fuck em all

[athenabella]

fuck all couples. i hope they all fucking die. i'm so sick of sitting back watching other people fuck up their relationships and take advantage of the wonderful thing that they have when they have a relationship. you have someone who wants you! do you understand how amazing that is, how some people would give everything they have for that? and for the people who keep getting into dead end relationships over and over and over again. YOU'RE IDIOTS. do something right for a change, make a decision and stick with it, don't hurt someone else just so that you can get a temporary nice feeling. people don't learn, i don't learn, you don't learn...nobody ever learns anything from the past. i've made the exact same mistake only 3 months after finally ending the last one. the exact same mistake...as much as i tried to fool myself into believing that maybe it was different, it's not. i'm an idiot and i keep getting myself into the same fucking situation. but i'm done with that, i have to be. because it's not good for me, i'm miserable when i have feelings for someone, i don't want to do it anymore. i wanted a good last semester, i was on the road to having a stress-free time, when i didn't have to worry about any relationship or stupid feelings. but no, i had to go and get myself into a mess yet again. all this pain for one stupid night of fun. you see?? you see how stupid this is? the small amount of good times when being in love actually felt great, were they worth the months of agony and awkwardness and the sleepless nights and the terrible fights and hurt feelings and broken glass or the broken heart? no. the answer is no. sometimes, when it doesnt work, when it's obvious that it will never work, that it isn't what you want it to be, that you're expecting more than you're getting, it's time to let go and do something that's actually good for you. no matter how much you want it, no matter how much you think maybe things will be different.....more often than not, things won't be different. it's all circular. until you solve a problem and actually take steps towards fixing it, then the same issues will keep coming up again and again, ruining whatever chance you have at happiness. if you don't see eye to eye on something fundamental to the success of your relationship, then there's no chance in hell that you will both be happy with a compromise, there's no chance in hell that it will work out. we're all so fucking stupid.

i guess i just hate other people being happy when i'm not. so fuck them.