Frustration
As September begins I've been here officially for 2 months and still I have yet to find a job. I'm even considering applying for a gelato place that pays 8 dollars an hour I've so desperate. However I am not desperate enough to apply for another Picture Me Portraits, though I do miss the photography part of it...maybe I should apply there, or sears... *sigh* I don't know..
WARNING: rather whiny I think in this post, but then my leather journal I would normally whine into has abruptly gone missing, even though I keep it in the same place. Maybe my cat hid it..
I'm watching him now stalking my rabbit who is becoming quite agitated with him. He's not hurting her so I'd prefer to leave them to it. I know she is perfectly capable of kicking him if he goes too far.
Well anyhow, so here I am, less than a month into my classes and already I'm behind on my payments for school but then I have no money to pay for it. I was going to try and put small amounts towards it out of the little money I still get from my mother but things keep coming up. Missed a payment on my care credit card and when i tried to use it for my cat to be treated it was declined. I tried to call to make a payment over the phone and it kept saying I'd reached a non-working number even though seconds before it said I was going to be on hold for the next available person.Total bullshit. So that was 130 dollars that would have gotten me through the next couple weeks for gas and small meals. Gone. I still had 2 credit card payments to make too so it sucks even more.
I honestly don't know what to do. I don't have anyone I can ask for financial help or to co-sign to help me get a loan for school. My Uncle is already taking me out to dinner and letting me live here rent-free. I didn't think I'd have so much trouble finding a job, and even the interviews I thought went well had no call backs.
I'm feeling extremely lonely when comes to hanging out with people my own age. Don't get me wrong, doing stuff with my Uncle and with my mom's friend Linda who was in town is fun, but I miss going out with my friends. I don't miss Mass but I miss a lot of the people there. I want to go out and get drunk and dance with a group of my girlfriends, or go sing karaoke with friends. I miss karaoke a lot. Not about to go do that alone. I'm not always that social at school, though I do talk with a variety of people now and again. I feel silly at times, like I'm talking to younger siblings because so many people at the school are all around my oldest brother's age. At least none of them tend to think I'm the age I am. All the people who know my age and are younger then me didn't think I looked 26. So that's a plus.
Also on the plus side at least my evil once a month friend finally came, after 2 months of being MIA. I knew it was stress causing it, though I did still get tested for other more obvious causes. So I guess that's good..
Gah..now I'm rambling. Another reason I'm not being overtly social is because I don't have the money to go out with people even if they invited me. I can't drive around everywhere because even if I don't have a drink anywhere I can't afford to waste the gas. So I'm pretty much at home, school or visiting my grandmother in Mesa for voice lessons. And the occasional movie or show with my Uncle.
Dating, is the last thing on my mind, though certain people in my life seem to make it harder not to let my mind stray in that direction. My friend Mal is one of them (yay for him and I never having become LJ friends) though he doesn't really broach the subject. I ended up liking him after 3 years of knowing him. How nice it would have been to figure that out before the who Patrick fiasco, granted I probably wouldn't be here had that fiasco not happened, so there's the silver lining in that stormy cloud. I'm here. It's warm, it's hot and it's sunny. And as long as I am here I shall never have to shovel another bit of snow.
So..that's me and my current state of mind. Perhaps it didn't have quite the whiny tone it could have been but then I prefer to go into more detail rather then sound like a whiny bitch going on about things in bits and pieces so that it sounds like I simply enjoy complaining about anything and everything.
Bon nuit
WARNING: rather whiny I think in this post, but then my leather journal I would normally whine into has abruptly gone missing, even though I keep it in the same place. Maybe my cat hid it..
I'm watching him now stalking my rabbit who is becoming quite agitated with him. He's not hurting her so I'd prefer to leave them to it. I know she is perfectly capable of kicking him if he goes too far.
Well anyhow, so here I am, less than a month into my classes and already I'm behind on my payments for school but then I have no money to pay for it. I was going to try and put small amounts towards it out of the little money I still get from my mother but things keep coming up. Missed a payment on my care credit card and when i tried to use it for my cat to be treated it was declined. I tried to call to make a payment over the phone and it kept saying I'd reached a non-working number even though seconds before it said I was going to be on hold for the next available person.Total bullshit. So that was 130 dollars that would have gotten me through the next couple weeks for gas and small meals. Gone. I still had 2 credit card payments to make too so it sucks even more.
I honestly don't know what to do. I don't have anyone I can ask for financial help or to co-sign to help me get a loan for school. My Uncle is already taking me out to dinner and letting me live here rent-free. I didn't think I'd have so much trouble finding a job, and even the interviews I thought went well had no call backs.
I'm feeling extremely lonely when comes to hanging out with people my own age. Don't get me wrong, doing stuff with my Uncle and with my mom's friend Linda who was in town is fun, but I miss going out with my friends. I don't miss Mass but I miss a lot of the people there. I want to go out and get drunk and dance with a group of my girlfriends, or go sing karaoke with friends. I miss karaoke a lot. Not about to go do that alone. I'm not always that social at school, though I do talk with a variety of people now and again. I feel silly at times, like I'm talking to younger siblings because so many people at the school are all around my oldest brother's age. At least none of them tend to think I'm the age I am. All the people who know my age and are younger then me didn't think I looked 26. So that's a plus.
Also on the plus side at least my evil once a month friend finally came, after 2 months of being MIA. I knew it was stress causing it, though I did still get tested for other more obvious causes. So I guess that's good..
Gah..now I'm rambling. Another reason I'm not being overtly social is because I don't have the money to go out with people even if they invited me. I can't drive around everywhere because even if I don't have a drink anywhere I can't afford to waste the gas. So I'm pretty much at home, school or visiting my grandmother in Mesa for voice lessons. And the occasional movie or show with my Uncle.
Dating, is the last thing on my mind, though certain people in my life seem to make it harder not to let my mind stray in that direction. My friend Mal is one of them (yay for him and I never having become LJ friends) though he doesn't really broach the subject. I ended up liking him after 3 years of knowing him. How nice it would have been to figure that out before the who Patrick fiasco, granted I probably wouldn't be here had that fiasco not happened, so there's the silver lining in that stormy cloud. I'm here. It's warm, it's hot and it's sunny. And as long as I am here I shall never have to shovel another bit of snow.
So..that's me and my current state of mind. Perhaps it didn't have quite the whiny tone it could have been but then I prefer to go into more detail rather then sound like a whiny bitch going on about things in bits and pieces so that it sounds like I simply enjoy complaining about anything and everything.
Bon nuit