OH FOR FUCKSAKE
im not going to work tomorrow and i have a feeling thats going to come back and bite me in the ass. anyway...ive been feeling terribly lonely. its been a year since ive had a REAL [well as real and nice as it could get] relationship. i miss having someone there that i can call and demand to come over and will do it. i miss having someone that i can be silly with. SIGH...
there is this huge toxic thing in my life right now and its called work. i dont know its just like...sucking the life out of me. everyone there pretty much sucks theres nothing really to look forward to. no one decent fucking works there anymore. im calling in "sick" tomorrow i feel like i havent gotten any sleep. not only that but work is draining as it is. today i felt so fucking lazy. i took an extra long lunch and like left a mess wherever i went it was just such shit. plus i left like 10 mintes early. i think i have gotten to the point where i dont even care anymore. i just wnat a new job now and it doesnt even matter what it is. so long as it isnt as stressful and gay like walmart. OH and earlier when i was talking to mauri i was telling her that there are not hot mens that work at my store...well they do its just they work at fucking three in the morning. theres this one guy that rides a bike and i couldnt really see his face bc it just so happned that a car drove in my line of view and when it went by he was already inside the store.
i feel like babbling since i havent done it in a while. plus everytime i get online everyone is either away or they dont have anything to say. i cant believe that i broke another phone. i just realized that all my phones die by drowning. that awesome new phone that i was always showing off in high school...yup took a swim in the pool. then second one jumped out my pocket at work and dove into the nasty chicken sink. and this one fell out of my pocket and dropped into the toilet when i was about to sit and piss. lol. shiiiaaat. tomorrow im gonna have to clean my room and bathroom which is ultra gay. i th ink monday im going to look around for another job since i havent heard anything from FHP. my dad said that he talked to the major about me and said that he put in a good word. its taking way too long i cant stand it, well. it hasnt even been a month i think im just about ready to quit and move onto something else. and that FHP job is just so convientant and i dont think i ever wanted anything so bad other than going to FSC.
holy shit can like the news channels please report like...I DUNNO SOMETHING FUCKING NEWSWORTHY?!? grr im so annoyed i pretty much want to destroy something. im sure ya'll are tired of hearing me rant about how gay my work is.