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I feel very thankful right now. I was extremely frustrated by the fact that my visa application is still falling through, but I tidied my room a little, and in the process, flipped through old books and old manga and old artbooks that I bought, but haven't quite had the time to look at again lately.
I love them, and I still enjoy them, even the childish books that I've outgrown. I'm thankful that I had the money and the priorities to buy all these lovely books, instead of anything else. My shelves are overstacked and I want to get new shelves except that my parents won't excuse the expense given that I'm going overseas soon, but I'll miss these books. I'll miss the fact that my books tell me who I am more than I know. The sweep and trajectory of books reflect the important part of me - my convictions and my interests. I don't need diaries or old records of myself to remind me who I am - all I need to do is look at them. These are the books that I read, starting from when I was about 12 to where I am now, and looking at them, I am glad of who they made me.
(Not forgetting my obsession with manga and artbooks, of course. xD But my driving force is still books.)
I buy books, I realized, at a prodigious rate. I used to have to ask my parents for money to buy them; so that was a curb. After I gained control of my expenditure... boom. I looked through my records and realized within the last year, I've probably spent slightly under a thousand dollars on books. D: I read them at an even more horrible pace, given that I also borrow books. xD Nonetheless I feel that I've slacked off, that I'm not reading as much as I used to? Nonetheless, perhaps that's because nowadays I read much more non-fiction, which takes more time to comprehend and digest and process.
I'm happy. I think you could tell me to give up buying clothes and shoes and bags and pretty things, but you couldn't ask me to give up books.
Can you imagine what I'm going to be shipping back after three years in the UK?
I love them, and I still enjoy them, even the childish books that I've outgrown. I'm thankful that I had the money and the priorities to buy all these lovely books, instead of anything else. My shelves are overstacked and I want to get new shelves except that my parents won't excuse the expense given that I'm going overseas soon, but I'll miss these books. I'll miss the fact that my books tell me who I am more than I know. The sweep and trajectory of books reflect the important part of me - my convictions and my interests. I don't need diaries or old records of myself to remind me who I am - all I need to do is look at them. These are the books that I read, starting from when I was about 12 to where I am now, and looking at them, I am glad of who they made me.
(Not forgetting my obsession with manga and artbooks, of course. xD But my driving force is still books.)
I buy books, I realized, at a prodigious rate. I used to have to ask my parents for money to buy them; so that was a curb. After I gained control of my expenditure... boom. I looked through my records and realized within the last year, I've probably spent slightly under a thousand dollars on books. D: I read them at an even more horrible pace, given that I also borrow books. xD Nonetheless I feel that I've slacked off, that I'm not reading as much as I used to? Nonetheless, perhaps that's because nowadays I read much more non-fiction, which takes more time to comprehend and digest and process.
I'm happy. I think you could tell me to give up buying clothes and shoes and bags and pretty things, but you couldn't ask me to give up books.
Can you imagine what I'm going to be shipping back after three years in the UK?