boyfriend and banana caramel pie
i went to lunch with Cynthia and her mom and had pie. and now i'm craving that pie like drugs.
normally this entry would go: blah blah blah, miss Roy, blah blah, stupid Daniel, blah blah food however today we shall change it up, no i lied. nevermind.
Roy's HOME! yayyy :) i'm not sure if it's good or bad considering he's home because he has strep and the infection has seeped into the bloodstream. i think i almost started crying when he told me the whole thing. but then the whole "i'm going to the airport, i'll be in McAllen at 9:15 tonight" made it better. it had been an entire month since i'd seen him. and let me tell ya DCI, intense. he's so skinny. well not skinny but lean. its all muscle now. and his short hair and his tan... oooh the tan. his parents picked up JM and i and took us to the airport, it was so weird watching him walk through the gate. i didn't believe that he was actually there. he hugged his parents said and slowly walked towards me. it was surreal. with smile, a breathy "hi" and the most amazing hug ever i realized that i'm hooked on this guy. it's crazy. we sat in the car and it was like a movie or something. we just kept staring at each other, but never touching, not even the brush of a hand, almost scared that if we did the other would break, or instantly be a thousand miles away again. that continued for most of the night. that dreamlike state. kind of like at Christmas when your present is so wonderful that you don't dare to touch it, you just prop it up and admire it for a while before you begin to play. i didn't sleep that night. partly because i was scared about him being sick and partly because i was anxious to see him the next day. i've never driven to his house so fast. it was nice. saw Omar and JC, had a laugh or two. they left and for the first time in a month we were alone. it was nice. silence. no talking no movement. just silence. sitting together, watching a movie and just happy to be sitting next to one another. Monday he has a couple of doctor appointments and then a flight out back East on Tuesday. but for now it's comforting to know his voice is near rather than the East Coast.
side note: i had a dream. it was weird. and quite random. i dreamt that i went to visit Davy and we were watching TV and then people started calling and visiting. random people and then i realized that he was dealing pot out of his house and he had this whole marijuana operation going on. there were bricks of pot under his couch and his dad just thought he had alot of friends. weird.
this whole Daniel "lets be friends" things is not working because in order for it to work he would, oooh i don't know.. have to anwser my calls. what? reminescent of last summer what? yea that's right.
damnit now i want the pie and the sandwich
normally this entry would go: blah blah blah, miss Roy, blah blah, stupid Daniel, blah blah food however today we shall change it up, no i lied. nevermind.
Roy's HOME! yayyy :) i'm not sure if it's good or bad considering he's home because he has strep and the infection has seeped into the bloodstream. i think i almost started crying when he told me the whole thing. but then the whole "i'm going to the airport, i'll be in McAllen at 9:15 tonight" made it better. it had been an entire month since i'd seen him. and let me tell ya DCI, intense. he's so skinny. well not skinny but lean. its all muscle now. and his short hair and his tan... oooh the tan. his parents picked up JM and i and took us to the airport, it was so weird watching him walk through the gate. i didn't believe that he was actually there. he hugged his parents said and slowly walked towards me. it was surreal. with smile, a breathy "hi" and the most amazing hug ever i realized that i'm hooked on this guy. it's crazy. we sat in the car and it was like a movie or something. we just kept staring at each other, but never touching, not even the brush of a hand, almost scared that if we did the other would break, or instantly be a thousand miles away again. that continued for most of the night. that dreamlike state. kind of like at Christmas when your present is so wonderful that you don't dare to touch it, you just prop it up and admire it for a while before you begin to play. i didn't sleep that night. partly because i was scared about him being sick and partly because i was anxious to see him the next day. i've never driven to his house so fast. it was nice. saw Omar and JC, had a laugh or two. they left and for the first time in a month we were alone. it was nice. silence. no talking no movement. just silence. sitting together, watching a movie and just happy to be sitting next to one another. Monday he has a couple of doctor appointments and then a flight out back East on Tuesday. but for now it's comforting to know his voice is near rather than the East Coast.
side note: i had a dream. it was weird. and quite random. i dreamt that i went to visit Davy and we were watching TV and then people started calling and visiting. random people and then i realized that he was dealing pot out of his house and he had this whole marijuana operation going on. there were bricks of pot under his couch and his dad just thought he had alot of friends. weird.
this whole Daniel "lets be friends" things is not working because in order for it to work he would, oooh i don't know.. have to anwser my calls. what? reminescent of last summer what? yea that's right.
damnit now i want the pie and the sandwich