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christys birthday party was very fun.
i just impaled my foot on a pin.
chany and i, being the little rebels we are, rode in cars with teen drivers (and are still alive to talk about it) to go play pool at a pool playing place. then we all went for sushi. chandra and i werent going to get to go, but we just hovered untill we got a ride because we really wanted to (which is why i beat myself to a bloody pulp on the inside when will asked if we'd been forced to go). i dont think will likes us much... well i dont know... any way, we went back downtown after that. chany and i just walked together for that.
a perfect sonney just came on. i think i'll cry.
i want to be friends with them so bad. i hate being shy and wish so badly that i werent. sitting at dinner someone was talking to me and i got this feeling- one that i had only ever gotten at camp. i dont think i ever will become friends with them. christy didnt think we were having fun and i'm just a stupid self-conciouse idiot.
yep. this song does it every time.
i hope that they dont think i dont like them or that i'm stuck up or anything. a lot of times people mistake shyness for something like that.
i hope/dream that i will become friends. and that i will be their friend as much as they are mine.
come on eileen is on now. i got a little rush during the 1st verse. that was strange.
a lightly different point: i have a dilema.
i refuse to change myself to make anyone like me.
i dont think the kind of people i would want to be friends with would really dislike me if they got to know me, but... theres things.. like overall attitude, or way of talking... hmm... ok, all the people at camp have sort of the same attitude and way of talking. same with stage crew. its just because they've spent so much time together that these little traits and charachteristics have rubbed off on one another. you dont need to have these characteristics to fit in. but some people will also conform to these charachteristics in order to fit in, because they think thats what you have to do. they'll act like everyone else, and go out of their way to be cool. probably doesnt make sense to anyone else, but i highly doubt anyone else reads this thing anyway.
so, yeah. i will not conform, though i must work on becoming less shy and more soicial.
i dont want to spend the rest of my senior year eating lunch alone.
i just impaled my foot on a pin.
chany and i, being the little rebels we are, rode in cars with teen drivers (and are still alive to talk about it) to go play pool at a pool playing place. then we all went for sushi. chandra and i werent going to get to go, but we just hovered untill we got a ride because we really wanted to (which is why i beat myself to a bloody pulp on the inside when will asked if we'd been forced to go). i dont think will likes us much... well i dont know... any way, we went back downtown after that. chany and i just walked together for that.
a perfect sonney just came on. i think i'll cry.
i want to be friends with them so bad. i hate being shy and wish so badly that i werent. sitting at dinner someone was talking to me and i got this feeling- one that i had only ever gotten at camp. i dont think i ever will become friends with them. christy didnt think we were having fun and i'm just a stupid self-conciouse idiot.
yep. this song does it every time.
i hope that they dont think i dont like them or that i'm stuck up or anything. a lot of times people mistake shyness for something like that.
i hope/dream that i will become friends. and that i will be their friend as much as they are mine.
come on eileen is on now. i got a little rush during the 1st verse. that was strange.
a lightly different point: i have a dilema.
i refuse to change myself to make anyone like me.
i dont think the kind of people i would want to be friends with would really dislike me if they got to know me, but... theres things.. like overall attitude, or way of talking... hmm... ok, all the people at camp have sort of the same attitude and way of talking. same with stage crew. its just because they've spent so much time together that these little traits and charachteristics have rubbed off on one another. you dont need to have these characteristics to fit in. but some people will also conform to these charachteristics in order to fit in, because they think thats what you have to do. they'll act like everyone else, and go out of their way to be cool. probably doesnt make sense to anyone else, but i highly doubt anyone else reads this thing anyway.
so, yeah. i will not conform, though i must work on becoming less shy and more soicial.
i dont want to spend the rest of my senior year eating lunch alone.