Mad World
Dear clear blue skies outside,
Life is strange still and I don't know what it's trying to tell me to do, maybe life is just senseless and random and I am attempting to interpret what is basically the metaphysical equivalent of a tin of brownies that are slightly overcooked on the outside and slightly undercooked inside- no one knows why it happened and only fools would guide their decisions on a slightly below-par brownie- so I should stop giving myself excuses to not work. I must work. Really.
Reasons why life is weird: I am feeling bad because I been hungry and sugar craving all week and have therefore been eating too much and I worry I eat too much rubbish and am not healthy enough. Also, it's kinda crazy with my fencing buddy David at the moment. Basically, I've kinda flirted with him for a while but in a really non-commital way because there is so little likelihood of anything happening because: a) he is only 16, I know, cradle snatcher, b) I think he's kind of cute but he may not be (I have odd taste), this shouldn't really be an argument because how attractive a person is all relative, blah, blah, blah, but I know I tend to try and give people the beneft of the doubt in situations where the fishing is slim -any port in a storm- and also I don't like the idea of other people not liking a guy I like and thinking I have poor taste. For example, I got pretty amorous with some guy I was waitressing with at some party where Georgia Duncan was, and when she found out about it she gave me a sort of "god, you have no taste" look and I just wanted to melt into the floor, though I generally try to ignore what Georgia says to me, it's better that way. Finally, c) David isn't super intlligent, he's not dumb but he's quite ladish and I can't really go out with someone who I feel I'm going to embarrass by being all high brow or whatever, does that sound snobbish? Probably.
Anywho, recently David has been more flirty and he got my phone number and has been texting me over the last two days and he recently sent me a text whihc basically said, "This is funny isn't it? Everyone at fencing thinks we are going out!" and I sort of went "NO WAY! How hilarious! What were they thinking of etc etc" Which begs the question, did David send me that so he could go, "would you like to though"? or was he just finding it hilarious and couldn't believe people could have such active imagination? I just don't know.
Anyway, the other thing that's making this world a little weird is the large pile of work that I have barely touched despite it's supreme importance. Sigh. However, I should go back to said work and get some more done, however depressing this may be.
Fare thee well my fairy fay!
Athene
Life is strange still and I don't know what it's trying to tell me to do, maybe life is just senseless and random and I am attempting to interpret what is basically the metaphysical equivalent of a tin of brownies that are slightly overcooked on the outside and slightly undercooked inside- no one knows why it happened and only fools would guide their decisions on a slightly below-par brownie- so I should stop giving myself excuses to not work. I must work. Really.
Reasons why life is weird: I am feeling bad because I been hungry and sugar craving all week and have therefore been eating too much and I worry I eat too much rubbish and am not healthy enough. Also, it's kinda crazy with my fencing buddy David at the moment. Basically, I've kinda flirted with him for a while but in a really non-commital way because there is so little likelihood of anything happening because: a) he is only 16, I know, cradle snatcher, b) I think he's kind of cute but he may not be (I have odd taste), this shouldn't really be an argument because how attractive a person is all relative, blah, blah, blah, but I know I tend to try and give people the beneft of the doubt in situations where the fishing is slim -any port in a storm- and also I don't like the idea of other people not liking a guy I like and thinking I have poor taste. For example, I got pretty amorous with some guy I was waitressing with at some party where Georgia Duncan was, and when she found out about it she gave me a sort of "god, you have no taste" look and I just wanted to melt into the floor, though I generally try to ignore what Georgia says to me, it's better that way. Finally, c) David isn't super intlligent, he's not dumb but he's quite ladish and I can't really go out with someone who I feel I'm going to embarrass by being all high brow or whatever, does that sound snobbish? Probably.
Anywho, recently David has been more flirty and he got my phone number and has been texting me over the last two days and he recently sent me a text whihc basically said, "This is funny isn't it? Everyone at fencing thinks we are going out!" and I sort of went "NO WAY! How hilarious! What were they thinking of etc etc" Which begs the question, did David send me that so he could go, "would you like to though"? or was he just finding it hilarious and couldn't believe people could have such active imagination? I just don't know.
Anyway, the other thing that's making this world a little weird is the large pile of work that I have barely touched despite it's supreme importance. Sigh. However, I should go back to said work and get some more done, however depressing this may be.
Fare thee well my fairy fay!
Athene