Things that have been on my mind
I've been thinking about a lot of things recently, most of them are kinda depressing, but it is winter so I'm allowed to be that way. Mostly I've been thinking about my grandmother. She has alzheimers and can't even talk anymore. She can't walk without help and she needs people to feed her and help her go to the bathroom. I remember how much it hurt when I visited Ohio with Jordan and my family. In hindsight, it was silly of me to feel so upset about her condition, I didn't even have to see it everyday like my gradfather or aunt did. It in no way affects me in the same way it affects them, but it still hurt. I remember laying awake one night and the image of my gradfather taking care of my grandmother almost made me cry. He helps her go to the bathroom and every night before she goes to bed he washes her face, brushes her hair, and rubs lotion all over her arms, legs, and face. Then I remember wondering if I could ever be that loving... Could my love ever be that infinite and tender? Yeah, I think weird things, but I couldn't help it. Images like that just stick in your mind.
Never knows best...
Never knows best...