my two cents...and then some...
i am annoyed with myself. i am in dire neeed for help with my sleeping problems. well those problems as well as many others...but still. i am angry. and not angry in a sinful way..b/c i'm not realy angry..my anger feels a bit more like determination. i am sick and tired of sittign back and watching opportunity pass me by...i don't want to live a life of regrets. i want more coastal mornings, more late IN&OUT nights, more weak moments where i call someone over to be my comfort, more saugus cafe mornings, more long talks, more inspiration, more signs of friendship, deeper convictions, stronger faith, a more forgiving heart, more ability to express my love for God to those i love...if they can see the passion in my eyes and hear it in my voice than maybe i can be of some help to them in the long run, more toasted marshmallows, more moments of truth and honesty, more i love yous, i want to let loose and allow myself to be subject to life....less sleeping, more living...no thinking about my past life, appreciating here and now, helping others reach their potential(yes, that means you), and seeign that i can accompish something....i can i can i can
i have a billion things to do, school work blah..but i just need to focus and i'll be able to get something accomplished and it will be great. i'm learning lessons...i'm learning that God's plans for me are very far from my plans for myself...and i am going to be accepting of that. i think i'm gonan stop trying to plan out my future....especially my marriage. God has different plans for me, more beautiful plans i'm sure.
Ryan is moving here...i think he will be in town very soon...he was in mississippi when he called. i can't believe he is moving here....who is speechless? oh yah, that would be me. just when i thought i had it all figured out God goes and throws me a curve ball. i need to keep a check on my motives, otherwise i will say a lot of things i will definitely regret.
i started my morning off in SC and i will be back there again soon. i wonder where God is taking me, i know it's where i least expect. the less i think about it the better. but i need to and want to be a woman of ation, no more sitting around wondering if someoen will just stroll up to me and say "hey you have a bible, can i go to church with you", yah...no more of that lame thinking...ihave a purpose, time to realize it and take hold of it. time to put aside all my emotions and all my confuson and all my selfish thouhts. I don't know what is best for me adn i'm not going to try to understand what i need. i need to be taught and corrected, but at the same time i need to help others, let them know how i see things, use my wisdom and vision to be of use in their lives. we are a family, and we need to act liek it, we need to be united, and we need to be loving, our friendships are truly important for our christian lives and until we fail to see their importance..we won't get too far. God comes first, but God puts people in our lives for a reason. i learned the hard way that i can't do it o my own...anyone who thinks they can is insane....i have a lot more to say, but i don't think this is the proper forum for it..if anyone wants to discuss any of my crazy babble with me, feel free to do so. believe me, i have a lot to say. i am thankful for my friendships and i am thankful for the grace we are given, because i know we are all in need of it
i have a billion things to do, school work blah..but i just need to focus and i'll be able to get something accomplished and it will be great. i'm learning lessons...i'm learning that God's plans for me are very far from my plans for myself...and i am going to be accepting of that. i think i'm gonan stop trying to plan out my future....especially my marriage. God has different plans for me, more beautiful plans i'm sure.
Ryan is moving here...i think he will be in town very soon...he was in mississippi when he called. i can't believe he is moving here....who is speechless? oh yah, that would be me. just when i thought i had it all figured out God goes and throws me a curve ball. i need to keep a check on my motives, otherwise i will say a lot of things i will definitely regret.
i started my morning off in SC and i will be back there again soon. i wonder where God is taking me, i know it's where i least expect. the less i think about it the better. but i need to and want to be a woman of ation, no more sitting around wondering if someoen will just stroll up to me and say "hey you have a bible, can i go to church with you", yah...no more of that lame thinking...ihave a purpose, time to realize it and take hold of it. time to put aside all my emotions and all my confuson and all my selfish thouhts. I don't know what is best for me adn i'm not going to try to understand what i need. i need to be taught and corrected, but at the same time i need to help others, let them know how i see things, use my wisdom and vision to be of use in their lives. we are a family, and we need to act liek it, we need to be united, and we need to be loving, our friendships are truly important for our christian lives and until we fail to see their importance..we won't get too far. God comes first, but God puts people in our lives for a reason. i learned the hard way that i can't do it o my own...anyone who thinks they can is insane....i have a lot more to say, but i don't think this is the proper forum for it..if anyone wants to discuss any of my crazy babble with me, feel free to do so. believe me, i have a lot to say. i am thankful for my friendships and i am thankful for the grace we are given, because i know we are all in need of it