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done with waiting for it to get better..
done with thinking that this would actually work..
done with pretty much everything that has to do with him..
yeah. i hate to admit but i really put all this onto myself. like if i didn't see him in pe i would have NEVER met him. but know my thoughts and stuff really made me wanna meet him and like i did. and it's pretty much a lot of my fault. when he calls and stuff i mean it's nice but sometimes TOO MUCH it's like 'yo go get a life that doesn't involve messin' with me" i mean really there's nothing better for him to do. i doubt he never even liked me.
i hate how this has to be my first experience with a guy. this is a really GAY experience. that's why i think guys are gay and i don't want anything to do with them for a while. but next year is sophomore year and maybe.. MAYBE people have gotten more mature over summer? we'll just have to see. i just hope i enjoy summer just as much as i enjoyed freshman year. i don't know what to do anymore i think i might as well just stop talking to him and only talk to him if he calls. or something.
yesterday.. YESTERDAY
was sooo stupid. i mean we had the spring ralley and all it was pretty fun. but the PEOPLE oh my goodness how many times do you freakin' have to ask kim? i mean she said no.. and that was the fckin' truth. they don't know when to just stop. ughh fuckers really.
it's funny how sometimes i can be so mad with someone and they have no idea why i'm acting so different to them. it's funny how they act like i don't know anything about them when i really know A LOT about them. some people are seriously like that and they think they can freakin' cover it up and make it look like they're GOOD somehow when really i know the freakin' BAD things they do and how many people they're hurting. well that's high school for you.
this year was nothing like i'd expect.i thought it was gonna be like a regular middle school year when you're just the youngest and everything goes by smoothly. i was SO wrong. i met some older people who are pretty close to me now and got into things i didn't expect to get in. i loove this year with a passion. SOME drama here and there but it's all good cuz it's just typical freshman drama. haha next year is gonna be siiick. sophomore year here WE come. i'm gonna be hella sad though cuz A LOT of people are leaving this year and.. it's not gonna be the same without them. ughh well i love them all and they know it. all right i'm sick so i'm gonna lie down :)
done with thinking that this would actually work..
done with pretty much everything that has to do with him..
yeah. i hate to admit but i really put all this onto myself. like if i didn't see him in pe i would have NEVER met him. but know my thoughts and stuff really made me wanna meet him and like i did. and it's pretty much a lot of my fault. when he calls and stuff i mean it's nice but sometimes TOO MUCH it's like 'yo go get a life that doesn't involve messin' with me" i mean really there's nothing better for him to do. i doubt he never even liked me.
i hate how this has to be my first experience with a guy. this is a really GAY experience. that's why i think guys are gay and i don't want anything to do with them for a while. but next year is sophomore year and maybe.. MAYBE people have gotten more mature over summer? we'll just have to see. i just hope i enjoy summer just as much as i enjoyed freshman year. i don't know what to do anymore i think i might as well just stop talking to him and only talk to him if he calls. or something.
yesterday.. YESTERDAY
was sooo stupid. i mean we had the spring ralley and all it was pretty fun. but the PEOPLE oh my goodness how many times do you freakin' have to ask kim? i mean she said no.. and that was the fckin' truth. they don't know when to just stop. ughh fuckers really.
it's funny how sometimes i can be so mad with someone and they have no idea why i'm acting so different to them. it's funny how they act like i don't know anything about them when i really know A LOT about them. some people are seriously like that and they think they can freakin' cover it up and make it look like they're GOOD somehow when really i know the freakin' BAD things they do and how many people they're hurting. well that's high school for you.
this year was nothing like i'd expect.i thought it was gonna be like a regular middle school year when you're just the youngest and everything goes by smoothly. i was SO wrong. i met some older people who are pretty close to me now and got into things i didn't expect to get in. i loove this year with a passion. SOME drama here and there but it's all good cuz it's just typical freshman drama. haha next year is gonna be siiick. sophomore year here WE come. i'm gonna be hella sad though cuz A LOT of people are leaving this year and.. it's not gonna be the same without them. ughh well i love them all and they know it. all right i'm sick so i'm gonna lie down :)