my treatment.
medical decisions aside, there is another question that remains unanswered- what to do about paul. paul is my boyfriend of about 2 and a half years. he's from sydney, and he's the reason i moved back to london for the second time last november. it was while i was living in london with paul that i was first diagnosed, and he's been with me every step of the way since, even though he's not physically here. i love him so much, and through all of this mess we've become even closer, but how long do we have to stay apart before we can be a normal couple for once?? moving in together in london was supposed to be our way of "being normal", but that failed miserably.
anyway, i'm not even sure who's on here anymore, i may just be writing this to myself!!
i was diagnosed with leukemia in january of this year. it's now june, so i've been undergoing chemotherapy for almost 6 months now. things are going well, but there's still the question of whether or not i should undergo a bone marrow transplant as the final factor in my treatment.
medical decisions aside, there is another question that remains unanswered- what to do about paul. paul is my boyfriend of about 2 and a half years. he's from sydney, and he's the reason i moved back to london for the second time last november. it was while i was living in london with paul that i was first diagnosed, and he's been with me every step of the way since, even though he's not physically here. i love him so much, and through all of this mess we've become even closer, but how long do we have to stay apart before we can be a normal couple for once?? moving in together in london was supposed to be our way of "being normal", but that failed miserably.
anyway, i'm not even sure who's on here anymore, i may just be writing this to myself!!