An update, by Jupiter!
But not much of one.
Jupiter is stationary today, and accordingly I'm going to try and type something up.
First off, I finally switched the journal layout. I was fairly proud of having been able to redesign the css on the default for Mixit's “Nevermore” to look exactly like the hacked Bloggish “Minimalist” I'd sported earlier, but now I'd rather use something which was designed by an actual user than one of those ported SixApart Vox themes.
On the other hand, I'm none too happy with the way it looks, which is a bit silly on the face of it since it's not like I read my own journal or bother to visit much.
Nevertheless, I still want something more me, which is why I now have a third LJ account, set up as a community purely for testing the various ways in which the available styles can be tweaked. Eventually if I've learned enough I might open it up as a source of hopefully not too ugly layouts which can be used by free accounts.
I've been backing up sporadically from the other journaling service but I don't know if I'll be doing much of that from now on, given LJ's current “clarifications” which are about as clear as mud and allow suspension over the content in locked posts.
I personally don't have anything particularly ban-worthy in mine, though if I'd kept going with the writing last year, I might have eventually ended up with some, given the nature of the relationship dynamics of the characters I was writing.
Also, it's very tedious to crosspost and I've been making an entry a day, sometimes more, for nearly a month now, which is highly unusual for me, considering how disinclined I am to talk about my private life in a public place.
Of course, it's mostly been trivia: what I ate, what I read, what I folded besides laundry.
Which brings me to the other blog.
I keep thinking I should write in it, and keep putting it off. Part of this is because of my aforementioned aversion to ever mentioning more than fleeting details of my personal life, ever. And at the same time it's there as a barometer of my internal state.
I suppose my reluctance to even set any of that down in the heavily abstracted and forcibly detached way I usually write those entries is a reflection of just how screwed up I've been since last year, which is really the last time I even tried reaching out to anybody I didn't already know in real life. I'm not social at the best of times, though I have an admitted fascination with watching human interaction, as long as I don't have to get involved.
I guess as far as the internet goes, I'm a burned out hermit, which is a little depressing considering I'm probably not nearly old enough for that level of cynicism and misanthropy, which is really quite depressing.
If that's what I can look forward to for the rest of my life, I might as well just kill myself now, only it would make a mess on the carpet.
Why does suicide-planning never factor in the cleaning bills?
Fun fact: It really does cost extra. I once read an article by a woman who worked as a cleaning lady and had on occasion to clean up the various stains left behind by people who killed themselves, in their homes. Apparently it leaves behind a horrible mess for the next-of-kin, in more ways than one.
And that's why you need to divest yourself of all material goods and worldy companions, before you go into the woods and off yourself. If you're lucky, your body will be consumed by carnivorous wildlife and you will have added productively to the food chain. If you're not, some hiker will stumble across your corpse and provide the authorities with many wasted hours of determining whether there was foul play involved in your death and harass your former friends and relatives while they're at it.
Possibly one's best bet is to alienate people and leave a videotaped note.
And speaking of alienating people, LJ/SixApart have done a pretty good job of that lately.
Mind you, the portions of fandom which are making the most vocal and visible outcry are not appearing particularly attractive either.
I was thinking it might be easier to start writing about stuff if I start writing about which doesn't really involve me but yet which I have thoughts about nonetheless.
Despite what both sides are saying, it's no more about censoring free speech than it is about removing child porn. The real issues behind are much less idealized and far more complicated than most of the participants perceive or represent them as.
But it's very late and I'm tired, so I'll sleep on it and maybe type something up in the next few days.
Jupiter is stationary today, and accordingly I'm going to try and type something up.
First off, I finally switched the journal layout. I was fairly proud of having been able to redesign the css on the default for Mixit's “Nevermore” to look exactly like the hacked Bloggish “Minimalist” I'd sported earlier, but now I'd rather use something which was designed by an actual user than one of those ported SixApart Vox themes.
On the other hand, I'm none too happy with the way it looks, which is a bit silly on the face of it since it's not like I read my own journal or bother to visit much.
Nevertheless, I still want something more me, which is why I now have a third LJ account, set up as a community purely for testing the various ways in which the available styles can be tweaked. Eventually if I've learned enough I might open it up as a source of hopefully not too ugly layouts which can be used by free accounts.
I've been backing up sporadically from the other journaling service but I don't know if I'll be doing much of that from now on, given LJ's current “clarifications” which are about as clear as mud and allow suspension over the content in locked posts.
I personally don't have anything particularly ban-worthy in mine, though if I'd kept going with the writing last year, I might have eventually ended up with some, given the nature of the relationship dynamics of the characters I was writing.
Also, it's very tedious to crosspost and I've been making an entry a day, sometimes more, for nearly a month now, which is highly unusual for me, considering how disinclined I am to talk about my private life in a public place.
Of course, it's mostly been trivia: what I ate, what I read, what I folded besides laundry.
Which brings me to the other blog.
I keep thinking I should write in it, and keep putting it off. Part of this is because of my aforementioned aversion to ever mentioning more than fleeting details of my personal life, ever. And at the same time it's there as a barometer of my internal state.
I suppose my reluctance to even set any of that down in the heavily abstracted and forcibly detached way I usually write those entries is a reflection of just how screwed up I've been since last year, which is really the last time I even tried reaching out to anybody I didn't already know in real life. I'm not social at the best of times, though I have an admitted fascination with watching human interaction, as long as I don't have to get involved.
I guess as far as the internet goes, I'm a burned out hermit, which is a little depressing considering I'm probably not nearly old enough for that level of cynicism and misanthropy, which is really quite depressing.
If that's what I can look forward to for the rest of my life, I might as well just kill myself now, only it would make a mess on the carpet.
Why does suicide-planning never factor in the cleaning bills?
Fun fact: It really does cost extra. I once read an article by a woman who worked as a cleaning lady and had on occasion to clean up the various stains left behind by people who killed themselves, in their homes. Apparently it leaves behind a horrible mess for the next-of-kin, in more ways than one.
And that's why you need to divest yourself of all material goods and worldy companions, before you go into the woods and off yourself. If you're lucky, your body will be consumed by carnivorous wildlife and you will have added productively to the food chain. If you're not, some hiker will stumble across your corpse and provide the authorities with many wasted hours of determining whether there was foul play involved in your death and harass your former friends and relatives while they're at it.
Possibly one's best bet is to alienate people and leave a videotaped note.
And speaking of alienating people, LJ/SixApart have done a pretty good job of that lately.
Mind you, the portions of fandom which are making the most vocal and visible outcry are not appearing particularly attractive either.
I was thinking it might be easier to start writing about stuff if I start writing about which doesn't really involve me but yet which I have thoughts about nonetheless.
Despite what both sides are saying, it's no more about censoring free speech than it is about removing child porn. The real issues behind are much less idealized and far more complicated than most of the participants perceive or represent them as.
But it's very late and I'm tired, so I'll sleep on it and maybe type something up in the next few days.