letting go.

[shroudedinveils]

Trying to let go of this horrible crush. I think I like him, but I know it's not love. And it sucks because I see/or talk to him just about every god damn day.

Mimesis

If you won’t go there
I won’t follow where you don’t.
If you want to go,
I’ll go it alone.
Because inside I’m torn apart
I’m without conclusions.
I’m facing in the wrong direction,
And lost in illusions.

I open your pages,
And read you word for word.
I can’t release this feeling inside.
I’m holding it tight,
Clutching what I thought was something I could give you.
It has never been right,
This mimesis I’ve drawn,
Will not console the night.
It will not satisfy,
This complex I’ve created,
Will not clarify.
There’s no need to hold on anymore,
To what I know lies behind that door.
I really thought I knew before,
But I’m sure now there is nothing you adore-
About me.

A Deep breath I release.
My fortress,
I will no longer keep.
Outside this brick wall,
There is so much more.
There is something sought,
So sometimes slumber seems
Cumbersome.
In my restless nights,
I'll forget where I inspired you from.
The pages will tear themselves,
And the book will lay upon the floor.
From now on I'll play my own chords.
I will consider you no more.