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Jan 20, 2008 19:44

A few weeks into the new year, perhaps still looking back on the old one, perhaps looking forward to what's to come, I'd like to try something. I want to ask a question and hope that a lot of people will answer it for me. Just because I'm curious and because I believe it's something we all wonder at some point ( Read more... )

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randriantastic January 21 2008, 09:33:19 UTC
*huuuugs* I feel really similar, Charness! I'm starting to feel kinda over my job and wondering if I can really do it for two years while I do my course, gah. But it IS decent money and they're being good to me about flexible hours and stuff, so that's good, I guess.

I've also been thinking about moving out - I love my sister but I feel like a lot of the routines I'd established are kinda not there any more... and I kinda feel a lot like I have to be indebted to her and Jake for doing stuff around the house, and then there's the whole gay thing which is kinda an unspoken issue. But I don't think I can really afford it at the moment.

Friends. I'm really hoping to meet some new friends in my new course, but who knows. I don't know if I've really opened up all that much, so why should I really make any new friends if I made only one in my Bachelor's? And a few of my friends have moved away or are going to this year, which is a bit bleak.

Relationship. I've been in a total funk over the past few days, maybe a week, about wanting a boyfriend. I was fine with being single for a while, but I think I'm back in this phase again. I think I want something constant in my life - though I guess relationships aren't always the most constant thing. And this is where my mother would start going on about God, ugh, I am going to make an entry about that.

sigh ANYWAY. You asked, Max. ;)

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atfm January 21 2008, 18:33:59 UTC
At least you'll know that you can hopefully quit the job after two years, but it can be a long time if you don't like it. When does your course start?

Living together with someone after you've lived on your own for quite a while can be difficult because you establish your own routines and patterns and don't have to worry about anything else. So, it's understandable that you think about moving out.

I think France has made you a lot more social, and if you're really open for new friends, you'll eventually find them. I imagine that it could happen quite easily because you're a wonderful person.

A relationship is a constant at least for a while, it's just something to hold on to when everything else gets a little chaotic, and wouldn't it be nice to have someone to come home to? Having someone you love and who loves you can counterbalance a lot of bad things and put them in perspective.

Yes, I asked, and this is the kind of answer I wanted, just completely honest.

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randriantastic January 22 2008, 05:28:11 UTC
It starts Feb 11, which is not far away. I have an info session tomorrow, which I'm kinda exciting about!

Have you considered a career in therapy? ;)

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atfm January 22 2008, 12:33:22 UTC
Ooh, nice! How was it?

LOL, no. ;)

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randriantastic January 23 2008, 06:26:24 UTC
sigh it was really bleak. It wasn't an info session as advertised - it turned out instead to be a course advice session, and it was so lame because everyone showed up at 12, and then there were 4 advisors, and there was NO system and it was so disorganised and I waited ages. And then when I saw the lady, I felt like I didn't get as much information as I wanted but I didn't seem to have any questions, ugh, and other people spent so much longer with them, you know? Anyway, it was bleak. Sorry to rant. :-p

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atfm January 24 2008, 22:19:49 UTC
Ugh, lack of organisation sucks, especially when you could really use some guidance at the beginning of a course. You can probably still get some more info somewhere if you have more questions, right? And as long as the course doesn't suck...you'll be fine, things will fall into place.

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unicorn23 January 21 2008, 23:37:10 UTC
Oh gosh, what a pity party. ;)

I really hope 2008 is a better year for you and me (and for our mutual friends) because I can't take this nonsense anymore. I want to be happy for a change!

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