Be Good to Me - Chapter 5/9
Myka closed her eyes focusing on Helena’s hands caressing her body. Helena was a very attentive and talented lover. Tonight however Myka had trouble focusing. With a sigh she took Helena’s hand that rested on her breast. She kissed her palm and pulled away.
“I’m sorry baby, I just can’t do this tonight,” she whispered.
Helena sighed frustrated and rolled over on her back.
“It’s because of her, isn’t it? You want it to be her touching you.”
Helena slipped out of bed and walked over to the window, arms folded around her. Myka sighed and got out too. She wrapped her arms around Helena and kissed her shoulder.
“You know that’s not true baby. I’m with you. I love when you touch me. It’s just with the events of the evening, I’m not exactly in the mood,” Myka tried to explain. It was mostly true, just not the whole truth.
“She’s gorgeous,” Helena mumbled. “I can see why you want her. I’m sure she’s fantastic in bed. I can just sense it from how intense she is when you speak with her.”
“She is, but that has nothing to do with us sweetie,” Myka said and turned Helena around. She kissed her softly and touched her forehead to Helena’s. “You are fantastic in bed too,” she teased and nibbled on Helena’s lips.
“I am?” Helena whispered. She grabbed Myka’s hips and pulled her closer.
“You know you are. You make me scream almost every time,” Myka said and laughed.
“Yes darling, you seem to enjoy my touch,” Helena purred and licked Myka’s collarbone. She pulled away and looked Myka in the eyes. “Most of the time anyway.”
“Let’s get some sleep baby,” Myka said and took Helena’s hand.
She pulled her over to the bed. She spooned up behind Helena, holding her tight. As she felt Helena relax and fall asleep she almost whispered three little words, but something stopped her. She opened her eyes and then closed them tightly. She fought the tears when she realized who those three little words belonged to.
*** *** ***
Helena was still asleep when Myka got up the next morning. She made some coffee and brought it out on the terrace. As always this time of the year it was warm, but not too hot. She sipped her coffee as she watched the ocean.
“Did you make love to her last night?”
Myka closed her eyes. Of course HG would be back. For a moment in the middle of the night she had experienced this profound fear that she would never see her again.
“No I didn’t,” she whispered. She turned and faced HG. “Not that it’s any of your business if I did. You have no claim on me HG. You gave that up when you held a gun to my head.”
HG nodded. She walked up to Myka and took her coffee mug from her. She sipped it and nodded.
“I’ve quite come to like coffee this way since you left.”
“Keep it. I can make another one,” Myka mumbled.
“No darling, I don’t want to inconvenience you. Here,” she said and handed the mug back to Myka.
Myka tried not to think of the fact that HG’s lips had just been touching the china in the spot where she now placed her lips. She touched the mug with her tongue before drinking. It must have been in her head, but she thought she could taste HG.
“So why didn’t you? Surely you could’ve used the closeness after the emotional conversation we were engaged in. And don’t tell me she did not try. I know she did. I would.”
“You’re right, she did. I can’t use someone like that. Perhaps you can, perhaps she can, but I can’t. I know that she wanted to comfort me, but it would’ve been one-sided and I can’t love like that.”
“Not even to give your lover pleasure? If she needed it, if I did, would you not give it freely?”
Myka chewed on her lip. Finally she nodded.
“You’re right I would.”
“So that wasn’t it then,” HG pushed on.
Myka glared at her. She sat down on the sun bed where they had been sitting the night before, cradling the coffee in her hands.
“Do you love her?” HG asked softly as she sat down next to Myka.
“I do,” Myka mumbled.
“Have you told her?”
“No,” Myka whispered and closed her eyes tightly.
“Do you love me?”
Myka trembled, fighting the tears. When HG wrapped her arm around her shoulders she leaned against her.
“God help me, but I do,” Myka whimpered.
HG pulled her close and kissed the top of her head. She caressed Myka’s back, trying to comfort her.
“I think you need to make a decision Myka,” she said seriously. She cupped Myka’s cheek and turned her head up. She brushed her lips against Myka’s in a soft kiss. “I love you more than life Myka. I want nothing more than to have you back in my life. The amazing things we can accomplish together. It is beyond what even I can imagine. Please say that you will at least think about it.”
Myka sighed frustrated. Her lips tingled from the feel of HG’s lips. She was surprised at how much she wanted to kiss her again.
“I don’t want to hurt either of you,” she whispered.
“Perhaps I can make it easier for you.”
Myka turned her head and stared at Helena.
“Helena,” she whispered.
Helena walked around until she could kneel in front of Myka. She took her hand and smiled at her.
“I love you Myka, but I’m afraid that’s not enough. I did not feel the bond between you and HG last night. There was too much anger and pain. But seeing the two of you together here this morning I feel it very strongly. I’ve enjoyed our time together Myka and you will always be welcome here, but it’s time to end this. It’s time for you to continue your journey, and it leads in a different direction than mine.”
Myka put the coffee down and hugged Helena. She cried softly as Helena’s sweet words sank in. She knew she was right, but that did not make it any easier.
“I don’t deserve you,” she mumbled. “I never meant to hurt you.”
“I know that darling,” Helena said and caressed Myka’s cheek. “I’m letting you go, because I know it’s the right thing for both of us.”
HG watched them silently. She knew what sacrifice Helena was making and her respect for the woman grew tremendously. She touched Helena’s hand and they looked at each other. HG smiled sadly at her thanking her silently with her eyes. Helena slowly let go of Myka. She caressed her cheek and kissed her softly.
“Myka darling, do you think you could give me and HG a moment?”
Myka nodded and got up. She looked at them for a moment before she went back inside. Helena turned to HG.
“I am not doing this for you,” she said sharply.
“I am fully aware of that,” HG said and bowed her head.
“You hurt her once; do not make the same mistake. She deserves better.”
“She does,” HG agreed softly. She looked at Helena and tentatively touched her hand. “I know what she’s giving up, and what you just did. I do not know if I could have done the same,” HG whispered softly.
“I guess we’ll never know,” Helena mumbled. She looked at HG. “You are an amazing woman Helena Wells,” she said and smiled at HG. “Had we met under different circumstances I would probably have pursued you.”
HG chuckled and nodded. She leaned forward and brushed her lips against Helena’s. The kiss was barely more than a peck on the lips.
“You are a gorgeous woman Helena. You will find someone who will love you fully,” HG said and smiled at her. “Perhaps someday we can be friends. I feel that we have a lot in common, not just our love for Myka.”
“I agree,” Helena said with a sad smile. “I think I need some time to distance myself from all of this, but some day I would like to see the two of you again.”
“If it is in my power to make that happen, you will,” HG said and smiled at her.
“You have one of the most brilliant minds in the world. I wish that I could learn from you, talk to you,” Helena whispered a little embarrassed.
“Come now darling, don’t turn this into hero worshipping. You know how flawed I am. Remember all of it, because that’s the only way that we will ever be friends.”
Helena laughed and nodded. Her blue eyes glittered in the early sunlight as she smiled at HG.
“Take good care of her.”
“You have my word,” HG said seriously. “I was not joking when I said I would rather die before letting anything happen to her. Still the fact remains, we have a dangerous job. Myka is very good at it. She's one of the best agents I've ever had the pleasure working with. Should I try to coddle her, she will be very upset and hurt. We are equals in the work we do, and that’s how it will be going forward too. But trust me, I do have her back, in every situation, just as much as she has mine.”
Helena nodded. She looked down at her hand still in HG’s grasp. She caressed the back of it with her thumb before looking up at HG again.
“It sounded like your work is different from what Myka believed it to be. She was very surprised at your title,” Helena said curious, wondering if HG would answer.
“The fact that I’m a Regent you mean?” she asked. Helena nodded. “Well, that is news to her. When Myka and I worked together I was an agent, like her, all the rest was on a need to know basis, and the Regents felt she did not need to know. It pained me to have to keep secrets from her. I have a lot to share with her on the trip back.”
“I guess you can’t explain what all of this means,” Helena said slightly disappointed.
“I’m afraid I can’t,” HG confirmed. “I wish I could, and who knows, perhaps one day I can.” She pulled out a card from her pocket. It had the Secret Service logo in one corner and the name Helena and a phone number, but that was it. “Keep this. If you need anything at all, or if you ever find yourself in danger - call me,” HG said seriously. She cupped Helena’s chin and raised her head until they were looking each other in the eyes. “And should you ever decide that this life here has been exhausted and that you want to start a new adventure, we will talk. I have watched you for a while Helena Peabody. You have a lot of strength in you. You are intelligent and generous. Unfortunately you are also spoiled and expect to get your will in any and all situations. Still that can be turned into an advantage. You still have to grow, but I know that you will, and the amazing person you will become… she is someone I am more than interested in having on my team.”
Helena wanted to look away, but found herself spellbound by HG’s dark eyes. She flinched when HG talked about her weaknesses, and almost started to protest when she realized that HG was actually right.
“Thank you,” she whispered. “I will keep this safe. And be prepared for that phone call.”
HG chuckled and caressed her cheek. She leaned forward again, but this time her lips pressed against Helena’s cheek in a lingering kiss.
“I will be looking forward to it.”
“Perhaps Myka would be open to the two of you visiting?” Helena said and grinned. She winked at HG.
HG roared with laughter and nodded.
“Helena Peabody, you are a sinful woman. Should you ever decide to join our team I think we would need to make that happen. The sexual tension between us would be more than the Warehouse team would be able to handle. They barely survived watching me and Myka. Imagine the three of us?” she chuckled and shook her head.
“Myka is a wonderful lover. I envy you,” Helena whispered. “Perhaps I have you to thank for that,” she mumbled as an afterthought.
“I’m sure that she found you equally pleasing darling,” HG purred. She played with a lock of Helena’s hair before tucking it behind Helena’s ear. “I should go.”
Helena nodded. She licked her lip and looked at HG again.
“As much as I hate losing Myka, I am very glad to have met you.” She was surprised admitting it, but realized that it was absolutely true.
“I know darling,” HG said and smiled. “So am I. Rest assured we will meet again and hopefully under nicer circumstances.”
To be Continued…
“I’m sorry baby, I just can’t do this tonight,” she whispered.
Helena sighed frustrated and rolled over on her back.
“It’s because of her, isn’t it? You want it to be her touching you.”
Helena slipped out of bed and walked over to the window, arms folded around her. Myka sighed and got out too. She wrapped her arms around Helena and kissed her shoulder.
“You know that’s not true baby. I’m with you. I love when you touch me. It’s just with the events of the evening, I’m not exactly in the mood,” Myka tried to explain. It was mostly true, just not the whole truth.
“She’s gorgeous,” Helena mumbled. “I can see why you want her. I’m sure she’s fantastic in bed. I can just sense it from how intense she is when you speak with her.”
“She is, but that has nothing to do with us sweetie,” Myka said and turned Helena around. She kissed her softly and touched her forehead to Helena’s. “You are fantastic in bed too,” she teased and nibbled on Helena’s lips.
“I am?” Helena whispered. She grabbed Myka’s hips and pulled her closer.
“You know you are. You make me scream almost every time,” Myka said and laughed.
“Yes darling, you seem to enjoy my touch,” Helena purred and licked Myka’s collarbone. She pulled away and looked Myka in the eyes. “Most of the time anyway.”
“Let’s get some sleep baby,” Myka said and took Helena’s hand.
She pulled her over to the bed. She spooned up behind Helena, holding her tight. As she felt Helena relax and fall asleep she almost whispered three little words, but something stopped her. She opened her eyes and then closed them tightly. She fought the tears when she realized who those three little words belonged to.
*** *** ***
Helena was still asleep when Myka got up the next morning. She made some coffee and brought it out on the terrace. As always this time of the year it was warm, but not too hot. She sipped her coffee as she watched the ocean.
“Did you make love to her last night?”
Myka closed her eyes. Of course HG would be back. For a moment in the middle of the night she had experienced this profound fear that she would never see her again.
“No I didn’t,” she whispered. She turned and faced HG. “Not that it’s any of your business if I did. You have no claim on me HG. You gave that up when you held a gun to my head.”
HG nodded. She walked up to Myka and took her coffee mug from her. She sipped it and nodded.
“I’ve quite come to like coffee this way since you left.”
“Keep it. I can make another one,” Myka mumbled.
“No darling, I don’t want to inconvenience you. Here,” she said and handed the mug back to Myka.
Myka tried not to think of the fact that HG’s lips had just been touching the china in the spot where she now placed her lips. She touched the mug with her tongue before drinking. It must have been in her head, but she thought she could taste HG.
“So why didn’t you? Surely you could’ve used the closeness after the emotional conversation we were engaged in. And don’t tell me she did not try. I know she did. I would.”
“You’re right, she did. I can’t use someone like that. Perhaps you can, perhaps she can, but I can’t. I know that she wanted to comfort me, but it would’ve been one-sided and I can’t love like that.”
“Not even to give your lover pleasure? If she needed it, if I did, would you not give it freely?”
Myka chewed on her lip. Finally she nodded.
“You’re right I would.”
“So that wasn’t it then,” HG pushed on.
Myka glared at her. She sat down on the sun bed where they had been sitting the night before, cradling the coffee in her hands.
“Do you love her?” HG asked softly as she sat down next to Myka.
“I do,” Myka mumbled.
“Have you told her?”
“No,” Myka whispered and closed her eyes tightly.
“Do you love me?”
Myka trembled, fighting the tears. When HG wrapped her arm around her shoulders she leaned against her.
“God help me, but I do,” Myka whimpered.
HG pulled her close and kissed the top of her head. She caressed Myka’s back, trying to comfort her.
“I think you need to make a decision Myka,” she said seriously. She cupped Myka’s cheek and turned her head up. She brushed her lips against Myka’s in a soft kiss. “I love you more than life Myka. I want nothing more than to have you back in my life. The amazing things we can accomplish together. It is beyond what even I can imagine. Please say that you will at least think about it.”
Myka sighed frustrated. Her lips tingled from the feel of HG’s lips. She was surprised at how much she wanted to kiss her again.
“I don’t want to hurt either of you,” she whispered.
“Perhaps I can make it easier for you.”
Myka turned her head and stared at Helena.
“Helena,” she whispered.
Helena walked around until she could kneel in front of Myka. She took her hand and smiled at her.
“I love you Myka, but I’m afraid that’s not enough. I did not feel the bond between you and HG last night. There was too much anger and pain. But seeing the two of you together here this morning I feel it very strongly. I’ve enjoyed our time together Myka and you will always be welcome here, but it’s time to end this. It’s time for you to continue your journey, and it leads in a different direction than mine.”
Myka put the coffee down and hugged Helena. She cried softly as Helena’s sweet words sank in. She knew she was right, but that did not make it any easier.
“I don’t deserve you,” she mumbled. “I never meant to hurt you.”
“I know that darling,” Helena said and caressed Myka’s cheek. “I’m letting you go, because I know it’s the right thing for both of us.”
HG watched them silently. She knew what sacrifice Helena was making and her respect for the woman grew tremendously. She touched Helena’s hand and they looked at each other. HG smiled sadly at her thanking her silently with her eyes. Helena slowly let go of Myka. She caressed her cheek and kissed her softly.
“Myka darling, do you think you could give me and HG a moment?”
Myka nodded and got up. She looked at them for a moment before she went back inside. Helena turned to HG.
“I am not doing this for you,” she said sharply.
“I am fully aware of that,” HG said and bowed her head.
“You hurt her once; do not make the same mistake. She deserves better.”
“She does,” HG agreed softly. She looked at Helena and tentatively touched her hand. “I know what she’s giving up, and what you just did. I do not know if I could have done the same,” HG whispered softly.
“I guess we’ll never know,” Helena mumbled. She looked at HG. “You are an amazing woman Helena Wells,” she said and smiled at HG. “Had we met under different circumstances I would probably have pursued you.”
HG chuckled and nodded. She leaned forward and brushed her lips against Helena’s. The kiss was barely more than a peck on the lips.
“You are a gorgeous woman Helena. You will find someone who will love you fully,” HG said and smiled at her. “Perhaps someday we can be friends. I feel that we have a lot in common, not just our love for Myka.”
“I agree,” Helena said with a sad smile. “I think I need some time to distance myself from all of this, but some day I would like to see the two of you again.”
“If it is in my power to make that happen, you will,” HG said and smiled at her.
“You have one of the most brilliant minds in the world. I wish that I could learn from you, talk to you,” Helena whispered a little embarrassed.
“Come now darling, don’t turn this into hero worshipping. You know how flawed I am. Remember all of it, because that’s the only way that we will ever be friends.”
Helena laughed and nodded. Her blue eyes glittered in the early sunlight as she smiled at HG.
“Take good care of her.”
“You have my word,” HG said seriously. “I was not joking when I said I would rather die before letting anything happen to her. Still the fact remains, we have a dangerous job. Myka is very good at it. She's one of the best agents I've ever had the pleasure working with. Should I try to coddle her, she will be very upset and hurt. We are equals in the work we do, and that’s how it will be going forward too. But trust me, I do have her back, in every situation, just as much as she has mine.”
Helena nodded. She looked down at her hand still in HG’s grasp. She caressed the back of it with her thumb before looking up at HG again.
“It sounded like your work is different from what Myka believed it to be. She was very surprised at your title,” Helena said curious, wondering if HG would answer.
“The fact that I’m a Regent you mean?” she asked. Helena nodded. “Well, that is news to her. When Myka and I worked together I was an agent, like her, all the rest was on a need to know basis, and the Regents felt she did not need to know. It pained me to have to keep secrets from her. I have a lot to share with her on the trip back.”
“I guess you can’t explain what all of this means,” Helena said slightly disappointed.
“I’m afraid I can’t,” HG confirmed. “I wish I could, and who knows, perhaps one day I can.” She pulled out a card from her pocket. It had the Secret Service logo in one corner and the name Helena and a phone number, but that was it. “Keep this. If you need anything at all, or if you ever find yourself in danger - call me,” HG said seriously. She cupped Helena’s chin and raised her head until they were looking each other in the eyes. “And should you ever decide that this life here has been exhausted and that you want to start a new adventure, we will talk. I have watched you for a while Helena Peabody. You have a lot of strength in you. You are intelligent and generous. Unfortunately you are also spoiled and expect to get your will in any and all situations. Still that can be turned into an advantage. You still have to grow, but I know that you will, and the amazing person you will become… she is someone I am more than interested in having on my team.”
Helena wanted to look away, but found herself spellbound by HG’s dark eyes. She flinched when HG talked about her weaknesses, and almost started to protest when she realized that HG was actually right.
“Thank you,” she whispered. “I will keep this safe. And be prepared for that phone call.”
HG chuckled and caressed her cheek. She leaned forward again, but this time her lips pressed against Helena’s cheek in a lingering kiss.
“I will be looking forward to it.”
“Perhaps Myka would be open to the two of you visiting?” Helena said and grinned. She winked at HG.
HG roared with laughter and nodded.
“Helena Peabody, you are a sinful woman. Should you ever decide to join our team I think we would need to make that happen. The sexual tension between us would be more than the Warehouse team would be able to handle. They barely survived watching me and Myka. Imagine the three of us?” she chuckled and shook her head.
“Myka is a wonderful lover. I envy you,” Helena whispered. “Perhaps I have you to thank for that,” she mumbled as an afterthought.
“I’m sure that she found you equally pleasing darling,” HG purred. She played with a lock of Helena’s hair before tucking it behind Helena’s ear. “I should go.”
Helena nodded. She licked her lip and looked at HG again.
“As much as I hate losing Myka, I am very glad to have met you.” She was surprised admitting it, but realized that it was absolutely true.
“I know darling,” HG said and smiled. “So am I. Rest assured we will meet again and hopefully under nicer circumstances.”
To be Continued…