246. On A Rainy Saturday Afternoon ...
Since in a week, I will be officially unemployed freelancing (gulp!) I have to leave my current rented boarding and return back to live with my parents. At least until I decide my next step. If I enroll for master degree in January/February, I might rent another place near the university. However, in the meantime, while I don't have monthly fixed income, better go back to live with my parents for the time being. Of course, I will still try to ask for projects to do, thus I can still help them paying for my own stuffs as well as Internet and phone bill.
Yes, I have thought of all of these. I know it will not be easy to lose my fixed income, but I hope I can still get projects (freelancing). Cross fingers. I want to think positively since I believe by leaving this one, I can open other possibilities to do / get things I currently don't have in my life.
Anyway, today, I took out all of my items from my boarding. My sister helped me. Then we went to a Mall. I wanted to buy something for my mother's birthday next week. I must scratched my head 'cause I had no idea what to give her. In the end, I ended up purchasing a blender to replace her old one.
My mood have been running havoc. I just feel sad ... yesterday I sobbed until almost lost my breath just because I re-read Josh Lanyon's "The White Knight" and "The Dark Tide". The this morning, I cried again reading K.Z. Snow's "Mobry's Dick". I blame my period (that started yesterday) or the rain. It has been raining every afternoon for the past week. It's raining again this afternoon and already I want to bawl.
I better go now. Want to make popcorn. Or playing with photoshop (I miss doing that). Or watch either Burn Notice or Haven. Or, admiring my new shiny toy, Samsung YP-P3 (thanks to tyrant_mouth who was willing to buy it in Singapore) -- which replaces his older sister, YP-P2 as my mp3 player.
Yes, I have thought of all of these. I know it will not be easy to lose my fixed income, but I hope I can still get projects (freelancing). Cross fingers. I want to think positively since I believe by leaving this one, I can open other possibilities to do / get things I currently don't have in my life.
Anyway, today, I took out all of my items from my boarding. My sister helped me. Then we went to a Mall. I wanted to buy something for my mother's birthday next week. I must scratched my head 'cause I had no idea what to give her. In the end, I ended up purchasing a blender to replace her old one.
My mood have been running havoc. I just feel sad ... yesterday I sobbed until almost lost my breath just because I re-read Josh Lanyon's "The White Knight" and "The Dark Tide". The this morning, I cried again reading K.Z. Snow's "Mobry's Dick". I blame my period (that started yesterday) or the rain. It has been raining every afternoon for the past week. It's raining again this afternoon and already I want to bawl.
I better go now. Want to make popcorn. Or playing with photoshop (I miss doing that). Or watch either Burn Notice or Haven. Or, admiring my new shiny toy, Samsung YP-P3 (thanks to tyrant_mouth who was willing to buy it in Singapore) -- which replaces his older sister, YP-P2 as my mp3 player.