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I feel lost. Somewhere along the way, my mind, my emotions, my sense of being and my logic got all mixed up, and now i'm just.... crap. Yeah, it's the best way to describe it. I'm fine when I'm with other people, at least one other person... but when I have to sit by myself for more than 20 minutes, I start to think... and really, lately, that's just bad. Where am I going, what am i doing with my life... I feel like I'm on the road to getting stuck at another dead-end job while I waste my days away waiting for other days that wind up not being as good as i hoped. All I want is something to come into my life and make me really, genuinly happy. Like a fantastic job or and amazing person who wants to be around me as often as I want to be around them. I have all these goals, but school has to come first or something, and school isn't even STARTING until Sept. So I wait. But waiting drives me nuts. Sometimes I wish I hadn't taken time off of school, maybe I'd be getting my associates by now... Or maybe I would've dropped out after one semester because I really wasn't ready. I'm so bored with my life.