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Well, I made it to the second week of the Anxiety Management Group. I found it hard to really get involved, but did speak a little. I have this big conflict going on in my mind. On the one hand I keep finding myself seeing this as something to just get through. That's a defence mechanism because going to it is stressful. But on the other hand I keep trying to get myself to be more open to it all in the hope it will actually help. It's not going to do any good if I don't engage with it all and actually attempt the things I'm asked to.
Talking of which, there's the diary thing to do already (others got given it last week, when in the previous group we didn't get that until the end of the 3rd session). We'll see if I actually manage to put anything down for that, although half the problem last time was I didn't do much in the intervening week so there wasn't any direct source of anxiety.
The trip there and back still sucks, even if I decided (thanks to maccath) that I may as well just pay the extra to take the bus there and back each time. Oh, it was only £5.50 return. I'm sure it was £5.90 last year! I can only guess they're getting greater support from the local council now so fares went down. Thus it's only about £2.50 a trip more than the train. Multiply that by 8 weeks and it's still only £20, which is fuck all if this actually helps me. So, no more being stubbornly stupid about that.
Talking of which, there's the diary thing to do already (others got given it last week, when in the previous group we didn't get that until the end of the 3rd session). We'll see if I actually manage to put anything down for that, although half the problem last time was I didn't do much in the intervening week so there wasn't any direct source of anxiety.
The trip there and back still sucks, even if I decided (thanks to maccath) that I may as well just pay the extra to take the bus there and back each time. Oh, it was only £5.50 return. I'm sure it was £5.90 last year! I can only guess they're getting greater support from the local council now so fares went down. Thus it's only about £2.50 a trip more than the train. Multiply that by 8 weeks and it's still only £20, which is fuck all if this actually helps me. So, no more being stubbornly stupid about that.