Kitty love
I have been crying for hours. My eyes are hurting, and I know that tomorrow my eyes are going to be so swollen that i am going to look like a horrid toad.
My Vesna is most likely dying. Today we woke up and we saw that she was having a really hard time breathing. We had noticed that she hadn't been herself the last few days, but we thought she was just really tired from the heat. We called around like 10 vets today, all closed due to the holiday. Thank God there is an emergency animal hospital ( which I just found about today) where we took her. As soon as the triage nurse saw her, she snatched Vesna from our arms and took her into intensive care. She was given oxigen. An hour later we were told that her lungs had collapsed, and that they ahd to drain fluids from outside her lungs (which caused her lungs to collpse). Anyway they kept her over night for intensive care and all the works. Just today and tomorrow is costing us $1800. We can barely afford this, but we could not let our precious little girl die. HOwever, the vet called a few hours ago, she had deteriorated, she is now in an incubator, with 95% oxygen levels. The likelihood is that it is cancer or heart problems. We are devasted, we probably can't afford treatment, and even if we can, I am not sure if that is the right thing to do.
Anyway we wont know anything for sure until tomorrow. Marcus and I are devasted. Pretty much crying all evening. She is our little darling. She and Eowyne were a big step in our relationship, they made our apartment home, we weren't just a couple once we got them, we were a family.
Roxana called and talked about how it could be worse, it could be a child, or marcus or some crap like that. It got me SO SO mad. I know that losing a cat is not the worse thing in the world, but we love her, and it is so devastating to lose her. I know that in the bigger picture there are worse things to happen, but right now, today, when I just found out that I am most likely going to lose my little girl, I just wanted to be entitled to be sad, because I am sad. I am so fucking sad.
Anyway I have work to do and I am trying REALLY hard to write coherent reports between my sobbing
My Vesna is most likely dying. Today we woke up and we saw that she was having a really hard time breathing. We had noticed that she hadn't been herself the last few days, but we thought she was just really tired from the heat. We called around like 10 vets today, all closed due to the holiday. Thank God there is an emergency animal hospital ( which I just found about today) where we took her. As soon as the triage nurse saw her, she snatched Vesna from our arms and took her into intensive care. She was given oxigen. An hour later we were told that her lungs had collapsed, and that they ahd to drain fluids from outside her lungs (which caused her lungs to collpse). Anyway they kept her over night for intensive care and all the works. Just today and tomorrow is costing us $1800. We can barely afford this, but we could not let our precious little girl die. HOwever, the vet called a few hours ago, she had deteriorated, she is now in an incubator, with 95% oxygen levels. The likelihood is that it is cancer or heart problems. We are devasted, we probably can't afford treatment, and even if we can, I am not sure if that is the right thing to do.
Anyway we wont know anything for sure until tomorrow. Marcus and I are devasted. Pretty much crying all evening. She is our little darling. She and Eowyne were a big step in our relationship, they made our apartment home, we weren't just a couple once we got them, we were a family.
Roxana called and talked about how it could be worse, it could be a child, or marcus or some crap like that. It got me SO SO mad. I know that losing a cat is not the worse thing in the world, but we love her, and it is so devastating to lose her. I know that in the bigger picture there are worse things to happen, but right now, today, when I just found out that I am most likely going to lose my little girl, I just wanted to be entitled to be sad, because I am sad. I am so fucking sad.
Anyway I have work to do and I am trying REALLY hard to write coherent reports between my sobbing