Thank you for reminding me of all the things Ive done completely wrong...
IM TIRED OF DOING THIS SHIT EVERY FUCKING WEEKEND.
Im tired of crying
Im tired of being taken for granted
Im tired of being taken advantage of
Im tired of being lied to
IM NOT STUPID
I can figure stupid shit like this out...quit acting like im too much of a dumbshit to find anything out...IM NOT
I DONT DESERVE IT
The reason why it REALLY makes me so upset is because i know i could have something different....but I chose to be "stupid" and "make stupid decisions". I have an alternative...it probably wouldnt fill the gap that this would leave, but its better than going through this shit. Actually....anything is better than this. Im perfectly capable of ending it...but then again im not. We got this far and Im being honest...why cant you? Why cant you make me feel like i made the right decision? Why do you just say words...instead of saying words that actually had emotion and meaning behind them?
I give up.......
And Ill be fine.....