yeah
i know, i havent written in forevver, but i need to start again, so many things on my mind lately.
first of all, im a SENIOR. i know its crazy, and i know most people are like HOLY SHIT YEAHHHHH but me, im depressed pretty much. its scary shit. i mean, at the end of this year, ill be out ofo high school, into the "real world" well not really, itll be college but i mean. i know a lot of people think im like an over-acheiver and that im way to involved in school, but being involved is like my release from stress, even though it makes me more stressed? i dont know, its hard to explain, but i mean, i spend more time at this school than i do at my own house, i talk to some of the teachers better than i can talk to my parents, i feel like the school is my home, and not being able to go back to it and be involved is killing me, just even thinking about it. like, i dont know, i know some people are all like, i cant wait to get out, but i can wait, i can wait so bad. i dont want to graduate. i dont want to leave my friends. do you know that in college, youll leave most of your friends at graduation and never see/talk to them again. EVER.. i dont know about you, but my friends are my life, and i cant imagine it without them
i want people to think im secure and that im independent, but im not, and i know im not. and i hate that. GAH. this year has been so awesome so far and its just begun, and its gonna end WAY to soon, and argh, i hate that feeling.
so i suppose its time for a depressing song that makes me cry. here it is.
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
first of all, im a SENIOR. i know its crazy, and i know most people are like HOLY SHIT YEAHHHHH but me, im depressed pretty much. its scary shit. i mean, at the end of this year, ill be out ofo high school, into the "real world" well not really, itll be college but i mean. i know a lot of people think im like an over-acheiver and that im way to involved in school, but being involved is like my release from stress, even though it makes me more stressed? i dont know, its hard to explain, but i mean, i spend more time at this school than i do at my own house, i talk to some of the teachers better than i can talk to my parents, i feel like the school is my home, and not being able to go back to it and be involved is killing me, just even thinking about it. like, i dont know, i know some people are all like, i cant wait to get out, but i can wait, i can wait so bad. i dont want to graduate. i dont want to leave my friends. do you know that in college, youll leave most of your friends at graduation and never see/talk to them again. EVER.. i dont know about you, but my friends are my life, and i cant imagine it without them
i want people to think im secure and that im independent, but im not, and i know im not. and i hate that. GAH. this year has been so awesome so far and its just begun, and its gonna end WAY to soon, and argh, i hate that feeling.
so i suppose its time for a depressing song that makes me cry. here it is.
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.