everything hurts right now.

[at_least_i_try]

It's over.
Anything I wanted is no longer attainable.
What I hoped for is no longer worth it.
I cant believe that I allowed myself to get so fucking caught up.
I deserve shit.
Some would say that I gave up too soon.
They just dont get it.
I'm tired.
I'm tired of struggling in every fucking area in my life.
When is it going be easy?
When the fuck I'm I finally going to be able to take a deep breath and simply breath? Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

*I hurt him damnit*