I step up to get there....
I am so tired right now. I've been up since 7:45. Why you may ask? Well, I guess I get up early so I don't feel lazy, BUT I don't get anything done. ha ha ha....I know I am so weird. I might as well sleep.
Anyway, I came to the realization that I am slowly moving on. I am finally getting over him. I am NOT saying I am completely over him, but I AM gradually losing sight of him. Although a part of me wanted to hang on in case he came around, I can't keep doing this to myself. I will admit though, the relationship him and I shared was the best yet. I loved him SO much! I was happy with him, and after a couple months I usually end up losing interest in people. And the best thing about it is the fact that I never had to think twice about if he loved me or not. I know he did. For whatever reason he lost that feeling, at least I knew he did at one point in time and I am glad he was honest with me instead of just staying with me longer and leading me on. It's sad because there were thoughts that would come to my head once in awhile of having a future with him. I've never thought about "marriage" (BLAH, i hate that word) with anyone else. But, whoever he marries will be a lucky girl and I could only hope that maybe one day, once again I will find a love as great as what we once shared.
I owe a lot of my happiness lately to the very few friends who helped me through this. And PLEASE, don't flatter yourself, just cuz I've known you a long time doesn't mean that I mean you. I mean the ones who have actually showed sympathy and have taken the time out of their life to be here for me. Thanks to you guys who have been there for me, you know who you are!!!!!! <333 A big part of my happiness lately has been from Marcus, and I couldn't thank him enough. Even though he can be the biggest punk and piss me off SO MUCH, I know that he loves me and I love him. I can still remember when we started talking barely over a year ago...he was STILL a punk. How surprising. He has always listened to what I have to say, and not everyone has that ability. I love him and I hope I never lose him....<333 Well, I should get to what I have to do today...ha ha. I am such a procrastinator, when will I ever learn?!
-I step up to get there, so I can hold onto this..
I step to get there, 'cause then it's all bliss
You can take me, you can drive the train....<3-
Anyway, I came to the realization that I am slowly moving on. I am finally getting over him. I am NOT saying I am completely over him, but I AM gradually losing sight of him. Although a part of me wanted to hang on in case he came around, I can't keep doing this to myself. I will admit though, the relationship him and I shared was the best yet. I loved him SO much! I was happy with him, and after a couple months I usually end up losing interest in people. And the best thing about it is the fact that I never had to think twice about if he loved me or not. I know he did. For whatever reason he lost that feeling, at least I knew he did at one point in time and I am glad he was honest with me instead of just staying with me longer and leading me on. It's sad because there were thoughts that would come to my head once in awhile of having a future with him. I've never thought about "marriage" (BLAH, i hate that word) with anyone else. But, whoever he marries will be a lucky girl and I could only hope that maybe one day, once again I will find a love as great as what we once shared.
I owe a lot of my happiness lately to the very few friends who helped me through this. And PLEASE, don't flatter yourself, just cuz I've known you a long time doesn't mean that I mean you. I mean the ones who have actually showed sympathy and have taken the time out of their life to be here for me. Thanks to you guys who have been there for me, you know who you are!!!!!! <333 A big part of my happiness lately has been from Marcus, and I couldn't thank him enough. Even though he can be the biggest punk and piss me off SO MUCH, I know that he loves me and I love him. I can still remember when we started talking barely over a year ago...he was STILL a punk. How surprising. He has always listened to what I have to say, and not everyone has that ability. I love him and I hope I never lose him....<333 Well, I should get to what I have to do today...ha ha. I am such a procrastinator, when will I ever learn?!
-I step up to get there, so I can hold onto this..
I step to get there, 'cause then it's all bliss
You can take me, you can drive the train....<3-