sometimes...
Things are weird right now. I am on an emotional roller coaster, I swear. No matter if it's a completely new day, and I wake up happy or sad, something always happens to change that.......
Today I woke up happy. I got up at 7am...(yeah, I said 7am, I know thats early for me) even though I had the day off. The night before, Andrew and I had made plans for today to go out to breakfast, and then to hang out at his house until he had to go to work. ;) Well, his mom ended up having the day off also, so, we took her along to breakfast with us. It was cool. Andrew paid for us, and we had a good time. I like his mom a lot! She is a sweet heart. She may do stuff I don't exactly agree with, but nobody's perfect. Anyway, we went back to his house, and then his younger brother called. He doesn't live there, but he'll be moving back soon, in like December. I can't wait to meet him. But, I talked to him for the first time today, he wants to me to hook him up with one of my friends. Ha ha..... That wont be happening. I don't really know anyone thats looking for someone. But anyway, thing just seem to be falling into place with Andrew. I AM happy with him, the only times I get upset is when he drinks. And it's not really the fact that he drinks, it's because sometimes when he is drinking, he says some stuff that isn't so cool. It makes me so angry sometimes that I wonder why I constantly put myself in these kind of situations. Basically, with people who don't understand, or don't WANT to understand. My feelings count to. They're valid just like anyone else's. And also, when he is drinking it just reminds me SO much of when I was younger when my dad use to drink.......Oh well. Things are great with Andrew besides all that drama. I like him A LOT....and I know he likes me too. He is always joking around and making me laugh, and I love that about him. I love when I look into his eyes, and he looks back into mine, and I can tell what he is thinking, and it's so cute that he never says it though. He isn't straight out with his feelings, and it use to bug me so much, but I've learned to be patient and read his body language, and his eyes. "The eyes are the door to the soul."-- It's so true. His eyes are so beautiful. I've noticed that when the wheather is really hot, his eyes turn a bluish green, and when it's pretty cool, they are just pure green. I love when he holds my hand, and me. I get this feeling from him that I haven't had from anyone else since........well....for awhile now.
*sigh* Even though things are going great with Andrew....there is one person I can't and wont ever forget. I've tried, and it wont work. My heart is slowly beginning to heal, but everytime I think that, here comes a day where all I have to hear is one song, or think of one moment we shared, and my eyes literally let out a virtual flood of tears, and I hear my heart tear. It hurts, still, to this day, and I wonder if I'll ever be ok knowing that we had something so great, and we just let it slip away like nothing. I wonder if he thinks of me? I wonder if he even cares. Probably not.
Anyway, my mom was suppose to pick me up like an hour ago, and half way down here, she calls me and says she is making her way back home cuz her truck is giving her problems. It's so typical that this shit always happens to me. I mean, I planned and requested for this weekend off, and I finally get it, and it's finally my turn to share a weekend with my mom, just her and I, and what a coincidence....things go wrong. I am really upset. Not at her, because I know it's not her fault, but just because this sort of stuff always happens right when it's my turn. I don't even know if I'll end up there this weekend......I'm not counting on it.
I'm gonna end this now, I doubt any of you will read this. ha ha....good night.
Today I woke up happy. I got up at 7am...(yeah, I said 7am, I know thats early for me) even though I had the day off. The night before, Andrew and I had made plans for today to go out to breakfast, and then to hang out at his house until he had to go to work. ;) Well, his mom ended up having the day off also, so, we took her along to breakfast with us. It was cool. Andrew paid for us, and we had a good time. I like his mom a lot! She is a sweet heart. She may do stuff I don't exactly agree with, but nobody's perfect. Anyway, we went back to his house, and then his younger brother called. He doesn't live there, but he'll be moving back soon, in like December. I can't wait to meet him. But, I talked to him for the first time today, he wants to me to hook him up with one of my friends. Ha ha..... That wont be happening. I don't really know anyone thats looking for someone. But anyway, thing just seem to be falling into place with Andrew. I AM happy with him, the only times I get upset is when he drinks. And it's not really the fact that he drinks, it's because sometimes when he is drinking, he says some stuff that isn't so cool. It makes me so angry sometimes that I wonder why I constantly put myself in these kind of situations. Basically, with people who don't understand, or don't WANT to understand. My feelings count to. They're valid just like anyone else's. And also, when he is drinking it just reminds me SO much of when I was younger when my dad use to drink.......Oh well. Things are great with Andrew besides all that drama. I like him A LOT....and I know he likes me too. He is always joking around and making me laugh, and I love that about him. I love when I look into his eyes, and he looks back into mine, and I can tell what he is thinking, and it's so cute that he never says it though. He isn't straight out with his feelings, and it use to bug me so much, but I've learned to be patient and read his body language, and his eyes. "The eyes are the door to the soul."-- It's so true. His eyes are so beautiful. I've noticed that when the wheather is really hot, his eyes turn a bluish green, and when it's pretty cool, they are just pure green. I love when he holds my hand, and me. I get this feeling from him that I haven't had from anyone else since........well....for awhile now.
*sigh* Even though things are going great with Andrew....there is one person I can't and wont ever forget. I've tried, and it wont work. My heart is slowly beginning to heal, but everytime I think that, here comes a day where all I have to hear is one song, or think of one moment we shared, and my eyes literally let out a virtual flood of tears, and I hear my heart tear. It hurts, still, to this day, and I wonder if I'll ever be ok knowing that we had something so great, and we just let it slip away like nothing. I wonder if he thinks of me? I wonder if he even cares. Probably not.
Anyway, my mom was suppose to pick me up like an hour ago, and half way down here, she calls me and says she is making her way back home cuz her truck is giving her problems. It's so typical that this shit always happens to me. I mean, I planned and requested for this weekend off, and I finally get it, and it's finally my turn to share a weekend with my mom, just her and I, and what a coincidence....things go wrong. I am really upset. Not at her, because I know it's not her fault, but just because this sort of stuff always happens right when it's my turn. I don't even know if I'll end up there this weekend......I'm not counting on it.
I'm gonna end this now, I doubt any of you will read this. ha ha....good night.