UGH!!!!!!!
ok, for one thing, i figured i was done with all the high school rumor bullshit when i graduated high school almost 3 years ago. Apparently i was wrong and caught horribly off guard and unarmed for this attack.
Sometimes i think i am a push over and way to forgiving, and this is one of those occasions when the nice guy (or in this case girl) finishes last, and it might be enough to ruin my relationship. And the amazing part is, is the thing killing my relationship is an OUTSIDE person. Its not me and its not anthony sparking this issue.
Enemy #1: Michael Olthof: Wanted for crimes against humanity.
he used to be my best friend, like best best friend. I met him through Anthony. Being the good girlfriend i wanted to meet and possibly befriend his friends. Him and i used to talk a lot in high school. At one point in time he started dating my friend Elle. it wasn't a great relationship, but it doesn't means that he had to lie about her breaking up with him and then flirting with me AND my friend Amm, right? like he told us that she dumped him the day or so before she died, and that night i find out hes flirting with me and amm at the same time...when we were living together...meaning she was on the other side of the house from me. that's just sick right? and before that he even tried to convince me to break up with anthony...(this is while i just started using birth control for the first time and my hormones were coocoo crazy.) and it kind of worked. i went on a "break' with him not being able to deal with ants freaking out while i was bitchy cause of said hormone boost. in fact, michael had even told anthony that if anthony slipped up with me, that he would take me away..YEA right, never have been interested in him what so ever. OH and then after that he lies about his own mother throwing knives at him. with is kind of lame cause thats his own mother..if someone ran off to someone about that then there could have been some real issues there. After that came the whole michael cheating on Amm with her best friend jess....again freaking tacky and then not long after he gets together with jess he tells me that the only reason he gets with her is because he knows anthony and i arent going to break up.
btw, how do i know about all these juicy details? he wrote a journal about all his lies and then set it out for anthony to read...i found it by accident and didn't know what it was (i figured it was ants book he was writing stories in since it had naruto on it). i read it all and found every single one of his dirty little secrets he expected to stay between anthony and him.
but despite all of those things, i didn't judge him. we stayed friends.
but now, once i moved to hagerstown and am all alone and defensless against any emotional blows, he launches a major attack.
he claims im controlling anthony and telling him he can't hang out with him....wtf...
me...
controlling......
WTF, right?
and it gets worse, he then later on decides to call me abusive...
shit, why not add cheating in there too? that would be everything i am against right there in one big bundle.
well, w/e it hurts that the person that i called a best friend to say that about me..and no i want nothing more to do with him in any way shape or form...in fact ive been doing everything in my power to never be around him out of fear of breaking his face open with my fist and kicking him in the nuts so hard and so many times that id give him a sex change.
what made it so bad....was Anthony.
he didn't do anything...
in fact he decided to start going over there a lot all day long..."i figure if i go over there more he'd stop thinking you were controlling me" is his train of thought, mine...
"you look like youre rewarding him for his behavior, if he can put me down and stuff like that you'll just start hanging out with him more"
one day i even got to the point where i told him that i was starting to feel like i would have to make ant chose between michael and me..he wasn't defending me or anything like that and he was hanging out with him all the time and we were fighting more cause he didn't care about how i felt about everything
and what does he do? he goes and hangs out with him yet again the week after i went back home from my visit.
i had begged and cried in front of him to listen and to help me out..and what does he do? as soon as im back home he spends the whole day with him.
i was forced to ask him to choose between me and him.
he chose me.
kind of.
now hes going over there again today to hang out with him and steve and im kind of torn.
on one hand hes going against what he said and how i feel...
but on the other he never gets to see steve cause he goes to school in VA...
i dont know how long i can do this though, the angry and the pain every day cause of this whole thing is so stupid...
i want to stay with anthony, but i dont want to stay with someone who ignores my feelings.
yay emotional tug-o-war
Sometimes i think i am a push over and way to forgiving, and this is one of those occasions when the nice guy (or in this case girl) finishes last, and it might be enough to ruin my relationship. And the amazing part is, is the thing killing my relationship is an OUTSIDE person. Its not me and its not anthony sparking this issue.
Enemy #1: Michael Olthof: Wanted for crimes against humanity.
he used to be my best friend, like best best friend. I met him through Anthony. Being the good girlfriend i wanted to meet and possibly befriend his friends. Him and i used to talk a lot in high school. At one point in time he started dating my friend Elle. it wasn't a great relationship, but it doesn't means that he had to lie about her breaking up with him and then flirting with me AND my friend Amm, right? like he told us that she dumped him the day or so before she died, and that night i find out hes flirting with me and amm at the same time...when we were living together...meaning she was on the other side of the house from me. that's just sick right? and before that he even tried to convince me to break up with anthony...(this is while i just started using birth control for the first time and my hormones were coocoo crazy.) and it kind of worked. i went on a "break' with him not being able to deal with ants freaking out while i was bitchy cause of said hormone boost. in fact, michael had even told anthony that if anthony slipped up with me, that he would take me away..YEA right, never have been interested in him what so ever. OH and then after that he lies about his own mother throwing knives at him. with is kind of lame cause thats his own mother..if someone ran off to someone about that then there could have been some real issues there. After that came the whole michael cheating on Amm with her best friend jess....again freaking tacky and then not long after he gets together with jess he tells me that the only reason he gets with her is because he knows anthony and i arent going to break up.
btw, how do i know about all these juicy details? he wrote a journal about all his lies and then set it out for anthony to read...i found it by accident and didn't know what it was (i figured it was ants book he was writing stories in since it had naruto on it). i read it all and found every single one of his dirty little secrets he expected to stay between anthony and him.
but despite all of those things, i didn't judge him. we stayed friends.
but now, once i moved to hagerstown and am all alone and defensless against any emotional blows, he launches a major attack.
he claims im controlling anthony and telling him he can't hang out with him....wtf...
me...
controlling......
WTF, right?
and it gets worse, he then later on decides to call me abusive...
shit, why not add cheating in there too? that would be everything i am against right there in one big bundle.
well, w/e it hurts that the person that i called a best friend to say that about me..and no i want nothing more to do with him in any way shape or form...in fact ive been doing everything in my power to never be around him out of fear of breaking his face open with my fist and kicking him in the nuts so hard and so many times that id give him a sex change.
what made it so bad....was Anthony.
he didn't do anything...
in fact he decided to start going over there a lot all day long..."i figure if i go over there more he'd stop thinking you were controlling me" is his train of thought, mine...
"you look like youre rewarding him for his behavior, if he can put me down and stuff like that you'll just start hanging out with him more"
one day i even got to the point where i told him that i was starting to feel like i would have to make ant chose between michael and me..he wasn't defending me or anything like that and he was hanging out with him all the time and we were fighting more cause he didn't care about how i felt about everything
and what does he do? he goes and hangs out with him yet again the week after i went back home from my visit.
i had begged and cried in front of him to listen and to help me out..and what does he do? as soon as im back home he spends the whole day with him.
i was forced to ask him to choose between me and him.
he chose me.
kind of.
now hes going over there again today to hang out with him and steve and im kind of torn.
on one hand hes going against what he said and how i feel...
but on the other he never gets to see steve cause he goes to school in VA...
i dont know how long i can do this though, the angry and the pain every day cause of this whole thing is so stupid...
i want to stay with anthony, but i dont want to stay with someone who ignores my feelings.
yay emotional tug-o-war