and now is the beginning of a new year...
...everyone hypes up the new year like we all just magically get to start fresh and have a clean slate just because its the first of january. and ive never bought that shit...to me, new years meant partying and making some bullshit new years resolution every year to either be skinnier or be nicer lol. and neither of them ever worked out haha.
when january rolls around i will still have debt, i will still be broke, still be single, and still be laaaaaame lol.
but im going to use this whole "new year" concept to better myself. i feel like in the past year i have changed soooooo much. i did a complete 180. for the better. for the most part, i like myself...and for once i really can say i respect myself.
but WAIT!...:) There's always room for improvement.
in bettering myself, i lost a lot of friends...which is okay, because losing them was part of bettering myself. soooo one of my missions is to
a. rekindle friendships that just kind of faded that meant a lot to me
b. make many new friends and have a fresh start with at least one new group of friends.
in the next year i will go to school and become certified to be an activities director at the convalescent home that i am currently working at. and that excites the shit out of me..i found a carreer that makes me happy. who knows 10 years from now, but now all i can see is being in the field im in.
since i have my liscence now, YES, i know its fucking late...but thats been a personal battle with myself for years, too much to explain...I HAVVVVVE to get myself a car. which is hard when ur almost living paycheck to paycheck to pay so many bills.
theres more i want to do this year, but...my brain is getting tired from rambling lol...so ima cut it off now...
but yes,
although this year wont be a fresh start in reality...
emotionally,
im gonna get in a fresh MINDSET, and kick this years ass :)
amen.
when january rolls around i will still have debt, i will still be broke, still be single, and still be laaaaaame lol.
but im going to use this whole "new year" concept to better myself. i feel like in the past year i have changed soooooo much. i did a complete 180. for the better. for the most part, i like myself...and for once i really can say i respect myself.
but WAIT!...:) There's always room for improvement.
in bettering myself, i lost a lot of friends...which is okay, because losing them was part of bettering myself. soooo one of my missions is to
a. rekindle friendships that just kind of faded that meant a lot to me
b. make many new friends and have a fresh start with at least one new group of friends.
in the next year i will go to school and become certified to be an activities director at the convalescent home that i am currently working at. and that excites the shit out of me..i found a carreer that makes me happy. who knows 10 years from now, but now all i can see is being in the field im in.
since i have my liscence now, YES, i know its fucking late...but thats been a personal battle with myself for years, too much to explain...I HAVVVVVE to get myself a car. which is hard when ur almost living paycheck to paycheck to pay so many bills.
theres more i want to do this year, but...my brain is getting tired from rambling lol...so ima cut it off now...
but yes,
although this year wont be a fresh start in reality...
emotionally,
im gonna get in a fresh MINDSET, and kick this years ass :)
amen.