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i honestly feel worthless. like i make no difference in anyones life. like i am invisible. well, maybe i do make a difference in people's lives, for the worst. seems like all i do is make people mad or let them down. my promises mean nothing, i have an attitude all the time, all i think about is myself, i'm irresponsible, im two-faced, im a bitch, and whatever else i've heard. i can't write them down, but there is a lot. i feel alone. and i know that i shouldn't and that people are gonna say "oh, im here for you anytime." but really, who honestly wants to hear me complain. who really wants to hear it? NO ONE! sad to say but, all you have is yourselves, but in my case, i don't even have me. i don't know where i am. i am off in another demension. i do stupid things. i just wish i can dissapear. that i can be out of everyones lives. i wont be a bug to them anymore. and i bet you if i was gone, i wouldn't even be missed. i'd like to think that i've learned such and such from the past, but apparently i haven't. i owe lots of money to everyone, i have a piece of shit car, i work for a piece of shit job, i have no one to talk to. my life is useless. sometimes i just want to scream and hit something and cry until i can't anymore, but it never changes anything. nothing changes anything. everything stays the same, it just depends on how you look at things that really changes. i use to have so much and i didn't even realize it. now...............................i'm just stupid.