*sniffles*
my mom picked me up after school yesterday and took me to barnes and noble to get my outside reading books for school and i got a manga of gundam seed and a tolkien maps book set. then we came home and she sat me down and told me that my cat had started choking so she took her to the vet and that she died on the way there. the vet had told her the cat assphyxiated on fluid built up in her lungs from asthma. I managed to not cry for about 5 minutes. then she told me after i had cried for ten minutes and finally got myself under some sort of control to 'get over it she was old'. I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!! That cat was my father's first and after he died she became mine and she was like a child to me. We've had her for 9 years. I actually wanted to be in school today...if only for the distraction it provides. I worried all day about my grandmother, 2 aunts, an uncle, and two cousins in the ft. myers area. my mother got ahold of them and they're all ok. I put away all pics of my cat for now, i might take them back out in a few days but right now it just hurts too much to see them. then there's darryl being a total ass as always. saying he loves me, but loves alex more which is a total load of bull. I ignored him yesterday or gave him cold detatched answers and he asked why i'm mad at him...hmm...I wonder?! total asshole. If it was legal i'd castrate him by stringing him to a cieling with a piano string
!!!! *sigh* I'm having a really bad start to my senior year. And Ricky tried to feed me octopus flavored chips at lunch yesterday! eww gross. *sigh* I still love him a lot but i know i can't have him back so i settle for just being friends. it was his birthday yesterday too...i forgot about it until someone said happy birthday to him. *sigh* I need to see a psychologist but i don't have enough money, nor will my mother give me permission anyway.
Now that I've ranted out everything I feel minimally better, i'd feel loads better if i could rant to an actual person face to face but it's not possible right now. I can't wait till monday.
!!!! *sigh* I'm having a really bad start to my senior year. And Ricky tried to feed me octopus flavored chips at lunch yesterday! eww gross. *sigh* I still love him a lot but i know i can't have him back so i settle for just being friends. it was his birthday yesterday too...i forgot about it until someone said happy birthday to him. *sigh* I need to see a psychologist but i don't have enough money, nor will my mother give me permission anyway.
Now that I've ranted out everything I feel minimally better, i'd feel loads better if i could rant to an actual person face to face but it's not possible right now. I can't wait till monday.