I really despise being female..
So we all know that as females there are some annoying things we go through, I mean yeah males have their own stuff but females have to go through a lot. One of the main things being our "period" as it is called by most, or "Aunt Flow" or your "monthly visitor" and so on. That's kinda what this post is on but not in any real detail, it's more a complaint on the non physical aspects of our period, PMS or whatever you want to call it. I mean don't get me wrong, the bleeding, the cramps, the fatigue etc are all pretty awful. However..what bothers me the most is the emotional aspect of it, the mood swings. Guys tend to think we're crazy with our sudden bouts of sadness or anger but it's not like we do it on purpose, really we don't, we don;t enjoy it anymore then you do.
Now..why am I bringing all this up? Because one of the hardest things I've been finding lately, is telling if I am truly depressed or if it's "just my period". I will get hit by these bouts of sudden sadness..loneliness..and just an all over feeling of being down. Most people will want to say "oh it's just your period acting up again" or "someone is being moody today." It's all well and good to blame such swings of moods on female issues..but how do you tell the difference?
I mean mine just started(obviously)and I've been feeling so down and lost lately, am i really suppose to just blame it on my period? If getting this down is really just your period, then I'm surprised there are women out there on depression medicine at all, since we're all crazy bitches with major mood swings.
That said..i'm kind of leaning towards seeing a psychiatrist, not because i think i have any real serious issues..but more to have a person to talk to since I can't seem to really talk to anyone. i mean here I am feeling horrible and sad and lonely and I don't even have a friend who I'd feel comfortable inconveniencing at..what is it..1 am? i mean..that's one of those things that should be mandatory in everyone's life right? Well I don't have it. I just don;t want to trouble anyone with my problems.
So yeah..perhaps a psychiatrist can help me unravel this tangled mind of mine...
In other news....the movie Orphan..weird as shit..i don;t know if I liked it or hated it. x.x
that's all...oh wait..i found the Regina Spektor cd I wanted, plus the next Anita Blake comic, and i got some cute butterfly pjs to curl up in tonight.
now i'm done..i mean i could add more about what made me sad tonight but it would really be like a broken record.
peace...
Now..why am I bringing all this up? Because one of the hardest things I've been finding lately, is telling if I am truly depressed or if it's "just my period". I will get hit by these bouts of sudden sadness..loneliness..and just an all over feeling of being down. Most people will want to say "oh it's just your period acting up again" or "someone is being moody today." It's all well and good to blame such swings of moods on female issues..but how do you tell the difference?
I mean mine just started(obviously)and I've been feeling so down and lost lately, am i really suppose to just blame it on my period? If getting this down is really just your period, then I'm surprised there are women out there on depression medicine at all, since we're all crazy bitches with major mood swings.
That said..i'm kind of leaning towards seeing a psychiatrist, not because i think i have any real serious issues..but more to have a person to talk to since I can't seem to really talk to anyone. i mean here I am feeling horrible and sad and lonely and I don't even have a friend who I'd feel comfortable inconveniencing at..what is it..1 am? i mean..that's one of those things that should be mandatory in everyone's life right? Well I don't have it. I just don;t want to trouble anyone with my problems.
So yeah..perhaps a psychiatrist can help me unravel this tangled mind of mine...
In other news....the movie Orphan..weird as shit..i don;t know if I liked it or hated it. x.x
that's all...oh wait..i found the Regina Spektor cd I wanted, plus the next Anita Blake comic, and i got some cute butterfly pjs to curl up in tonight.
now i'm done..i mean i could add more about what made me sad tonight but it would really be like a broken record.
peace...